Did I watch 28 Weeks Later and love it?

Did I travel to Johor Bahru and buy the MCR band shirt I wanted?

Did I find a restaurant that had lousy service and my family stormed outta there cursing it?

Did I have to catch up with the rest of my class in D&T?

Did I get sick and ended up being a spectator at the C Girls' match for Top 4?

Did I watch them have a so-close-yet-so-far defeat?

Did I swear the we'd get revenge on MGS, NY, CGS and the Ump next year?

Did I tell myself I'd study hard for the Literature test tomorrow?

Did I watch the Queen of the Damned and fall in love with Lestat?

Did I regain my old love for zombies and romantic vampires?

Yes. Yes. Yes!

"Slit my wrists, take away the pain. Slit my throat, there’s no one to blame."

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a DARK beach with a BLACK view ; it was 7:02 PM

"When the paralytic dreams that we all seem to keep. Drive on engines till they weep. With future pixels in factories far away."

...

AAHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!

S.O.S:

- I don't have much time till 1st August i.e. the date when my group has to submit History project. 80% of test mark, highly important.
- Ran 2.4 km today (now then they tell me...) Scared of not getting A, timing: 14:34 mins.
- Went over to Sarah's house. For an hour or longer, spent 98% slacking, 1% working, 1% partying. You can understand there's a very bad outcome.
- Haven't listened to one single full song of my new A7X album. Where's the time and excitement gone?!
- Scared over match against Nanyang tomorrow. Even the Coach says we can't win. And that's not good. O__O
- Missed out on 3 Thursdays (6 periods, 240 mins) of D n' T. Rest of class already started on practical. NOT GOOD.

... Insert big disappoionted, stressful sigh here. Heh... I'm dead.

Regarding Z, well, I think I know why exactly I like him. There was this one boy (We'll call him U), special thing about this boy? He was the very first boy I liked. In a way, they do resemble each other, maybe not alot in personality or appearance, but there's something about the both of them I find similar... Can't put my finger on it though.

You know, I never knew the different body forms boys have. There's skinny, tall, lanky, scrawny, short and then there's muscular... God help.

Yes, while I was at Sarah's house (this time falls under slacking percentage) I absentmindledly asked why Z seems so... "flat"... (in a form that his stomach doesn't seem to be seen). Conversation from today's earlier episode (not accurate, but I tried):

Me: "You know, why does Z seem so... flat?"
Sarah: "He's probably has a six-pack."
Me: *Staring* "What?"
Sarah: "He must be very muscular."
Me: "Wait, what makes you think he is muscular?"
Sarah: "You see his shirt lah, got muscles on his arms."
Me: "..." O_____O

You could imagine my shock there. I went "Oh fuck, I just had to like the muscular guy."

Though wondering, does Z reeeeeeally have a six-pack? Though I will admit, he does seem rather ... flat... GOD HELP.
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DEAL OR NO DEAL?

Yes, I played that game, that reality gameshow in the form of people and celebrities. With my friends. In class, not in the real-life studio. That's scary. Anyway... it all started when I"claimed" Charlie Simpson was my grandfather, and Zhi Qing was wanting him back, so she started throwing guys I liked at me, but I went "No deal, no deal".

Em... Yeah, it resulted in Sarah being the banker, ZQ being the host and me the contestant. I took "case" 7 and lost all the guys I liked, and I winded up with Hilary Duff, who was within case 7. I tried. I tried.

Then it was Sarah's turn, for some fun, I put Samuel's name on case 11, who would have thought Sarah literally chose that case. It must be destiny... For some really strange, abnormal coincidence.

ZQ's turn tomorrow, the banker (moi) is planning for her not to go home with the case containing her NLAY.

Lame, we get it. But it was fun. Really.

"Look at my face you pierce with a blank stare, No dream could prepare a heart for a lifeless friend."

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a DARK beach with a BLACK view ; it was 6:43 PM

"When the paralytic dreams that we all seem to keep. Drive on engines till they weep. With future pixels in factories far away."

The Good:

So, I finally got my cravings cured. We, 2A3 classmen (and a few A4's joined), went off to the Esplanade to watch "Dim Sum Dollies". The show was awesome! Comical, hilarious, just plain funny! Hokkien here, Chinese there, English everywhere, Singlish conquered all. Lah. So yes, it was the best show I've been to ever. (Other than Phantom of the Opera).

