Well, since it's today, I might as well just spew it out.

Ah yes, please do not be offended... Because, well, "it's Britney, Bitch". Believe me, I've been listening to too much Britney Spears Gimme More. It's a stupid, badass, fun additcion I tell ya!

So:

HAPPY HALLOWEEN, BIAAAATCH!

I love my new blogskin. Seems to fit in perfectly with the Halloween spirit.

"I am the one hiding under your bed, teeth ground sharp and eyes glowing red. I am the one hiding under yours stairs. Fingers like snakes and spiders in my hair. This is Halloween, this is Halloween. Halloween! Halloween! Halloween! Halloween!"

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a DARK beach with a BLACK view ; it was 3:39 PM

"When the paralytic dreams that we all seem to keep. Drive on engines till they weep. With future pixels in factories far away."

He's Not Interested This Year

Maybe he's been interested before, but he's over it. And it looks like you're the one into him! If you think you could get him to like you, then go for it. If not, at least you know not to waste your time.

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a DARK beach with a BLACK view ; it was 6:46 PM

"When the paralytic dreams that we all seem to keep. Drive on engines till they weep. With future pixels in factories far away."

You Don't Have a Boyfriend Because You are Too Shy

When a guy gets to know you, he finds a great catch Problem is... you're too shy for most guys to get to know. From meeting someone to dating, you usually have your guard up. And while you're just holding back, it makes you seem like you've got something to hide.

http://www.blogthings.com/whydontyouhaveaboyfriendquiz/

...

Says alot, no?

I figured out something... If music can really influence the mind, then what if I stopped listening to pop songs related to love and hooking up and relationships and concentrate on songs about heartbreak and hate?

It might work... Anyone know a band or singer that destorys the way you picture love? Cause I don't wanna be infatuated with anyone. Again. Really. Maybe not?

"I hate when you say you don't understand, I want to be in the energy, not with the enemy."


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a DARK beach with a BLACK view ; it was 10:53 PM

"When the paralytic dreams that we all seem to keep. Drive on engines till they weep. With future pixels in factories far away."

Well, I kinda did like zombies.

28 Weeks / 28 Days Later... And Resident Evil Trilogy. They're nice.

I do miss the old Rocker one. But everybody's changing.

I don't feel the same...

"You're gone from here. And soon you will disappear, cause everybody's changing. And I don't feel right."

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a DARK beach with a BLACK view ; it was 10:57 PM

"When the paralytic dreams that we all seem to keep. Drive on engines till they weep. With future pixels in factories far away."

We'll start easy, before the reality sinks in and I go emotional.

So today's the last day of school. 26 November 2007. The End. No more lower Secondary School days, no more 2A3-ians, no more friends and classmates ( maybe? Results not out yet )... No more Mr Low, School principal who let me into the school regardless of my non-Primary-6 education... No more Mr Pang ( Dude, I loved him! He was awesome! ) and... no more him, Z.

Didn't really expect it to turn out, to unfold like this. Final chapter of being a lower sec student. I enjoyed it, yeah, the do-able homework, the no-stress-much policies... It was fun. But now our way comes more homework and stress and shit and what not. God help.

So we had a farewell concert for Mr Low, so really yesterday was the last day of 2A3. It was fun, slightly boring but it's not for us, it's for him and his memories. Before he walked down the walkway of students, councillors and ex-students, I made some jokes like "Mr Low, crying makes you feel better!" but I seriously didn't expect him to break and cry.

Dude, I have never seen a man cry before... Cry with such heartfelt emotions and pure sincerity of missing us. I felt for him. He'll miss us, truly. I hope Mr Pang misses us as well, we worked hard into his heart. xD

I wonder what they're both doing now. Really.

After the performance, Zhi Qing, Azira, Sarah, Charlotte and I made plans to go to Azira's place for some reason I'm not aware of ( pure fun, perhaps ) but we had to wait for Charlotte, give out gifts to Mr Low and Mr Pang before we left.

