Firstly I'd like to start off with a shameless confession. I find absolutely no guilt in liking Marilyn Manson because I like his dark, Gothic, Shock Rock, twisted style of music. It's rather appealing to me really, not scary. Not creepy, not wrong, not even too "dark".

It's a guilty pleasure, but I'm feeling shamless and guilt-free about it. But I really do like that guy, his music. Heck, I don't give a damn if he's with a 20-year-old actress or if he's a Satanist. Whatever, hail the "Reverend Manson". Just shows how love can be so... weird. It's better that way.

So now yesterday, the council of OPSS had a games day united with Yishun Town Sec School (YTSS) and it was so damn fun! A bit boring and awkward here and there, but it worked out nicely and badly at the end.

Started off the day by leaving late for East Coast Park, bus was late but meh. Reached there... But to only find out YTSS was later than us, a relief but it was totally boring whilst waiting for them to arrive.

Anyway, when they got there, we divided ourselves into groups and I had (from YTSS) Andrew, Hui Shi, Ridra (???) and (OPSS) Ronald. So it was a pretty crazy, wild and wacky group. It's like Hui Shi and Ridra were... sisters or something. So cool, and wild. And hyper. Andrew was the quiet one, Ronald the EMO one ( and he called me Emo, slick move ) and me... the neutral one... Not.

Had very odd activites: Shaving balloons, drawing from memory ( woo the Simpsons, I'm a fan and art fanatic ), Breaking-eating-fixing-and-pieceing-back a watermelon, doing "body parts" on the ground, carrying people across a small distance wearing boots ( you sick, sick people ) and walking together holding balloons at the hips.

It was mostly fun, a bit trauatizing and torturing for others... Dude, I swear, he could be a hero. Carrying two girls at a time. O__o He'll be SO loved.

In the end, we had a Captain's Ball fight... As well as a water balloon one. It was awesome. While gathering, there was an air water bomb that landed onto Ridra (Muhdnur...) and another one that a YTSS guy threw at her (Ken ; while still gathering) but it truly was fun and fantastic.

The day was cut short by the rain though, lightning struck and everything was cancelled. Kinda rotten, but still. It was fun. = ]

Well it was fun while it lasted. The few of the YTSS students said I rocked (... Flattered currently) and I seriously would miss them. They're welcome to crash our council room whenever they want. If they want. The friendship might not last forever, but it got somewhere.

I think I'll miss those girls... the "rip-offs" of Qing Ning. xD

Plus Charlotte alearted me while activites that the results for Sec 2 were out. Not the booklists though. But who cares?! It's confirmed I AM IN 3A1 along with Nazry and Zhi Qing. But I counted... and only 12 students from 3A1 and 3A2 were taking Pure Literature. That's worrying, but it's nice in a way.

Not to mention I don't know half of the students that are in my class. They're all a mix of 2A4's, 2A1's, 2A5's and 2A2's. Hopefully none of the A5 girls with a personal vendetta with me are in my class. Or I swear I will have the most bloodiest fraud with them, along with Ashton. GOD I CANNOT BELIEVE HE'S IN MY CLASS AND TAKING PURE LIT AS WELL.

Going crazy. Ignore me. WTFwtfwtfwtfwtfwtfwtfwtfWHATTHEFUCKINGHELL?!!?!?? Shit. I swear we had a bloody fruad last year when I was a councillor and countless times I had to kick him out of his class during recess. If he insults me alot more, I swear I will personally get him.

But then again, Sec 3's all about preparing for Sec 4's O' Levels, not fighting or making friends with bloody bitches... and bastards. I'll get you one day. What to relief to also know that she's in a different class. Way away from me. One class down, but I don't give a damn about her. I shouldn't. Waste of my time is what she is.

God please send Marilyn Manson and his Goth Thugs from "Tainted Love" to crash my school and class and save me from any other fucking-gone-wrongs if it happens. Pleaseeee rid of them if you have to.

... 29th November 2007, Thursday. The Hitman movie would be officially out now. Correction - the NC16 Hitman movie is out NOW. God, why is Singapore so bloody pathetic? -Emo Sob-

"I don't mind you keeping me on pins and needles if I could stick to you and you stick me, too. Don't break, don't break my heart and I won't break your heart-shaped glasses. Little girl, little girl you should close your eyes. That blue is getting me high, making me low. That blue is getting me high, making me low."

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a DARK beach with a BLACK view ; it was 9:39 AM

"When the paralytic dreams that we all seem to keep. Drive on engines till they weep. With future pixels in factories far away."

Life is so evil... As well as movie ratings.

