December 3rd, almost a month since my last entry, and in this month you can say I discovered and learned quite a lot of things from various people - met, got to know and know for a while.

And I have to say, I'm pleased with what I've found... And disappointed with others.

Anyway, school-wise, apparently some of my worries have been unfounded. They were just measly worries that I have stirring in my mind quite often. My group mates are doing their part (not to the extent that I'd like but it's better than nothing), and it reduces the burden on my shoulders. Lucky me, I was really afraid they'd be uncooperative, but turns out they're good people.

Our project might actually be in the bag, provided they provide good research material, in the meantime I'll just focus on the individual aspects of our modules - common tests. Heavy weightage on our grades, goodness it's scary how fast and how cramped they're placed together. Hopefully it won't be hard... Well, it won't be as long as I study efficiently. Looks like I'm gonna be sacrificing sleep again like I've been these past few nights - 3 to 4 hours of sleep a day because I've been up studying for the Marcomm quiz (it really was easy if you studied!) and completing my gracomm assignments - logo and Bauhaus postcards.

I have developed a new appreciation for films and architecture now, after 6 weeks of this new semester. I gotta say, it's opened my eyes in new ways. I see the world and the media industry differently now... And there are some parts where I'm not very happy with, but... it's life. Hopefully we all don't become bitches in order to survive in a dog-eat-dog industry.

But anyway, onto more mentally-exhaustive and disappointing matters that I have to get off my chest otherwise I'd probably explode, but truly people's arrogance, cockiness and pessimism seriously piss me off, and disappoint me.

As what I've learnt from Tumblr - I AM DISAPPOINT. Very badly.

In Facebook recently there's this viral ad calling for everyone to change their display pictures to old school cartoon characters as a way to spread awareness about child abuse. But with every good intention and campaign there's always a few assholes who go around spoiling the good intention with their pretentious and snide attitude.

Long story short, basically two insensible idiots bastards went to comment on my status that following this trend is of utter uselessness and if child abuse was really to be prevented, REAL action would have to be done instead of just changing your display pictures to cartoon characters. And they had the fucking balls to team up and laugh with their posh vocabulary about how ridiculous the whole idea was... And this was all on my wall.

I don't know how to feel but embarrassed and angry. VERY embarrassed and angry.

One, did you have to attack me because I chose to do it as I felt it was a good cause that deserved attention?

Two, did you have to laugh it up and believe that this viral campaign was a waste of time and the person who created this in the first place was hoping to spread awareness instead of being insecure and trying to gain more internet popularity?

Three, are you that pessimistic in life that you do not see the message as a way of spreading awareness about child abuse? Yes, maybe more can be done instead of just spreading awareness, but do you not realize that awareness is the key step before someone feels compelled to take action against child abuse? Or are you reading this right now thinking that it still is useless and you're still right despite me believing you're wrong in thinking so?

I figured. Fucking arrogance and ego is a disastrous disease in everyone. It's just very prevalent in some poor sods, hopefully it's not contagious.

I know I can't do much to make the world a better place, but if I can at least spread awareness in one way or another to help people, then I would gladly do so. I sometimes do not have the motivation, time, opportunity or money to really help people in need, but at least I have the intention to. Whatever little that can be done, I will do.

What the fuck have you done? You've just shot down a good cause with your atrocious mindset and your scathing words.

It just makes my blood boil that you do not believe in even trying to spread awareness, or even try to help in any way.

It upsets me that you two are my friends. You make me feel ashamed. Truly.

I have a good mind to call you up and scream at you but I don't want to waste my energy, and already this has drained my energy and fuck, I wanted to stay up and do my gracomm work. I'm supposed to print out everything this Sunday and I don't wish to see your putrid face.

Truly, I am angry, upset, embarrassed, ashamed and just pissed off.

I know people will not agree with my statement, especially the two people should they come across this chunk of angry bitching, but I have my reasons. And well, I'm trying to make a change as well, but I'm not doing so well.

Fuck. It's a Friday and it's about to end badly. Great. Just great. I despise people. I seriously, seriously despise people. But I will not let this get me down. The world as ugly as it is beautiful.