Well, I won't deny I had the ... want (?!!?!?) to say goodbye to Z. Apparently I still had a thing for him, but right now all hope's have been trashed for real now. I doubt I'll ever see him again. Ever. Unless the class party... But no. I don't see it happening. I had the guts, but he walked off home quite fast. Haha, maybe he wanted to get away from me because he thinks I'm gonna stalk him. Haha... Sigh... I tried. The motive was there. I really did like you. I wonder if you did too. Requited love? Nah, not a chance in hell. Do you like me? "Fuck no"'s your answer, definitely.

Believe me.

Besides all that, we headed over to Azira's place and lo and behold, fun, fun, FUN!!! Well it was, seriously. I have never had spaghetti, ice-cream, chips and sparkling wine in all that amounts before. We also watched Death Note 1, and it was awesome. The Manga's better, I would agree, but it was fun to see L eating all the right amounts in the three food groups: Sugar, Salt, Fats.

You have no idea how much we ripped off L's poses while taking photos later. It was so fun! And cute, weird but the idea's still there. L is so cute. xD

Then it was over, but we discussed how the class party on Tuesday will be. It's hosted at Charlotte's place, unless any unseen circumstances pop up. Let's hope every 2A3-ian will be there, especially Z or really, I didn't say Goodbye to everyone.

Well, I'll end here, it's late. But really now, we're considered ex-2A3-ians now... But hey, once-and-forever-2A3-ian. I'm proud of you guys, I'll miss ya.

"As we go on, we remember all the times we had together. And as our lives change, from whatever. We will still be, friends forever."

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a DARK beach with a BLACK view ; it was 11:43 PM

"When the paralytic dreams that we all seem to keep. Drive on engines till they weep. With future pixels in factories far away."

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a DARK beach with a BLACK view ; it was 9:18 PM

"When the paralytic dreams that we all seem to keep. Drive on engines till they weep. With future pixels in factories far away."

I found this quiz on Zhi Qing's last blog, so I thought I'd try it out. Free reponse questions. Heh-heh-heh...

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WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU KISSED SOMEONE?
Never, unless you count that one time in the dreams.

WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON YOU KISSED?
Huttson! My dog. On the head.

WERE YOU A CUTE BABY?
Define cute.

WHAT COLOUR IS YOU KEYBOARD?
Currently, black.

DO YOU SING IN THE SHOWER?
Sometimes...

HAVE YOU EVER BUNGEE-JUMPED?
Nope, but I would love to.

ANY SECRET TALENTS?
I can be creative at times... Sometimes at least.

WHAT'S YOUR IDEAL VACATION SPOT?
Anywhere OUT of Asia. Save me!

HAVE YOU EATEN SUSHI?
Well, yeah, of course.

WHO IS YOUR BEST FRIEND?
Sarah! Su Min! Agatha! ... Anyone else?

ARE YOU FIGHTING WITH ANYONE AT THE MOMENT?
No one.

HAVE YOU SEEN THE MOVIE ''DONNIE DARKO''?
Nope.

DO YOU GIVE A DARN ABOUT THE OZONE?
We're all gonna die, so why bother? 2012, the end.

DO YOU BELIEVE IN GOD?
Yes... No... Perhaps... Maybe... No... Yes... Don't know. Can't tell.

CAN YOU SING THE ALPHABET BACKWARDS?
If I concentrate hard enough.

HAVE YOU EVER BEEN ON AN AIRPLANE?
Loads of times.

WHAT'S YOUR STAND ON HUNTING?
... Shoot the bitch down!

IS MARRIAGE IN YOUR FUTURE?
That remains to be seen.

DO YOU LIKE YOUR HANDWRITING?
Hell yeah. But hopefully everyone can read it.

WHAT ARE YOU ALLERGIC TO?
... I don't know. Really.

WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU SAID ''I LOVE YOU''?
Not too long ago. To mah momma.

IS ELVIS STILL ALIVE?
No, but the posers are.

DO YOU CRY AT WEDDINGS?
Nope. I don't even know why people cry in the first place.

HOW DO YOU LIKE YOUR EGGS?
Don't really care. As long as they're cooked and edible.

ARE BLONDES DUMB?
If they are, they are. If they aren't, well congradulations!