But firstly a quick recap. Fell sick in camp ( didn't drink enough water ), got the flu, couldn't attend softball on Friday and today... Actually I could but my mom told me not to ( Mothers know best ). Drank nearly 1.5L of water... stomach pain and diarrhoea... Food poisoning?!?!!!?! O__O

If this keeps up, I am not gonna attend the FunFun day on Wed... Sorry council board.

The results are coming... They are dawning upon us... AND IT'S SHOWING THIS FRIDAY!! :D Yes, the results for the Sec 2's classes for Sec 3 will up on 30th Nov, this Friday. And we are dying in anticipation here, for our classes, for our classmates... For our booklists... It's official, we are so gonna see which class we're going to! :D Rah!

And now the worst part is I checked out movie ratings and I just absolutely wanna cry my damn eyes out, scream my lungs out and trash the house... Gah.

Sniff. T___T

The Hitman movie is rated NC16, the 30 Days of Night movie is rated M18 and... I Am Legend is probably gonna be rated NC16 OR ABOVE?! And you wanna know why?! Because the Singapore movie raters SUCK!

On TV if they show horror films, they cut everything because they take people's preferences into consideration. What the fuck?! If you don't like the movie, don't fucking watch it!!

They ruined everything. Heck, they even give labels on books. What the fuck. We should take them apart and burn them. Singapore is a good country, yes. But the weather and the movie rating (and polictics) SUCK.

Just goes with being a teenager. Challenging your own mental sanity and authority in this damn place. Bitch rant. Overrrrr.

"She's preparing for the flood. The deluge and the sliding mud. She's preparing for the flood. Running on black market blood. Black market blood."

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a DARK beach with a BLACK view ; it was 12:37 PM

"When the paralytic dreams that we all seem to keep. Drive on engines till they weep. With future pixels in factories far away."

Reading a magazine from that Times store at Plaza Sing on the 12th Nov, I found out that 14th Nov was my lucky day!

But then again, for my lucky day, it didn't seem so... lucky.

But we'll start with the lucky! Then move on to the damn bad events. Ughhh.

So the councillor CAMPERSSSSSS!!! went to school on the 14th for the camp briefing. And there was a woman there to brief us about what we're gonna do. They even even showed us pictures of what we'll be doing, what we'll be sleeping in. And what to expect ( wet season, mosquito alert. I'll be desperate enough to buy a mosquito net ) and it just looks so damn cool!

... But then again, during abseiling, I hope I don't screw up with the harness and end up scaling down... and drop down the waterfall. And die. Yup. That's scary. And during white water river rafting I pray I don't go crazy and lose the paddle. And caving... Hope I don't go crazy and agitate those bats ( they could be vampires... hey awesome! ) ... or whack into the huge rocks.

But all the same it seems so cool! We even get to go to a spa and hot springs... Ooh. :D

It's all so exciting but you know what's the best part about it? We have the list. ...

What's more exciting than this is the PACKING!!! Ahem. Yeah. :D

Then after that I met up with Sarah and Su Min, took 811 to Northpoint to eat KFC for lunch! ... We saw someone along the way. Just on Tuesday I deleted Z from my reject list. Then I saw him boarding the bus with his family. Geez, I have to left go of him. Next year we're gone.

Heading back home, I got my brother to watch a few funny retarded videos on Youtube with me. A.K.A. Kelly's Shoes. Damn that video is so damn... funny.

Dad: "Kelly. What are you going to do with your life?"
Kelly: "I'm gonna get what I want!"
Dad: "... Crap."

You should watch it. It is so damn wrong! But then again. I suddenly have a weird urge to buy shoes. xD [ watch it on Youtube here ]

Anyway, the bad part:

I got Hives. Or also called: Urticaria.

You wanna know what causes it? I have no idea. But the my damn allergies are acting up again. And I have no idea what caused them.

From MedlinePlus [ http://www.nlm.nih.gov/medlineplus/hives.html#cat3 ] :

Hives are red and sometimes itchy bumps on your skin. An allergic reaction to a drug or food usually causes them. Allergic reactions cause your body to release chemicals that can make your skin swell up in hives. People who have other allergies are more likely to get hives than other people. Other causes include infections and stress.

Hives are very common. They usually go away on their own, but if you have a serious case, you might need medicine or a shot. In rare cases, allergic reactions can cause a dangerous swelling in your airways, making it hard to breathe - which is a medical emergency.

It's a good thing I didn't get any rare medical emergency cases. Just the hives, geez, my mom had to heat up alcohol and use a mushroom to clean my skin. Ooh, the infection... Thanks Mom... I needed that.

And the worst part is, I don't know what I ate that caused these hives.