As well as me getting to see what everyone was wearing. Of course, boys, wearing almost the same, black shirts and jeans. Girls, my god. They all looked gorgeous. Angela and Chu Luo, whoa. I mean, WHOA. They wore really nice dresses and I was kinda shocked. We were all dressing mostly casual but they dressed more of formal. Wow. Angela's dress was truly beautiful! Just... cocktail-partyish... more.

The Bad:

In math: 55 + 5 = 60

In objects: 55, 56, 57, 58, 59. Do you notice there are five numbers there? Okay yes, in counting objects, apparently you have to count the first number as well. Well, Ms Xu kinda got a misunderstanding and gave us (Charlotte, Azira, Sarah and Zhi Qing + me) an extra ticket and when she found out Ms Xu got all stressed and started lecturing (or scolding) us (more of Zhi Qing) about the extra ticket.

Zhi Qing pissed off and Ms Xu oblivious to what happened don't go very well. So (partly my fault because I wanted him to have the extra ticket) I tried to clear up the misunderstanding between Ms Xu and Zhi Qing. Meep. I couldn't breathe after that. Telling a teacher to go apologizing to your friend? Wow. I am invicible. Or just lucky.

I'm never counting objects again. Ever.

And yes, apparently Vemon sat beside me, he wasn't so bad. Just plain quiet, or uninterested. Or wishing he could sit with his mateys. Eh.

The Hope:

Yes. He was there. The guy I liked. Only because of his looks. He was present. We'll call him Z for now.

Z was more cuter than usual. Mainly because he was out of that boring uniform and into something a bit more... "dashing". (WTFOMFGSTFU?!?!?!!!) He wore a dark grey shirt and jeans, god. It looked so good on him. ... Really, to me he looked so... good*.

*[I'd use more "better" words but for the sake of my sanity, I'll use easy words]

Sadly, I didn't manage to get any pictures of him in his casual clothes. When the show was over, he was heading down the stairs, I wanted so badly to call him and ask if I could take a picture but... mainly because my other classmates were there and because I had no courage (and voice) to say it.

I wanted to. I tried. But failed miserbly. Maybe there'll be another time. But the hope seems to die. Am I too shy? Okay never mind. Moving on.

The Sadness:

[[Notice I'm not putting: "The Emo"]]

Anyway... Yes, I was feeling down once the show was over. Now that what I looked forward to for weeks is finally here... and OVER... what now? I don't think there'll be a class outing like this again. Perhaps, but the chance is from slim to none. So there, I'm feeling down because this happens. That's why. Ugh.

Another thing I really have to ask: When there is a room full of lively action and everyone's hyped up, what do you do when someone just goes "I'm bored".

Simple statement. Complicated actions, thoughts, and just plain irritating.

You know what I concluded from people who always complain that they're bored / say that they're always bored? THEY HAVE NO LIFE. Either that, or they don't know how to appreciate the good things in life. Does it look like everyone can see a funny, famous play for even one time? Hell. NO.

Now you all know why I'm a loud-mouthed, rude, ignorant, attention-seeking, jealous, implusive, mean and heartless freak. It's better than being boring. Or rather having nothing to do than to complain my life is boring. Geez, like get a life already. Every can't be that boring. (Unless you have high expectations on that day and when the day falls below your standards, you're completely annoyed. And bored.)

The Food:

Because of some "left-out" and "offended" feelings I had, I left the group early to get away before I get all moody and pissed off (and "I'm not okay"), I went home, my emotions burning with angst and anger when I happened to come across Mom and my brother, Kelvin on my way home from the station.

Of course, this went we would go out and eat and that's great because I needed to rant to someone who ACTUALLY cares about me (or so they lead me to believe that). Mom said: "They're not improtant, just keep telling yourself Huttson is more important than them". I'm trying, oh I'm trying so HARD.

Oh we went down to find some props needed for Mom's show, sadly couldn't find any, so we headed down to Geylang street to eat. We went to this particular restaurant called "No Signboard Seafood" (I'm not kidding) and yes, I had the best (not reeally) seafood dinner of my life. Crab, fish, noodles and vegetables, yum.

So yes, seafood lifted me out of my misery and I'm a bit more brighter now. Yay me. That chili crab is hella tasty. And fresh.

The End:

Self-explanatory. End of entry. End of my day. End of the weird day. End of the one day I've been looking forward for quite some time. And life, of course, as always, drags on. Till my next entry, guys.

Have a nice day.