DO YOU HAVE A NICKNAME?
Rulelezz, Mic, Mickey Mouse, MC, L., Liang, Verlyn... Loads.

WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU WERE IN A CAR?
A very long time ago. Very long.

DO YOU PREFER BATHS OR SHOWERS?
Showers. In baths, you'd end up soaking in your own dirty water.

IS SANTA CLAUS REAL?
Let's ask Science if reindeers can fly. ... Well, if Santa Claus was real, why didn't anyone shoot him down yet?

ARE YOU A LOVER OR A FIGHTER?
Fighter-lover. A mix of both.

HOW MANY TIMES HAVE YOU BRUSHED YOUR TEETH TODAY?
Once, and my teeth are clean!

IS DRUG FREE THE WAY TO BE?
Depends. Is it a good drug, or bad drug?

HAVE YOU EVER DRANK?
... Does one drop of pineapple alcohol count?

WHEN'S THE LAST TIME YOU CRIED?
21 Oct.

DO YOU LIKE YOUR LIFE?
... ... Well, it could be better.

WHO'S BETTER?
You or me? Well, duh, your mom.

ARE YOU PSYCHIC?
Had a few "predicting" moments.

HAVE YOU READ?
Yes. Who hasn't?

LONGEST BOOK EVER READ?
... Interview With The Vampire.

DO YOU PLAY ANY INSTRUMENTS?
Does the recorder from Primary School count? If not: No.

HAVE YOU EVER STOLEN MONEY?
A few times from mother, maybe once from a teacher... Unintentionally.

CAN YOU SNOWBOARD?
Nope, but I would like to.

DO YOU HAVE A SAVINGS ACCOUNT?
Yup.

DO YOU BELIEVE IN MAGIC?
It's an illusion. But sure, why not?

ARE DOGS A MAN'S BEST FRIEND?
Hell yes! And to all you dog-eating bitches, I'll get you one day.

WHAT WAS THE LAST THING YOU ATE?
Tuna sandwich.

DO YOU LIKE SOMEONE RIGHT NOW?
... Well, yeah.

DOES THE PERSON LIKE YOU TOO?
I don't know, but it's a definite "Fuck no."

WHAT DID YOU DO LAST NIGHT?
I murdered people. No, really. No. I cleaned up my desk.

CHIPS OR POPCORN?
Chips.

WHAT DO YOU THINK MOST ABOUT?
... Death. Suits my taste.

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Concerning today's survey, I think I fear for my mental well-being now. Please don't send me for therapy. They scare me.

"Today I am dirty. I want to be pretty. Tomorrow, I know I'm just dirt."

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a DARK beach with a BLACK view ; it was 2:43 PM

"When the paralytic dreams that we all seem to keep. Drive on engines till they weep. With future pixels in factories far away."

The Sunday thing had good points, and bad. Very bad, in fact.

Well, see Sunday was the "Emergency Preparedness Day" and the vice-principal needed volunteers, so rah. I'm in.

Had nothing much to do, except for running around, handling a fire extinguisher like some idiot ( not really using it against real fire ) and telling a woman to go extinguish a wok of fire.

... You can tell my outcome wasn't that good. In the end, we didn't need to do anything much. Just running around, checking on casualties with fake blood and run around some more. We got to hang out at Nadia's house though, it was fun! Plus the biscuits and treats we had at her place were awesome! : D

... And sadly, I couldn't find my tie. It's stupid y'know. EVERYTIME, every-fucking-goddamned-time I have to make a costume change, it goes missing. There goes my $16 moolah if I have to get 2 ties this time. Geez, it's like I'm cursed when it comes to ties or something. Gaahhhhh...

The dinner, was awesome-terrible-wasteful-crazy-ohshiifuck-goddamned-yummy-sadistic-torturing-toomuch-help-delicious. Contridicting, I understand. Would you believe 10 students from OPSS had finish that much food. ... Not to mention the fried fish didn't have manga strips. They lied to us! ( But really now, Fried fish with mango strips. What is wrong with the people who made the dish, please! )

Next time I volunteer for a cause like this, I'm not gonna stay for dinner. I might need to bring Eno next time... Blah.