I pray they all get away from my digestive system before the camp. I don't wanna go there scratching at my skin 24/7. Argh, couldn't even sleep well last night.

"I think you have too many shoes. Shut up! I think you have too many shoes. Shut up! Stupid boy. Stupid boy. Let's get some shoes. Let's party. These shoes are three hundred dollars. These shoes are three hundred dollars. These shoes are three hundred fucking dollars. Let's get 'em!"

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a DARK beach with a BLACK view ; it was 1:25 PM

"When the paralytic dreams that we all seem to keep. Drive on engines till they weep. With future pixels in factories far away."

Heh heh heh... I found this survey on a Sims 2 forum so I thought I try it. Spread it around if you want. I foresee shit anyway.
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Name: Michelle
Gender: Female

1.) When showering, do you start the water and then get in or get in and start the water?:
Get in and start the water.

2.) Do you read the labels on the shampoo bottle?
No. Really. I don't bother, I just use the damn thing.

7.) Have you ever dropped your soap on your foot?
Yes. And it hurt.

9.) How old do you look?
I know I look like a teenager. That's all I know.

10.) What's the last song you heard/sang?
Sidewinder - Avenged Sevefold

11.) Have you recently become a member of anything?
No, don't think so.

12.) What are your plans for the weekend?
This is the weekend. I messed it up. T__T

13.) What is your mood at the moment?
Amused. Worried. Upset. Freaked.

14. Have you ever ridden a mechanical bull?
No, but that would be so damn fun.

15) Do you ever intentionally vomit after eating?
No, unless I really need to.

17.) Have you ever called anyone a slut?
I won't lie, yes. Loads of times.

18.) Has anyone ever called you a slut?
Not really, not that I know off.

19). Have you ever smuggled something into America?
Never been there once.

21.) Do you live in a city with a good sports team?
Fuck no. It's Singapore. WE SUCK.

25.) Do you have more enemies or more friends?
More friends. Really.

26.) Have you ever sent an anonymous letter?
No. I was supposed to send one to my crush last year but the people got mixed up and wrote down my damn name.

27.) Can you fix your own car?
I don't even own a damn car.

28). Do you like staying up late?
Hell yes.

29.) Are you smarter than your friends?
Maybe. Don't know. Can't tell.

30.) Have you ever stolen anything from your friends?
Nope. They'd murder me before they scold me.

31.) Have you ever been to jail?
Noo, and I don't intend to unless it's for a damn good reason.

33) Do you like the smell of beer?
Hell no.

34.) Have you ever died or killed someone in a dream?
Not that I can remember. But I remember someone killing someone else in a dream.

35.) Have you ever given to charity?
Money. A box of goodies.

36) Would you ever kill a dog for $1000?
Fuck Hell no.

37.) Do you ever get depressed?
More often than I admit.

38). Do you live with your parents?
Yup. Correction - Parent.

39.) Do you have plans for your future?
No. I'd just screw them up.

TWO'S OF EVERY KIND

Two Names You Go By?:
Michelle, Mic

Two Things You Are Wearing Right Now:
OPSS Sec 1 camp shirt and green doggy shorts.

Two favorite animals?
Dog and wolf

Two Reasons you're doing this survey:
I got nothing better to do... And... it seems fun.

Spell your name without vowels:
Mchll

How many pairs of jeans do you own?:
Um... 5 I think... Some were hand-me-downs from mom.

What color(s) do you wear most often?
I don't know. Usually it's black.

Last song heard on the radio?
Shakespeare in Love - Layla Kaliff

What's for dinner tonight?
That remains to be seen. Vegetables, most probably... and fish.

Are you happy with your life right now?
Believe me. It can be better.

[Do you own a...]

PS2: Nope.

XBOX?: Nope.

xbox 360?: Nope.

PSP?: Technically it's my brother's. Nope.

Gamecube?: Nope.

Wii?: Nope.

Do you shop at stores like Aeropostale and American Eagle?
I doubt Singapore has these stores.

How do you make money?:
Studying hard, you get money rewards that way. [ 500 moolah babee ]

Last thing you bought?
Um... A pretzel I think.

How's the weather?:
Humid, cloudy.

Favorite pair of shoes?:
My black Converse!

Do you own big sunglasses?
Don't even own one pair of normal sunglasses.

What should you be doing right now?
Homework... T__T ( or buying lunch for family )

Who did you hug today?
No one. Yet.

How many beds have you laid on today?
One.

Name one thing that you do everyday?
Sleep.

What's the color of your bedroom walls?
White.

What's your favorite sport?:
Softball. :]

Look to your left, what do you see?
The corridor of my flat.

