As I promised, I would update both my blogs and as I've stated on my tumblr, I will effectively do my best to write out my thoughts and experiences in a journal-like format everything to effeciently practice my writing.

MCM students gotta learn how to write well, yes? But problem is it's not creative writing like I thought it was, it's journalism writing. That's gonna have to take a lot of commitment and analysis (everyone's so ANAL about it, no wonder it's called ANALysis).

Oh well, but since it's private (well, somewhat) journal entries on my blog / tumblr / personal real journal, then I guess it's fine.

Today's journal entry is dated for the 27th May, yesterday technically because I got home way too late after TGIT with Charlotte, Praise, Azira and a little bit of Adelyn.

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School started out normal, but with a little observation whilst taking the shuttle bus from Woodlands to Ngee Ann today: The Line was surprisingly thinner. The first feeder bus at 7.55 AM was somewhat empty. Window seats were all snapped up, but very few inside-passenger seats were occupied.

I've always wondered why people in the queue sometimes don't wish to board that current bus in the bay and wait for the next bus instead. Is it that they feel it's too early to take a bus to school? - traffic's smooth, journey usually takes around 30 minutes more or less. Or maybe they felt that they absolutely must, against all odds and opposing forces, direly need and must have a window seat?

I ponder.

ANYWAY, first class Writ Comm. Learnt the format and the importance of taking down Minutes of Meetings - it serves as hard evidence against people who do not come for meetings and do not do their work, plus it's a good sheet for recording down agendas, follow-ups, what is needed to be done and such. Note: Make it a habit to take down Minutes from now on till the day you decide to fuck meetings.

Class ended an hour early, so ventured up to the Makan Place to have lunch with my T107 friends. We discussed disgusting things over lunch - toenails and dental hygiene (courtesy of Grace's clinic). It was... interesting but queer.

THEN RADIOHEATWAVE [radio dj-ing cca]! But I encountered a little problem... My partner who was supposed to do the show with me was absent - WHY ANDREA?!?! OF ALL DAYS?!?!?!?!?!? Apparently I overestimated my luck and thought that the seniors who ran the show would be so kind as to help me co-host or find a replacement... Well, they had meetings too. So I ended doing Old School Mayhem (name of my show, so cool right?) alone...

Truthfully, I started out shaky and confused, but as the 2 hours progressed on, I felt less and less nervous and more calmer. Though I wish I'd had more interesting things to talk about. And it was weird today because there was a lot of people in the conty - with the next show's host distracting me halfway on air with a thumbs-up sign in my face, which was sweet but seriously, it threw me off. And how one guy came up to the window and slapped a tissue onto the glass, requesting a song on the tissue. THAT really threw me off (and scared me, i'faith) and I ended up stuttering throughout the whole talkset.

But still, doing a 2-hour radio show alone (save for the one part where one of the RHW seniors did a live read on WORLD NO TOBACCO DAY - it was so good!) really opened my eyes to a new experience. How those professional Radio DJs operate a 4-hour radio show by themselves is amazing. It was fun, I admit, doing the show by myself. And I screwed up here and there, stumbled and crapped throughout, but I guess it's just the learning experience. It was really exciting, nervewrecking, but exciting nonetheless for a first-timer like me (it's my 4th radio show, but my first time doing it alone).

I might really consider Radio DJ as a future job in the Media industry. But I especially gotta thank my seniors for giving me this opportunity, for supporting me, and for my friends as well for encouraging me as well. :DD (I'm still reeling from the shock now...)

Then SOC PSY! ... We had a little activity where we had to discuss our attitudes on homosexuality/bisexuality. Then a short clip about sweet romance. Then dismissal. Seriously, SOC PSY was over. O__o (i heart socpsy)

Oh then I headed over to the library to watch Shutter Island on Andric' Mac before meeting up with Praise and Azira for a short while before supporting Andrea at the semi-final Speech Craft. After that, I met up with Azira, Praise and Charlotte again at the library before we slowly made our way up to the outside of the Attic and camwhored. Seriously, the view of the city from Ngee Ann is spectacular, breathtaking city lights glowing in the distance. The small-town scale and little known night life in Singapore, and in the middle of the island, four girls situated on the top floor of a polytechnic watching... watching...

TGIT - Thank God It's Thursdays, since Friday (today) is Vesak Day. So Charlotte, Azira, Praise and I then headed down to Cheers to eat some late-night supper - cup noodles, and we talked boy problems, school problems, reminisced about OPSS... Sigh. Such good days. Every Thursday we gotta have this ritual man. It'll be the only thing to look forward to if the whole week is full of sucking. Oh, and Adelyn later came, telling us about her boy troubles too. ... Wow we've all got a big, big mess on our hands - and it's end of week 6 ONLY.

Well, that's the end of my day today. Little details in between here and there are omitted. Summarised is the main gist of today, and I'm exhausted. Need sleep. Going to temple tomorrow to pray, then gotta do shukudai otherwise I'll be in deep shit.

Wishing you all a happy Vesak Day and long weekend ahead
May you all be well, safe and happy. : )

"I don't remember one moment I tried to forget, I lost myself yet I'm better, not sad. Now I'm closer to the edge. It was a a thousand to one and a million to two, time to go down in flames and I'm taking you closer to the edge. ... No I'm not saying I'm sorry, one day, maybe we'll meet again. No, no, no, no... Can you imagine a time when the truth ran free? A birth of a song, a death of a dream. Closer to the edge. This never ending story, hate four-wheel driving fate. We all fall short of glory, lost in ourselves."

- -8<- - - - WELCOME to the world of the PLASTIC BEACH - - - ->8- -

a DARK beach with a BLACK view ; it was 12:41 AM

"When the paralytic dreams that we all seem to keep. Drive on engines till they weep. With future pixels in factories far away."

