After a bad fall-out in love, bad experiences with my first and a lot of internal conflict. I ended it and severed off all forms of contact.

I was pretty upset, undoubtedly. Memories plagued me, but the better and busier part of poly distracted me. And finally as of now, projects were completed, handed in. Volunteered for YOG ... underwent preparations, training and finally... now we're already into the third week.

Well, my job as a media workroom assistant turned out to be... easier than I imagined. Nothing much, answer basic enquiries, assist in setting up press conferences, rent out lockers etc. The only drawback is that it is way too cold in the Main Media Centre. The plus sides? I met FUCKING AWESOME people. Without a doubt, they are the most funnest, craziest, filthy-mouthed bunch of pyromaniacs I have ever met, and I love each and every one of them.

Best part is they're from Mass Comm and are giving me loads of advice I can take. I love them so much. Nicole + Liyana. You girls rock fo sho.
Then there's Shivani, dear lord bless her. Best supersivor ever. Period.
And then there's so many other awesome people! The people I met on the first week of duty (when we all worked the graveyard shift)... Gosh we had so much fun.

UNIVERSAL STUDIOS TOGETHER, EH?

And then there's one more special person. First saw him on 29th May. Didn't bother much, and then another chance meeting at the MRT. Exchanged phone numbers. And over the span of time until this YOG period, we grew closer and closer. And here we are.

I might be deemed to be on the rebound, or rushing to much into things... But he's the type of guy I can talk to about anything. The sweet and flamboyant gentleman who would randomly text me, inform me about his latest happening. He's not afraid to put his thoughts into explicit words - no edits, no long thoughts of how to phrase things certain ways to avoid judgement. He has what the first lacks - I can communicate with him, I can really talk to him. I can trust him.

And life is way too short to keep focusing on the past and crying over it. And for now, since there's nothing to do much for the ongoing Poly holidays in September and October... Well, I know I definitely won't be committing the same mistakes as I did when I was "younger". More experienced, learned, still learning, slightly more mature...

I think... I'm ready to love again.

And I'm glad it's you, Alex.


"Before you met me I was alright but things were kinda heavy. You brought me to life, now every February, you'll be my valentine. Valentine... We can dance until we die. You and I, we'll be young forever. You make me feel like I'm living a teenage dream. The way you turn me on, I can't sleep. Let's run away and don't ever look back, don't ever look back. My heart stops when you look at me. Just one touch, now baby I believe this is real. So take a chance and don't ever look back, don't ever look back."

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a DARK beach with a BLACK view ; it was 10:33 PM

"When the paralytic dreams that we all seem to keep. Drive on engines till they weep. With future pixels in factories far away."

Hello we're still standing here.

Well, I've ignored this blog for quite a while. My apologies, but I'm on term break now, so updates!!

YEEEE The first semester of Poly is over! And albeit the rushed deadlines for major final projects and excruciating stress, we pulled through the easier sem. Next sem, well let's just see how bad it can get. Arts, filming, media in society and marketing. Sounds fun. (But the 1.1 can testify how much of hell it's gonna be)

And what a way to end the final week of school. I can surely say I've never sacrificed that many hours of sleep in this week than any other. But still, it was amazing and worth every second and cent spent. Why? It was Singfest week! And with that came many great opportunities to see bands live in Singapore performing, and lucky for me - getting to interview one band live: TOKIO HOTEL.

MONDAY - Uneventful, like all Mondays. Except for finishing up the writ comm proposal and feeling immensely relieved.

TUESDAY - Germaine sent out an SMS asking people if they wanted to go interview Tokio Hotel. HELL YEAH I JUMPED AT THE CHANCE AND GRABBED IT BY THE BALLS. Also, another project down (speech comm). That night, went with Charlotte and Azira to listen to the concert on the outside of the Singfest tent. Azira managed to sneak into the concert and watch them perform - lucky her! :D Had an awesome time there.

WEDNESDAY - Meeting Tokio Hotel up front and in the flesh. They were really nice and talkative - Bill and Tom at least. God Bill is so damn tall and hot, and the best part is that I sat across him so half the time he kept looking at me. God, life is good. Didn't manage to get pictures with the band, but they autographed the RadioHeatwave shirts. Damn... I'm still reeling back, being starstruck and all... WOW. After that, went down to Bugis for their autograph session. Man... These days should be known as Tokio Hotel days.

THURSDAY - Woke up late and missed an hour of my last RHW show, finished soc psy presentation, then was on the way to catch the last day of Singfest - a very rocking show! Was there since the opening act and I gotta say the local band had some good songs. Trying to find them out though. Hmm.

THEN THIRTY SECONDS TO MARS CAME UP AND EVERYONE CAME. Seriously, Jared's energy was electrifying and amazing. And on the hill where Charlotte and I sat with other guys who didn't have money to get the tickets, we were singing and screaming along with Jared - The Kill and Kings and Queens... It was amazing. Wish we had stayed for Smashing Pumpkins though, Jared and Billy performed together. DUDE.