Do you have plants in your room?
Nope.

What's your favorite starbucks drink?
Hot chocolate!

Recent time you were really upset?:
Just a few days ago. Another argument about something.

Last phone call?
Can't really recall... I think it was with Azira asking her to come for 12 Nov...

______________________

... Okay. I'm finished. Sigh~ Better go buy lunch now.

"Can't you feel the poison rising out of the morning and clear through the night. You can feel my strength destroy you straight to the heart from the venomous bite."

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a DARK beach with a BLACK view ; it was 12:01 PM

"When the paralytic dreams that we all seem to keep. Drive on engines till they weep. With future pixels in factories far away."

People told me to upload. So fine, fine.

Here's a quick one.

So I woke up and did my regular usual stuff.

Then Kelvin, my brother bought breakfast for me. He originally wanted to get Roti Prata for the both of us ( Momma's not home, see ) but they didn't have it, so he got porridge instead.

He told me to head to the Mama shop to get some coke, which I did after he came back. Then I got it, placed it on the kitchen counter and went back to my computer.

Now see, that's when all Hell broke out. Comprehend, the porridge was in a plastic bag where you tie it at the top so nothing will spill out, a type of... water-balloon plastic bag. Okay, so he came around to the study room and told me to come eat.

Aries are impulsive creatures.

That is so damn, fucking true. He had in his hand my porridge ( in the plastic bag ) and do you know what he did?

He threw it so the porridge would land on the tabletop and slide towards me. Nice plan, but sadly it didn't work. The plastic broke. The porridge splattered over my mousepad ( avioding the mouse and everything else ) and me.

DUDE! It is like a fucking bag of precious blood, you do NOT toss the damn thing around like it is made of reinforced steel! So yeah...

Yes, Safwah. That was the stupid happening I told you about.

Well, in the end a bit of porridge was salvated. At least. Let this all be a lesson to you. DO NOT TOSS, THROW AND / OR FLING AROUND BAGS THAT CONTAIN ANYTHING BECAUSE THEY CAN BREAK EASILY.

Oh the pain...

"Impulsive - don't ask why or wonder. Orders given unto me is: strike and I'm thunder with lightning fast reflexes on constant alert from the constant hurt that seems limitless."

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a DARK beach with a BLACK view ; it was 3:39 PM

"When the paralytic dreams that we all seem to keep. Drive on engines till they weep. With future pixels in factories far away."

I thought I made it clear when I said "No".

Then again, everyone twists and turns the plot so your answer becomes another, untruthful reply. What others may have done may completely destroy your very answer.

But I can't be sure whether my answer has been twisted into a lie.

He bought them.

Now I feel guilty, filthy. Heartless. I feel betrayed, hurt and confused. Yet if I do, I will betray another. If I don't, I don't get to fulfil a desire, a craving, a want I have.

Yet it's not easy to let go. Forgetting everything just like that? Impossible. After all that damage, drama and pain? Can you be easily forgiven? Can you be easily forgotten? I am not Christian, but many times people have said "Forgive and Forget". How easy is it for you? After you've been hurt to a point you're being affected for the rest of your life.

I would love to hate you. I don't care about you. I want nothing to do with you anymore. I find myself yelling and crying at nothing, craving in vain for the answers to immortal questions: Why this, why that? Why? Why? WHY?

Why do you keep coming back? Why do you keep doing this? Why have you not realized that you're only making things worse? Why have you not realized you've hurt me - us. Everyone. Why have you not let go of her for the sake of us? Why did you push us away?

Why have you not noticed I just don't want to see you - anyone of you - anymore? Why can't you feel my pain and my hurt? Do you even care anymore? Why can't you see from the eyes of a third person how much suffering you've caused? Are you ignorant? It's not all bliss, do you know that?

But why... I can no longer shed any tears. Why can't you tell - see - that when you try to please me with material goods, you're only hurting me. WHY CAN YOU NOT SEE THAT?! ... Why can't you save yourself? Why do you make life harder for you, for me, for everyone around me so you can go that extra mile to please me?

I'm not happy anymore... You can't make me truly happy with all these things. It won't work.

Now I'm torn. To do, to not do. I want to, but it's not a need, only a greedy, lustful want. I don't want to, it'll wreck everything I believed in. It's not as easy as pretending nothing has happened and just doing it in carefree bliss. There is a heavy guilt that is gnawing away at my thoughts, my mind, my heart.

I feel like a wreck now. And it's all thanks to you.

Just STOP.

"Take the pain out of loving and love won't exist. Everything we had. Everything we had. Everything we had. Everything we had. Is no longer there."