"Alone at the end of the race, we catch the last bus home. ... We open the latch on the gate of the hole that we call our home."

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a DARK beach with a BLACK view ; it was 11:39 PM

"When the paralytic dreams that we all seem to keep. Drive on engines till they weep. With future pixels in factories far away."

Yay-yay-yay-yay-yay-yay-yay!!!

I can absolutely breathe with satisfaction and relief right here, right now. And why?

Y is no longer going with X and Z to the movies. Sweet! So I don't have to be bothered that Z is with Y at the movies. Jealous no more, I'm in absolute bliss right now. Still, it would be nice to take Y's place and go with X and Z to the movies. xD

... Oh hell no, that'd be a drag. I wouldn't wanna watch that movie they're watching. I'm dying to know what's happening in HP&tOotP (Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix)... Someone's gonna die in there. Someone always dies in these kind of movies.

Firday the 13th. Yes, I'll realized that Emo wasn't really a suitable word and is constantly over-abused. Somehow I'm using more words like "Melancholy" or just plain "Sad" in my sentences now. Because being Emo is Over-rated. And not everyone wants to go cut themselves in depression.

Hello Dim Sum Dollies. I've waited to watch this play for a few weeks now, constantly craving to see what fashion everyone's gonna wear. I hope I don't look too "dark" in my outfit. Besides, I heard some of my classmates are wearing skirts... Well, this is a formal occasion. Go crazy, girls.

And yes, I'm desperate to know what the boys are gonna wear. Especially Z. In truth, I've been waiting for this event for four reasons:

1. I heard the play was funny and awesome.
2. I'm eager to see what everyone's gonna wear.
3. I wanna take loads of class pictures. (This is the last year 2A3 is going to be together)
4. I want a clear picture of him. Z. Him and him and him only... (Cause I'm a lovesick bastard)

Sounds reasonable enough? I should hope so. I'm looking forward to this. And looking forward to that A7X album I wanna buy! xD

"I don't believe in fairytales and no one wants to go to Hell, but we made the wrong decision and it's easy to see."

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a DARK beach with a BLACK view ; it was 9:04 PM

"When the paralytic dreams that we all seem to keep. Drive on engines till they weep. With future pixels in factories far away."

I must never ever, ever, EVER (!!!) reply to boys who regconize me as a councillor. They ask stupid questions. A.K.A. Softball Boys.

The very first stupid question I got was: "What type of councillor are you?"

WTF? What type? There were never any types! Don't tell me the Council actually has different cliques and / or social food chains.

Anyway! Continuing:

Boy: There are 'Councillor', 'Councillor councillor', 'Strict councillors'... (Councillor councillor??? WTH?! STFU!)
Me: I'm the 'Councillor who never wanted to be a councillor'." (Stupid question = Stupid answer)
Boy: ... There's also 'Slacker Councillor'...
Me: "Well yeah, I am one of them." *suppressing snicker*

What can I say? I tend to do my best on my duty (Recess Block) but I can't help it if I just don't have the "Strictness" other councillors have. I was more laid-back, rule-bending. But can I help it if other people don't listen to me when I ask them to listen? No. Case closed. I TRIED SO HARD. But they won't listen. At all.

This Saturday may be the one and only chance I get to do my best not be jealous. So far since Y had told me that X has asked Z along with them to watch the movies, I've been hella jealous. The burning, sickening resentment of jealously. I've gone green all right, but not with Live Earth, green with ENVY.

But, as an understanding mother, my mom has told me: "Do not think of them. You shouldn't care about that. Remember Huttson. He is the most important thing in your life." Still, I can't help but feel the green-eyed-monster chewing away at my thoughts and heart.

Sigh... I sometimes wish I never had hormones. It would have spared me my life and humiliation. Now for more screaming by A7X. I'm in dire need of Screamo now.

"I know this can't be right, stuck in a dream, a nightmare full of sorrow"

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a DARK beach with a BLACK view ; it was 6:31 PM

"When the paralytic dreams that we all seem to keep. Drive on engines till they weep. With future pixels in factories far away."

We did it. We did it all right.

You heard right, we came. We suffered, we burned, we cried, we sucked and now, we're free!! ..For now...

Hello NAPFA test. Been a long, tragic year since you've came. But what the hell. I conquered you! Uh-huh! In your face!!

... But you still want me to run the fucking 2.4 km run / walk don't cha. Sigh.

So far...