FRIDAY - finished up the last of radio and submitted it, then went to collect the YOG volunteers' uniform. Met an African man there, and dude he's in the medical stretcher team. I'm looking forward to meeting more foreigners - hopefully French - but yes. YOG's gonna be quite an experience, no? After that, headed out with Charlotte for a night in town. We walked around, enjoying the city sights, had dinner then ended with B&J's ice cream.

This week. It is fabulous.

Can't wait for 30STM to have their own concert in SG soon. It will most definitely be EPIC. But for now, 2 months and 3 weeks of holidays! It rocks to be a poly student. Wonder if I should get a job...

"Can you imagine the time when the truth ran free. The birth of a sun, the death of a dream. Closer to the edge... This never ending story, it fall with pride and faith. We all fall short of glory, lost in myself. No I'm not saying I'm sorry, one day maybe we'll meet again. No I'm not saying i'm sorry, one day maybe we'll meet again. NO NO NO NO!"

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a DARK beach with a BLACK view ; it was 4:26 PM

"When the paralytic dreams that we all seem to keep. Drive on engines till they weep. With future pixels in factories far away."

"Singing songs that make you slit your wrists,
It isn't that much fun..."

M N. 5th of the April. 17. Singapore. Female. Facebook. Tumblr.

Ex-Chongfu Primary. / Ex-CHAS.
Graduated Orchid Park Secondary:
Ex-Drama. Ex-Debater. Ex-Student Councillor. Ex-1A3-ian. Once-and-forever-2A3-ian. Ex-3A1-ian. Ex-PROUD-4A1-ian.

NGEE ANN FMS MCM [mass comm] T107/T102. RADIOHEATWAVE.COM Radio DJ. STAGE 52.

IN A RELATIONSHIP ♥

FYI, I quote a LOT of lyrics.

NOT emo, just tends to be more depressed than I'd like.
NOT a rocker, but loves to rock out.
NOT so sure i know who i am.
SUFFERS from Dermatillomania
a passionate LOVE for the colour RED
& PROUD TO BE A freak. Are you?

1. Love myself.
2. Self-Acceptance.
3. Eradicate insecurities.
4. Not to care.
5. Work hard in school.
6. Start over.
7. Take it slow.
8. Keep promises.
9. GPA >3.8 [yr 1.2,1.1,2.2,2.1,3.2]
10. To be MISERABLE and HAPPY.


"If it's not enough, try again. And again. Over and over again."

[[ WaNTS && WiSHES ]]

(1) Gorillaz - Plastic Beach
(2) 30STM - This Is War
(3) New Headphones
(4) Those new JEANS
(5) A Teenage Dream

Alex. :)♥ (my bumbling idiot)

HUTTSON My poopoo DOGGIE. ♥♥♥

BANDS :: MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE. Placebo. Marilyn Manson. 30 Seconds to Mars. Avenged Sevenfold. Linkin Park. Gorillaz. The Blackout. The Academy Is... Fall Out Boy. Bullet For My Valentine. Before Their Eyes. Lady Gaga. Just to name a VERY few...

HEROES :: GERARD WAY. TDK Joker. Jared Leto. Brian Molko. Draco Malfoy. 2D. Gerard Way. ♥ XD

Dilemmas.
The conflict.
Inner conflict.
Prejudiced people.
BUGS.

2A3-ians ♥ We Rock. Like Hell.
3/4A1-ians Over speed limit :D
Shoethrowers ♥ FAMILY
Apphia! :D :D :D Hee.
Azira A-zi-zi-ziraaaa! ♥ xD
Elizabeth ♥!
Elva VaVa :D
Farhan
Gavin
Isabelle
Jessica :D :D :D
Joanne ♥ XD
Joel is a legend!
Kenn Ninjaboy :D
Keng Ying CUZZIN! :D
Li Qing :DDD!
Matin! :D So cuute!
Nazry BiTCH!♥
Pearlyn So cute. :D
Rui Shuin Mah Couzin :D
Safwah rocks hardcore! :D ♥
Samuel ... Moo. :D ♥
Sarah BestFriend WALRUS ♥♥♥
Sheereen :DDD She cool yo!
Shi Wei :D:D:D So rad!
Si Ying, Tan rroooccckksss. :]
Si Ying, Yeh :D
Su Min She rocks!
Su Yuan :]

"Well you can hide a lot about yourself,
But honey, what're you gonna do?
And you can sleep in a coffin,
But the past ain't through with you."

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I'm nothing but a beautiful disaster,
Crying tears of blood and joy
Into this black void.
Oblivion;
It's the place to be.
Ephemeral Romance.
Will you come with me?




i want to be

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