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a DARK beach with a BLACK view ; it was 11:01 PM

"When the paralytic dreams that we all seem to keep. Drive on engines till they weep. With future pixels in factories far away."

... Somehow to those who didn't make the class party. You should be thankful.

I will try not to be that blunt because I saw the undying effort everyone ( okay, those helpful ones ) had put in to make the fire work, but ungrateful bastards like me didn't appreciate it.

Truthfully, sorry.

Okay, let the "journey" begin:

So I started by meeting Sarah before we headed down to school so I could collect a form, sadly, the forms weren't there and we had to get out before the school authorities go crapshit insane and scold us and the poor security guard.

I so do not want to be the cause of his misery.

Then we headed over to Northpoint to buy two bottles of sparkling wine then headed down to Sembawang MRT to meet the shoppers. Met Shao Wei in the same train, then alter met Alvin. Then waited for the late shoppers: Gavin, Matthew, Jeffrey, Zhi Qing, Wei Zhe and Praise.

Bought frozen stuff, chips... and blah. Then travelled to the BBQ site and spent loooong crazy time waiting for the others. Ran around the beach, pier, playground, up the hill, down the hill... All that crazy teenager hyperness wasted on ... nothing.

So then the other people came, and we decided to get the BBQ going... Sad part was we kinda had problems starting the fire so it was a real waste. Then we had nothing to do again, so we decided to do our own things.

Kai Sheng, Praise, Zhi Qing, Sarah, Wei Zhe, Qian Ling and I started playing Truth or Dare at the pier, away from the others and we stole along a bag of Doritos Nachos. We had the most stupidest, craziest dares like daring each other to go to China to pick up a floating bucket or go to India to recover a lost ball... Cads... xD But really, the funnest dare had to be stealing two bottles of sparkling wine Sarah bought earlier from the others... And a bag of marshmellows. We are evil little bitches.

Then there was more trouble when we returned and we realized there was a shortage of drinks. No more Ribena, water ... and sparkling wine. Oshii~ You can tell there's gonna be a bad outcome. So Gavin get pissed and he started blaming Kai Sheng. Kai Sheng got pissed and everyone started going Emo.

The worst part was there was also a shortage of firestarters. I can't believe it, 2 boxes of firestarters and we can burn 'em all without cooking a proper chicken wing? Oooh, bad.

So then we decided to cut short the BBQ and leave early: me, Zhi Qing, Sarah, Su Min, Shao Wei, Li Qing and Wei Zhe. The worst part was once we got off the bus and started walking to Sun Plaza, Sarah called me to turn back to the bus, and the sight shocked the shit outta me.

The bus driver was seemingly stretching but the first dirty thought that crossed my mind was that he was... sexing himself... O____O Whoa... Holy crapshitgod! What a pole dancer...

We ate at KFC and told some jokes... So on so forth and finally parted ways and went home.

Truthfully, I think this class party was a bummer. Even Ms Xu wasn't there... Sigh...

... I do wonder, what happened to the frozen food and the raw chicken wings? ... O__o

"Lie awake in bed at night. And think about your life. Do you want to be different? Try to let go of the truth, The battles of your youth. Cause this is just a game."

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a DARK beach with a BLACK view ; it was 11:22 PM

"When the paralytic dreams that we all seem to keep. Drive on engines till they weep. With future pixels in factories far away."

There are things that lead up to a crappy, a trashy and crazy good-in-a-weird-way workshop.

Especially if it ends with chocolates and fun-fun-not-fun-fun... poetry competition.

So yesterday was a total waste of 7 hours, but today it was a different case. Especially when we had to cram a full long written poem in under 3 hours... Cram-Crazy-fest. Blah.

Well, I admit, I had fun doing the poetry thing. Acting out, reciting, laughing, especially going crazy and goofing around. I know now, I will never make a good poet or a poetry reciter. Geez, I destory the good name in Literacy.

Then again, we kinda had loads of fun "forcing" Ms. Fara into buying us McDonalds. Surprisingly it worked. And she got us 8 Happy Meals... Plus one for herself. I was so shocked I questioned how many Happy Meals she bought and she stared at me.

Ms. Fara: "What do you think?"
Me: "..."
Ms. Fara: "I look like a mad woman going around with 9 Happy Meals."

Well that answered my question. 9 Happy Meals... Not so happy now eh? Heh... Thank you!

Anyway, went back with Sarah ( who we met at school, she finished her library thing ) and guess who we saw along the way...

MRLIMOURSCIENCETEACHEROMMFGRARESIGHTINGGOODLORD!!!

... Well, it was scary but yeah. At least it was brief... But waa-aayy awkward...