And now, from what I've heard on MTV:

MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE IS SAID TO PERFORM AT THE MAX PAVILION ON 11 DEC IN SINGAPORE!!!! EEEEEEEEEEEEYEAH!
OMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOODNESS!!!

But that's just what they said, can't be very sure really. ... Now, to go or not to go?

"This hole you put me in wasn't deep enough and I'm climbing out right now, you're running out of places to hide from me."

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a DARK beach with a BLACK view ; it was 12:04 PM

"When the paralytic dreams that we all seem to keep. Drive on engines till they weep. With future pixels in factories far away."

Dooooooooooood.

We, like so totally, wooooooooooonn the Lit thing.

We, like so totally, rooooooooooockkk.

Thank you Sarah for leading us up to being winners and being the 1st of Literature production. Geez, you got me so worried and scared we were gonna screw up and die.

Extra bonus eh? Congradulations, guys, WE ARE THE CHAMPIONS!

Besides, we worked hard, studied hard, acted (wtf?) hard and played hard, now we got something to celebrate besides the end of the school year ( and the end of 2A3 ;___; ) but hey, we did it, didn't we? Let's review the awards, shall we? (AGAIN!)
By the way, we're winners of the whole Literature thing so we have to the right to brag, Haha!

1. Best Props / Music / Lighting / Set - [ I knew the plants came in handy! Thank you Ms. Chan! ]
2. Best Proudcer - [ The lovely Miss Neo Su Min! ]
3. Best Director - [ The dazzling Miss Sarah Tan Li Lin! ]
4. Best Production - [ We won, told ya. We won, oh yeah! ]

Besides, in case you're wondering, I played the nicely-dressed extra and I was the prettiest man around! All the boys were sooooooooo jealouzzzz. XD Eh-heh. I'm such an asshole. Punk it up, whores.

And now... I do something meaningless. Geez, studied so hard computer and internet life is SO BORING ( gasp! ) now... Ugh. Damn it.

"And when we were good, you just closed you eyes. So when we are bad, we'll scar your minds. Fight, fight, fight, fight!"

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a DARK beach with a BLACK view ; it was 12:21 PM

"When the paralytic dreams that we all seem to keep. Drive on engines till they weep. With future pixels in factories far away."

Salvation? It is here. And there's a reason why we started celebrating Marking day and the time left after the D&T exam.

So sweet.

The event was over almost weeks ago and there she was, still making remarks about me. How sweet. Get a life, damn you. You're a bitch with a temper and a mouth you can't control. I'm not gonna waste my breath on you because you're not worth it. It's your bullshit. Not mine. Wanna fight? USE YOUR FIST AND NOT YOUR MOUTH.

Anyway... THE EXAMS ARE FINALLY OVER!!!

Yeah. I know I'm late but I don't really care. Feeling high and happy. It's like two weeks of hardcore studying and stressing are over! Study hard, play hard, party hard. Let's rock.

The movie marathon. Was such fun. Hosted at my house, watched 28 weeks later & Resident Evil Extinction. Hate to say it, but Extinction was kinda a waste. It wasn't really what I was looking for I would say. Not much zombie surprises like the first and second movies. The standard was shot down. D:

A long list to complete all the happiness before the results come in... Gah the school year's ending. Gah to the end of our 2A3 clan. Gah. Gah. ... DAMMIT!!!

Ah yes. And guys. :] STOP, DROP AND ROLL, HARDCORE FREESTYLERS.

"I said no, this isn't your song. We can't all get along. It's too hard to hold hands when your hands are fists. My hate pop won't ever stop. I'm fucking glad we're different."

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a DARK beach with a BLACK view ; it was 6:03 PM

"When the paralytic dreams that we all seem to keep. Drive on engines till they weep. With future pixels in factories far away."

Shouldn't be blogging but don't give a damn.

I'm hopping around (WTF?) in ecstatic bliss right now. And why?

Humanities subjects (History, Literature and Geography) are completely over! I don't have to write notes and study so late into the night / early in the morning (1+ am) anymore!

... Then there's Science.

Then there's D&T.