Like Jared Leto. Dear god I watched 30 Seconds to Mars's new video, Hurricane. GOD IT WAS HOT. Sinister, dark and a little repulsive (bondage, sex and all), but it was truly a work of art expressing the violence and sex in this world.

Jared Leto, you are a true visionary. I'd like to have sex with you, thank you. :3

- -8<- - - - WELCOME to the world of the PLASTIC BEACH - - - ->8- -

a DARK beach with a BLACK view ; it was 11:10 PM

"When the paralytic dreams that we all seem to keep. Drive on engines till they weep. With future pixels in factories far away."

"Singing songs that make you slit your wrists,
It isn't that much fun..."

M N. 5th of the April. 17. Singapore. Female. Facebook. Tumblr.

Ex-Chongfu Primary. / Ex-CHAS.
Graduated Orchid Park Secondary:
Ex-Drama. Ex-Debater. Ex-Student Councillor. Ex-1A3-ian. Once-and-forever-2A3-ian. Ex-3A1-ian. Ex-PROUD-4A1-ian.

NGEE ANN FMS MCM [mass comm] T107/T102. RADIOHEATWAVE.COM Radio DJ. STAGE 52.

IN A RELATIONSHIP ♥

FYI, I quote a LOT of lyrics.

NOT emo, just tends to be more depressed than I'd like.
NOT a rocker, but loves to rock out.
NOT so sure i know who i am.
SUFFERS from Dermatillomania
a passionate LOVE for the colour RED
& PROUD TO BE A freak. Are you?

1. Love myself.
2. Self-Acceptance.
3. Eradicate insecurities.
4. Not to care.
5. Work hard in school.
6. Start over.
7. Take it slow.
8. Keep promises.
9. GPA >3.8 [yr 1.2,1.1,2.2,2.1,3.2]
10. To be MISERABLE and HAPPY.


"If it's not enough, try again. And again. Over and over again."

[[ WaNTS && WiSHES ]]

(1) Gorillaz - Plastic Beach
(2) 30STM - This Is War
(3) New Headphones
(4) Those new JEANS
(5) A Teenage Dream

Alex. :)♥ (my bumbling idiot)

HUTTSON My poopoo DOGGIE. ♥♥♥

BANDS :: MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE. Placebo. Marilyn Manson. 30 Seconds to Mars. Avenged Sevenfold. Linkin Park. Gorillaz. The Blackout. The Academy Is... Fall Out Boy. Bullet For My Valentine. Before Their Eyes. Lady Gaga. Just to name a VERY few...

HEROES :: GERARD WAY. TDK Joker. Jared Leto. Brian Molko. Draco Malfoy. 2D. Gerard Way. ♥ XD

Dilemmas.
The conflict.
Inner conflict.
Prejudiced people.
BUGS.

2A3-ians ♥ We Rock. Like Hell.
3/4A1-ians Over speed limit :D
Shoethrowers ♥ FAMILY
Apphia! :D :D :D Hee.
Azira A-zi-zi-ziraaaa! ♥ xD
Elizabeth ♥!
Elva VaVa :D
Farhan
Gavin
Isabelle
Jessica :D :D :D
Joanne ♥ XD
Joel is a legend!
Kenn Ninjaboy :D
Keng Ying CUZZIN! :D
Li Qing :DDD!
Matin! :D So cuute!
Nazry BiTCH!♥
Pearlyn So cute. :D
Rui Shuin Mah Couzin :D
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Samuel ... Moo. :D ♥
Sarah BestFriend WALRUS ♥♥♥
Sheereen :DDD She cool yo!
Shi Wei :D:D:D So rad!
Si Ying, Tan rroooccckksss. :]
Si Ying, Yeh :D
Su Min She rocks!
Su Yuan :]

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But the past ain't through with you."

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I'm nothing but a beautiful disaster,
Crying tears of blood and joy
Into this black void.
Oblivion;
It's the place to be.
Ephemeral Romance.
Will you come with me?




i want to be

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