CLASS PARTY TOMORROW, ARE YOU EXCITED BITCHES whoops, I mean GUYS??!!?

... We're gonna need more fun.

"It doesn't hurt me. You wanna feel how it feels? You wanna know, know that it doesn't hurt me?"

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a DARK beach with a BLACK view ; it was 9:49 PM

"When the paralytic dreams that we all seem to keep. Drive on engines till they weep. With future pixels in factories far away."

I have never felt so unaccomplished and crappy at the end of a day like this before...

I have never noticed that 7 hours is long... Until I knew about Poetry Slam... Yeah, when I volunteered for it... And it turned out to be a boring mess. It is just so... stupid. Good Lord... I do not know how I can survive another wasted 7 hours tomorrow.

I could use that time to write finish the fourth installment of my story, to finish up homework... To do and complete so many things... ( That 900++ page book still needs to be read finish... ) And I'm wasting it doing nothing... ( well, not really ) productive and... exciting.

Even burning my sims seem fun compared to writing, reading and performing poetry. GOD HELP ME!!!?!!!!!

I think I know why I'm more of a storywriter than a poet, because I can't perform poetry. Well, I kinda can... But not doing it like this. I have my own style and this competition is only ruining it. Be spontaneous people! Practising... Gestures? Not working out!

I should really... sleep now. Or find some way to make up for another 7 hours I'm gonna waste tomorrow.

"See you at the bitter end. See you at the bitter end. From the time we intercepted. Feels more like suicide... See you at the bitter end."

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a DARK beach with a BLACK view ; it was 10:27 PM

"When the paralytic dreams that we all seem to keep. Drive on engines till they weep. With future pixels in factories far away."

I have just discovered something.

I tried on my skinny jeans.

AND I FOUND OUT THEY ARE THE MOST AWESOME COMFORTABLE PAIR OF PANTS I EVER HAD!!

I can even dance in 'em! I can dance Michael Jackson's Thriller in these things!

Plus they make my legs look pretty thin.

My god. I love these pair of pants. ... But I haven't even washed them yet because the sun's not up. T__T

EDiTORiAL //
I am so gonna wear 'em to the class party.


"Let me know that I've done wrong, when I've known this all along. I go around a time or two, just to waste my time with you."

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a DARK beach with a BLACK view ; it was 7:27 PM

"When the paralytic dreams that we all seem to keep. Drive on engines till they weep. With future pixels in factories far away."

Went out by myself today.

The new Avenged Sevenfold album is outtt! -singsong voice- $18.95... It can wait. Until I get my 500 cash then let the miracles will happen!

Firstly, checked out Emo clothes shop ( where I first bought band tees and where Alnette introduced me, thank you! ) and bought a pair of skinny jeans. Black, it's a first. So I wanted a size bigger because the pants really stuck to my skin... But the shopkeeper told me that the size increases after washing. By an inch.

An inch?! 3 cm... That's good I guess. I finally have a pair of pants that can go good with my studded belt! Yay, woo, whatever. Moving on.

Then headed down to HMV, found new A7X album, headed down to Donut Factory at Suntec. Got lost. Had to follow signs and check directory thousand times before realizing the Donut Factory was in tower 3... Grr. Bought a pretzel ( inspired by Praise's new nickname xD ) and found my way to tower 3.

Pretzels saved my life!

The Donut Factory people were still baking donuts my family wanted so they told me to wait. The person serving me asked for my name and mispelled it. It became: "Michale"... And the cashier had trouble reading so she called out "Michael! Where's Michael?"

... It would be so cool to have that name if I wasn't a girl. Damnit.

Came back. Bought apples and carrots upon mother's request. But there were no more carrots. T___T NOOOOOO!!! No carrots? None... at all.

... When I came back, I found the spammer on ZQ's blog to be working her way into our nerves. What the hell, wrongly claiming Ms Xu didn't care about us? Huh. Whatever. If Ms Xu didn't care she would have let us fail. She didn't have to be worried over us and teach us wrong facts so she can just be paid by MOE.

She's a ... Hm... Oshii~Bitchfuckcuntshitassholemotherfuckerwhore. Don't understand? You don't need to.

"Don't try to drag me down with your cliche. Your fake grin fits your faker face. But I find all my pleasure in your misery. Yeah. I will step on you on my way up. And I will step on you on my way down."

- -8<- - - - WELCOME to the world of the PLASTIC BEACH - - - ->8- -

a DARK beach with a BLACK view ; it was 6:05 PM

"When the paralytic dreams that we all seem to keep. Drive on engines till they weep. With future pixels in factories far away."