It's been five weeks in Ngee Ann Poly... Man I am so freaking tireddd. O__o

I've been getting a lack of sleep, I've not been finishing my assignments, even though they give us 2 weeks to do it... I am seriously slacking off, and feeling more and more insecure. There have been a couple of tests, I studied and did them to the best of my ability. BUT I'M STILL SO INSECURE I'M NOT ACTUALLY DOING WELL AND GETTING A FUCKING GPA OF >3.5 LIKE I WANTED!!!

OH DEAR GOD WHYYYY!?!?!?

But side note, I'm in Radio Heatwave, Ngee Ann's very own campus radio. :DDD I'm the lucky 20 in 200. But in any other case, I've got to loosen up and sound more natural on air. It's so damn weird, when the red ON AIR sign is on, I go blank blank blank AWKWARD***** Bloody M-F!!! No vulgarities on air. FO SHO.

I auditioned for Stage 52 and the Ngee Ann scholarship. Results to 52 will be posted next week, and my 2nd-tier interview to the scholarship is next week as well. Hopefully I don't jinx myself, but I hope I can get it. One, I need the money. Two, it would be really nice to achieve something challenging and improve my self-efficacy. Woo SOCial PSYchology...

So tired... Got Radio Heatwave later. Then debate... UGHHH. But I'm skipping out to have dinner with Charlotte.

Oh TGIF with the Shoethrowers tomorrow. Well most of them. I miss my friends.

Till the next update, cheers and have a good weekend. : ]

OHYES. And I am currently super obsessed with Gorillaz - PLASTIC BEACH! Such hypnotic and beautiful music. :D

"I'm a scary gargoyle on a tower, that you made with plastic power. Your rhinestone eyes are like factories far away. Here we go again. That's electric! Helicopters fly over the beach, same time everyday same routine. Clear target in the summer when skies are blue. It's part of the noise when winter comes, it reverberates in my lungs. Natures' corrupted in factories far away. Your love's like rhinestones, falling from the sky, with future pixels in factories far away."


- -8<- - - - WELCOME to the world of the PLASTIC BEACH - - - ->8- -

a DARK beach with a BLACK view ; it was 8:42 AM

"When the paralytic dreams that we all seem to keep. Drive on engines till they weep. With future pixels in factories far away."

"Singing songs that make you slit your wrists,
It isn't that much fun..."

M N. 5th of the April. 17. Singapore. Female. Facebook. Tumblr.

Ex-Chongfu Primary. / Ex-CHAS.
Graduated Orchid Park Secondary:
Ex-Drama. Ex-Debater. Ex-Student Councillor. Ex-1A3-ian. Once-and-forever-2A3-ian. Ex-3A1-ian. Ex-PROUD-4A1-ian.

NGEE ANN FMS MCM [mass comm] T107/T102. RADIOHEATWAVE.COM Radio DJ. STAGE 52.

IN A RELATIONSHIP ♥

FYI, I quote a LOT of lyrics.

NOT emo, just tends to be more depressed than I'd like.
NOT a rocker, but loves to rock out.
NOT so sure i know who i am.
SUFFERS from Dermatillomania
a passionate LOVE for the colour RED
& PROUD TO BE A freak. Are you?

1. Love myself.
2. Self-Acceptance.
3. Eradicate insecurities.
4. Not to care.
5. Work hard in school.
6. Start over.
7. Take it slow.
8. Keep promises.
9. GPA >3.8 [yr 1.2,1.1,2.2,2.1,3.2]
10. To be MISERABLE and HAPPY.


"If it's not enough, try again. And again. Over and over again."

[[ WaNTS && WiSHES ]]

(1) Gorillaz - Plastic Beach
(2) 30STM - This Is War
(3) New Headphones
(4) Those new JEANS
(5) A Teenage Dream

Alex. :)♥ (my bumbling idiot)

HUTTSON My poopoo DOGGIE. ♥♥♥

BANDS :: MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE. Placebo. Marilyn Manson. 30 Seconds to Mars. Avenged Sevenfold. Linkin Park. Gorillaz. The Blackout. The Academy Is... Fall Out Boy. Bullet For My Valentine. Before Their Eyes. Lady Gaga. Just to name a VERY few...

HEROES :: GERARD WAY. TDK Joker. Jared Leto. Brian Molko. Draco Malfoy. 2D. Gerard Way. ♥ XD

Dilemmas.
The conflict.
Inner conflict.
Prejudiced people.
BUGS.

2A3-ians ♥ We Rock. Like Hell.
3/4A1-ians Over speed limit :D
Shoethrowers ♥ FAMILY
Apphia! :D :D :D Hee.
Azira A-zi-zi-ziraaaa! ♥ xD
Elizabeth ♥!
Elva VaVa :D
Farhan
Gavin
Isabelle
Jessica :D :D :D
Joanne ♥ XD
Joel is a legend!
Kenn Ninjaboy :D
Keng Ying CUZZIN! :D
Li Qing :DDD!
Matin! :D So cuute!
Nazry BiTCH!♥
Pearlyn So cute. :D
Rui Shuin Mah Couzin :D
Safwah rocks hardcore! :D ♥
Samuel ... Moo. :D ♥
Sarah BestFriend WALRUS ♥♥♥
Sheereen :DDD She cool yo!
Shi Wei :D:D:D So rad!
Si Ying, Tan rroooccckksss. :]
Si Ying, Yeh :D
Su Min She rocks!
Su Yuan :]

"Well you can hide a lot about yourself,
But honey, what're you gonna do?
And you can sleep in a coffin,
But the past ain't through with you."

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I'm nothing but a beautiful disaster,
Crying tears of blood and joy
Into this black void.
Oblivion;
It's the place to be.
Ephemeral Romance.
Will you come with me?




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