Sit-ups: 35 (A-A-A-A-A-A-A-A!!!) - 5 points
Standing Broad Jump: 166 cm (C... for Crap) - 3 points
Shuttle Run: 10:37 seconds (A... for Awesome!) - 5 points
Incline Pull-ups: 25 or 24... (A.) - 5 points
Sit-and-Reach: 38 cm (C... Cause I swear I died reaching.) - 3 points

Total 'em all up: 5 + 3 + 5 + 5 + 3 = 21 points

Easy. For me. I've secured myself a potential Gold Award like last year, but I gotta get 3 points or above (C grade or above) for the Gold Award.

... And now, I swear 2 bottles of Mango Juice after NAPFA tests leave your stomach burning...

"Now take a trip with me but don't be surprised when things aren't what they seem."

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a DARK beach with a BLACK view ; it was 6:45 PM

"When the paralytic dreams that we all seem to keep. Drive on engines till they weep. With future pixels in factories far away."

"Singing songs that make you slit your wrists,
It isn't that much fun..."

M N. 5th of the April. 17. Singapore. Female. Facebook. Tumblr.

Ex-Chongfu Primary. / Ex-CHAS.
Graduated Orchid Park Secondary:
Ex-Drama. Ex-Debater. Ex-Student Councillor. Ex-1A3-ian. Once-and-forever-2A3-ian. Ex-3A1-ian. Ex-PROUD-4A1-ian.

NGEE ANN FMS MCM [mass comm] T107/T102. RADIOHEATWAVE.COM Radio DJ. STAGE 52.

IN A RELATIONSHIP ♥

FYI, I quote a LOT of lyrics.

NOT emo, just tends to be more depressed than I'd like.
NOT a rocker, but loves to rock out.
NOT so sure i know who i am.
SUFFERS from Dermatillomania
a passionate LOVE for the colour RED
& PROUD TO BE A freak. Are you?

1. Love myself.
2. Self-Acceptance.
3. Eradicate insecurities.
4. Not to care.
5. Work hard in school.
6. Start over.
7. Take it slow.
8. Keep promises.
9. GPA >3.8 [yr 1.2,1.1,2.2,2.1,3.2]
10. To be MISERABLE and HAPPY.


"If it's not enough, try again. And again. Over and over again."

[[ WaNTS && WiSHES ]]

(1) Gorillaz - Plastic Beach
(2) 30STM - This Is War
(3) New Headphones
(4) Those new JEANS
(5) A Teenage Dream

Alex. :)♥ (my bumbling idiot)

HUTTSON My poopoo DOGGIE. ♥♥♥

BANDS :: MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE. Placebo. Marilyn Manson. 30 Seconds to Mars. Avenged Sevenfold. Linkin Park. Gorillaz. The Blackout. The Academy Is... Fall Out Boy. Bullet For My Valentine. Before Their Eyes. Lady Gaga. Just to name a VERY few...

HEROES :: GERARD WAY. TDK Joker. Jared Leto. Brian Molko. Draco Malfoy. 2D. Gerard Way. ♥ XD

Dilemmas.
The conflict.
Inner conflict.
Prejudiced people.
BUGS.

2A3-ians ♥ We Rock. Like Hell.
3/4A1-ians Over speed limit :D
Shoethrowers ♥ FAMILY
Apphia! :D :D :D Hee.
Azira A-zi-zi-ziraaaa! ♥ xD
Elizabeth ♥!
Elva VaVa :D
Farhan
Gavin
Isabelle
Jessica :D :D :D
Joanne ♥ XD
Joel is a legend!
Kenn Ninjaboy :D
Keng Ying CUZZIN! :D
Li Qing :DDD!
Matin! :D So cuute!
Nazry BiTCH!♥
Pearlyn So cute. :D
Rui Shuin Mah Couzin :D
Safwah rocks hardcore! :D ♥
Samuel ... Moo. :D ♥
Sarah BestFriend WALRUS ♥♥♥
Sheereen :DDD She cool yo!
Shi Wei :D:D:D So rad!
Si Ying, Tan rroooccckksss. :]
Si Ying, Yeh :D
Su Min She rocks!
Su Yuan :]

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But honey, what're you gonna do?
And you can sleep in a coffin,
But the past ain't through with you."

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I'm nothing but a beautiful disaster,
Crying tears of blood and joy
Into this black void.
Oblivion;
It's the place to be.
Ephemeral Romance.
Will you come with me?




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