I tried it once... Might as well try it again! xD

The Rules:
1. Put your music player on shuffle. [I'm using my MP3]
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. Put the title of the song as your answer.
4. You must write the song name no matter how silly it sounds!

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IF SOMEONE SAYS "IS THIS OKAY?" YOU SAY?

Eternal Rest - Avenged Sevenfold

[ ... Why would I say that? ]

WHAT WOULD BEST DESCRIBE YOUR PERSONALITY?

House Of Wolves - My Chemical Romance

[ I'm wild, ravenous and beastlike? xD ]

WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY / GIRL?

I'm Not Okay - My Chemical Romance

[ He's gotta be unhappy with his life. Hah! ]

HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?

Turn The Other Way - Avenged Sevefold

[ The song is telling me to be unstable and insecure... ]

WHAT'S YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?

From Yesterday - 30 Seconds To Mars

[ I don't get it! What? Learn my mistakes from yesterday? ]

WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?

Our Lady Of Sorrows - My Chemical Romance

[ I am such a sorrowful person... ]

WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?

So Sick - Ne-yo

[ What?! How could you people! ;___; ... Nahhh. ]

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR PARENTS?

Points Of Authority - Linkin Park

[ How perfect is this? Fits right into the description of all parents. ]

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?

The Beijing Cocktail - The Blackout

[ Drugs... Oh, sweet, sweet sinful drugs. ]

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BESTIES?

I'm A Riot? You're A Fucking Riot! - The Blackout

[ Heh. Who's hating who now? ]

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?

Beast And The Harlot - Avenged Sevenfold

[ ... He's a beast and a prostitute?! -sobs- ]

WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?

You Know What They Do To Guys Like Us In Prison - My Chemical Romance

[ Obviously, I'll be a prison inmate complaining about the abusive treatment prison guards give us. ]

WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?

Because I Want You - Placebo

[ Awwww! Really! It's somewhat, kinda true. ♥♥♥ ]

WHAT DO YOU PARENTS THINK OF YOU?

Rock Is Dead - Marilyn Manson

[ What?! NEVER!!! ]

WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?

Dead! - My Chemical Romance

[ It's got a good beat. ]

WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?

Papercut - Linkin Park

[ It's official! Nu Metal will be played at my funeral! ]

WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY / INTEREST?

Fergalicious - Fergie

[ ... T___T I feel so dirty now... ]

WHAT IS YOUR GREATEST FEAR?

Thank You For The Venom - My Chemical Romance

[ Getting poisoned by some idiot, maybe. ]

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?

Edge Of The Earth - 30 Seconds To Mars

[ Unable to comprehend. But whatever it is, my biggest secret lies at the edge of the Earth. ]

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?

Umbrella - Rihanna

[ Aww! The people who are so sick of me are the people I think that can support me! Aww. ♥ ]

WHAT SONG WILL BE THE SUBJECT WHEN YOU POST?

We Believe - Good Charlotte

[ I believe! ]

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Well, I'm sure now. Nu Metal must be played at my funeral! Linkin Park fans gather at my deathbed! We'll rock!

"So this world is too much for you to take. Just lay it down and follow me. I’ll be everything you need. In everyway."

- -8<- - - - WELCOME to the world of the PLASTIC BEACH - - - ->8- -

a DARK beach with a BLACK view ; it was 12:42 PM

"When the paralytic dreams that we all seem to keep. Drive on engines till they weep. With future pixels in factories far away."

Found this... Free-reponse survey from Praise's PRETZEL'S blog. xD So thought I'd try it out.
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What do u think of gurls who dress like guyz?
They really hate the stereotypical girly girl who wears pretty dresses and skimpy miniskirts. In my opinion anyway.

Do u think gurlz who dress different are lez or bi?
Not one bit. They are unique. Like Harajuku Goth girls, respect them!

do u like the way they dress?
... It could be better. And if people didn't stare at my boyish-like clothes. They're unisex! C'mon!

do u like the colors red, black, and blue?
Love each and every one of them.

what cat do you consider yourself in?
... I'm no cat-person. Really.

whats ur favorite type of music?
Rock. Heavy Metal. Pop. Punk Pop. I can appreciate all kinds of music really.

Do u hate to wear dresses? and y?
I hate them with a vengeance. Why? Those swishy skirts and obscene tops = God help.

what do u think of when u hear the word "Blood"?
It's a nice substitute for water. If you're thirsty that is. // or... MY VAMPIRE BUDDIES! :D

Do u care wut other people think of u?
Sometimes. Depends on how nasty or nice it is.