Then there's the salvation for the student race of OPSS.

Side note: The teachers said to bring back exam question papers to school after 3 days of having fun. Wow. They can mark that fast? 200 (let's estimate) scripts per teacher... That's fast. If they can do it.

Then there's Resident Evil: Extinction. Screw the NC16 rule. I'm watching it one way or another.

"We've been here before. We've fallen apaprt. You knew that it was over, you knew this from the start."

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a DARK beach with a BLACK view ; it was 12:07 PM

"When the paralytic dreams that we all seem to keep. Drive on engines till they weep. With future pixels in factories far away."

"Singing songs that make you slit your wrists,
It isn't that much fun..."

M N. 5th of the April. 17. Singapore. Female. Facebook. Tumblr.

Ex-Chongfu Primary. / Ex-CHAS.
Graduated Orchid Park Secondary:
Ex-Drama. Ex-Debater. Ex-Student Councillor. Ex-1A3-ian. Once-and-forever-2A3-ian. Ex-3A1-ian. Ex-PROUD-4A1-ian.

NGEE ANN FMS MCM [mass comm] T107/T102. RADIOHEATWAVE.COM Radio DJ. STAGE 52.

IN A RELATIONSHIP ♥

FYI, I quote a LOT of lyrics.

NOT emo, just tends to be more depressed than I'd like.
NOT a rocker, but loves to rock out.
NOT so sure i know who i am.
SUFFERS from Dermatillomania
a passionate LOVE for the colour RED
& PROUD TO BE A freak. Are you?

1. Love myself.
2. Self-Acceptance.
3. Eradicate insecurities.
4. Not to care.
5. Work hard in school.
6. Start over.
7. Take it slow.
8. Keep promises.
9. GPA >3.8 [yr 1.2,1.1,2.2,2.1,3.2]
10. To be MISERABLE and HAPPY.


"If it's not enough, try again. And again. Over and over again."

[[ WaNTS && WiSHES ]]

(1) Gorillaz - Plastic Beach
(2) 30STM - This Is War
(3) New Headphones
(4) Those new JEANS
(5) A Teenage Dream

Alex. :)♥ (my bumbling idiot)

HUTTSON My poopoo DOGGIE. ♥♥♥

BANDS :: MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE. Placebo. Marilyn Manson. 30 Seconds to Mars. Avenged Sevenfold. Linkin Park. Gorillaz. The Blackout. The Academy Is... Fall Out Boy. Bullet For My Valentine. Before Their Eyes. Lady Gaga. Just to name a VERY few...

HEROES :: GERARD WAY. TDK Joker. Jared Leto. Brian Molko. Draco Malfoy. 2D. Gerard Way. ♥ XD

Dilemmas.
The conflict.
Inner conflict.
Prejudiced people.
BUGS.

2A3-ians ♥ We Rock. Like Hell.
3/4A1-ians Over speed limit :D
Shoethrowers ♥ FAMILY
Apphia! :D :D :D Hee.
Azira A-zi-zi-ziraaaa! ♥ xD
Elizabeth ♥!
Elva VaVa :D
Farhan
Gavin
Isabelle
Jessica :D :D :D
Joanne ♥ XD
Joel is a legend!
Kenn Ninjaboy :D
Keng Ying CUZZIN! :D
Li Qing :DDD!
Matin! :D So cuute!
Nazry BiTCH!♥
Pearlyn So cute. :D
Rui Shuin Mah Couzin :D
Safwah rocks hardcore! :D ♥
Samuel ... Moo. :D ♥
Sarah BestFriend WALRUS ♥♥♥
Sheereen :DDD She cool yo!
Shi Wei :D:D:D So rad!
Si Ying, Tan rroooccckksss. :]
Si Ying, Yeh :D
Su Min She rocks!
Su Yuan :]

"Well you can hide a lot about yourself,
But honey, what're you gonna do?
And you can sleep in a coffin,
But the past ain't through with you."

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I'm nothing but a beautiful disaster,
Crying tears of blood and joy
Into this black void.
Oblivion;
It's the place to be.
Ephemeral Romance.
Will you come with me?




i want to be

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