What do u think of when I say Tomboy?
Tom is a boy. Woots! ... Truthfully, a girl dressing like a guy.

whats ur favorite type of dog?
Cocker Spaniel! But that's bias cause I own one... Welsh Corgi! :D

Do u think people r trying to change you?
Yes. And dammit it won't work! I only change myself. AND I AM NOT SUICIDAL! I AM MELANCHOLY, Zhi Qing.

Do you think this quiz was random as hell?
Well, it provided slight amusement. Brush up on more questions and change your spelling, it'll be better.
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I love this free-reponse questions. You can answer whatever shit you want, and it's right!

"You got me trippin, stumbling, flippin, fumbling. Clumsy cuz I'm fallin in love. You got me slippin, tumbling, sinking, crumbling. Clumsy cuz I'm fallin in love. So in love with you."
Will you be there? On the 8th of Nov? The class party? Cause I'm still falling for you.

- -8<- - - - WELCOME to the world of the PLASTIC BEACH - - - ->8- -

a DARK beach with a BLACK view ; it was 12:13 AM

"When the paralytic dreams that we all seem to keep. Drive on engines till they weep. With future pixels in factories far away."

"Singing songs that make you slit your wrists,
It isn't that much fun..."

M N. 5th of the April. 17. Singapore. Female. Facebook. Tumblr.

Ex-Chongfu Primary. / Ex-CHAS.
Graduated Orchid Park Secondary:
Ex-Drama. Ex-Debater. Ex-Student Councillor. Ex-1A3-ian. Once-and-forever-2A3-ian. Ex-3A1-ian. Ex-PROUD-4A1-ian.

NGEE ANN FMS MCM [mass comm] T107/T102. RADIOHEATWAVE.COM Radio DJ. STAGE 52.

IN A RELATIONSHIP ♥

FYI, I quote a LOT of lyrics.

NOT emo, just tends to be more depressed than I'd like.
NOT a rocker, but loves to rock out.
NOT so sure i know who i am.
SUFFERS from Dermatillomania
a passionate LOVE for the colour RED
& PROUD TO BE A freak. Are you?

1. Love myself.
2. Self-Acceptance.
3. Eradicate insecurities.
4. Not to care.
5. Work hard in school.
6. Start over.
7. Take it slow.
8. Keep promises.
9. GPA >3.8 [yr 1.2,1.1,2.2,2.1,3.2]
10. To be MISERABLE and HAPPY.


"If it's not enough, try again. And again. Over and over again."

[[ WaNTS && WiSHES ]]

(1) Gorillaz - Plastic Beach
(2) 30STM - This Is War
(3) New Headphones
(4) Those new JEANS
(5) A Teenage Dream

Alex. :)♥ (my bumbling idiot)

HUTTSON My poopoo DOGGIE. ♥♥♥

BANDS :: MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE. Placebo. Marilyn Manson. 30 Seconds to Mars. Avenged Sevenfold. Linkin Park. Gorillaz. The Blackout. The Academy Is... Fall Out Boy. Bullet For My Valentine. Before Their Eyes. Lady Gaga. Just to name a VERY few...

HEROES :: GERARD WAY. TDK Joker. Jared Leto. Brian Molko. Draco Malfoy. 2D. Gerard Way. ♥ XD

Dilemmas.
The conflict.
Inner conflict.
Prejudiced people.
BUGS.

2A3-ians ♥ We Rock. Like Hell.
3/4A1-ians Over speed limit :D
Shoethrowers ♥ FAMILY
Apphia! :D :D :D Hee.
Azira A-zi-zi-ziraaaa! ♥ xD
Elizabeth ♥!
Elva VaVa :D
Farhan
Gavin
Isabelle
Jessica :D :D :D
Joanne ♥ XD
Joel is a legend!
Kenn Ninjaboy :D
Keng Ying CUZZIN! :D
Li Qing :DDD!
Matin! :D So cuute!
Nazry BiTCH!♥
Pearlyn So cute. :D
Rui Shuin Mah Couzin :D
Safwah rocks hardcore! :D ♥
Samuel ... Moo. :D ♥
Sarah BestFriend WALRUS ♥♥♥
Sheereen :DDD She cool yo!
Shi Wei :D:D:D So rad!
Si Ying, Tan rroooccckksss. :]
Si Ying, Yeh :D
Su Min She rocks!
Su Yuan :]

"Well you can hide a lot about yourself,
But honey, what're you gonna do?
And you can sleep in a coffin,
But the past ain't through with you."

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I'm nothing but a beautiful disaster,
Crying tears of blood and joy
Into this black void.
Oblivion;
It's the place to be.
Ephemeral Romance.
Will you come with me?




i want to be

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