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Sunday, February 24, 2008

CRANK DAT, SUCKAS

You wanted an update?

Okay fine.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sLGLum5SyKQ

Watch it. And do it.

Why?

BECAUSE I LEARNT THE SOULJA BOY "CRANK DAT" DANCE!!!

I'm not pro-expert. But I'm still trying it out. XD

"Then watch me Crank Dat Robocop. Super fresh, now watch me Jock. Jocking on them haterz man. When I do Dat Soulja Boy, I lean to the left and Crank Dat Dance. Now You!"

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a DARK beach with a BLACK view ; it was 1:52 AM

"When the paralytic dreams that we all seem to keep. Drive on engines till they weep. With future pixels in factories far away."

Wednesday, February 20, 2008

Merci pour le venin, des mémoires et de l'amour

I'll Photocopy all the things that we could be if you took the time to notice me, but you can't now, I don't blame you, and it's not your fault that no one ever does...
Cubicles - My Chemical Romance

Yeah, from the song quote above, I really wonder.

So far, I'm still lucky / unlucky that he doesn't know. No one's let leak about who he is. Thank God.

It'll be nearly a week very soon since last Friday, since the sweetest and nicest ( most probably a joke ) he said to me. I'm drawn to this guy really. But he's busy. Really busy. With CCA and studies, and not to mention his O Levels'... Heh, aren't they all...

I'm getting a melancholic, depressed yet dreamy feeling... It's sickening. Sickening and sweet.

How nice.

"So give me all your poison, and give me all your pills. And give me all your hopeless hearts to make me ill. You're running after something that you'll never kill, if this is what you want then fire at will!"

- -8<- - - - WELCOME to the world of the PLASTIC BEACH - - - ->8- -

a DARK beach with a BLACK view ; it was 9:20 PM

"When the paralytic dreams that we all seem to keep. Drive on engines till they weep. With future pixels in factories far away."

Sunday, February 17, 2008

No Sugar Added... At All?

Yesterday night was such an awesome night!

So Nicolette told me that Amanda invited me to her church for a Valentine's Day Dinner. Sadly I was at Suntec City and it was rather a last-minute thing so I kinda held them up (sorry, people) while they waited for me.

So the dinner was for youths, so no sign of parents. And it was awesome! They had band performances from the LHC, which I must say was really amazing. Closest I ever got to a band, next to MCR but yeah, it was still fun!

Then there was the fud! (Food) They served up mushroom soup, hamburgers, fries, salad and ice-cream. It was all so good, and I was seriously worrying what was I supposed to do when I first entered the church... Haha... It felt so awkward but the atmosphere soon felt comforting.

After the whole concert was over, Amos started explaining to me the whole meaning of the concert, about how God loves us and that there nice stuff. It was sweet, really sweet.

Haha, I remember when he was explaining what the metaphor between the ice lemon tee drink is compared to our lives. It was like we try adding sugar to our lives to taste sweeter, but it can only help so much. And then I questioned him about the lemon in the drink.

Amos: ... So it shows how God loves us the way we are.
Me: Ooh... So what's the lemon represent?
Amos: ... :/ Uhh it's just a lemon.
Me: Oh. I thought it was something sour in our lives...
Amos: *nodding* Ha, but it's just a lemon.
Me: *staring at lemon*

We joked around and laughed a bit more before one guy started talking to me. His name was Lynus ( THAT IS SUCH A COOL NAME! ) and we talked about stuff and stuff and more stuff, until I found out he was from Singapore Poly even though he looked so much like a Sec school student.

I'm serious... O__O

Nicolette had to leave, so I left with her and took a cab back. But I must admit, it was such a fun night. It was so weird but fun, with the MC giving very lame pick-up lines, and I met the Acoustic Guitarist of the band (he was nice!) and overall, yeah I really loved it.

Because comparing this to a lonely night of doing nothing, this is hell better.

"All of our friends saw from the start. So why didn't we believe it too? Whoa yeah, now look where we are. You're in my heart now. And there's no escaping it for you. 'Cause this is real, and this is good. It warms the inside just like it should, but most of all it's built to last."

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a DARK beach with a BLACK view ; it was 12:24 PM

"When the paralytic dreams that we all seem to keep. Drive on engines till they weep. With future pixels in factories far away."

Saturday, February 16, 2008

This House Believes That In A Fire We're All Gonna Die / THBT She's Gone Basket Case!

This week. Had officially been the most busiest, eventful week of my life.

And we're not talking about tests or exams or file checks or whatever, it really has all about CCA and Council and Cookies... And Crap. And more. But still.

But maybe because this week was Valentines' week and Total Defence Day was today as well, along with our debate competition. Anyway, list of what happened this week:

MONDAY

Nothing much happened. Nothing really. At all.

TUESDAY

Now the strain comes. Had to stay back for quite some time (2.30 pm - 7.30 pm) for packing and decorating of heart-shaped boxes. Was fun and stressful, but fun nevertheless. Skipped Debate training because the Love Cookies was important to the school. (500 boxes as far as I know. 500!!! O__O!?!! ... !!)

WEDNESDAY

More strain! But at least it wasn't as stressful as day before. Had more boxes to decorate by tying bows, folding crepe paper and glueing / sticking on hearts on the plastic boxes. Finished before oringinally targeted time.

Slacked off for a while to play basketball, Andy and Charlotte found a baby bird that was ambling around with a hair tied tangled around its leg. Spent an hour or more (I dunno) trying to remove it, operation was a success! The bird lived, you bloody pessimistic bastards, IT LIVED.

THURSDAY

Officially Valentines' Day! Went to school slightly earlier. Didn't know there was flag training, but went for it anyway. Didn't get anywhere much really.

Got my two boxes of cookies. Ate some during recess because I had nothing better to do really. Tarnished the Holy Shoethrowers "Bible" by drawing the "Valentines' Day Celebration Way for ~~Desperate~~ Singles".

Haha, imagine you sitting in the "emo corner", watching a romantic, tear-jerking move, in a dark room with no source of light except from the blue light coming from the TV, devouring comfort food (ice-cream?) and sobbing because no one's with you. It ain't fun, is it?

Was really hoping to talk to C. But he was mostly busy with his own stuff. Didn't spend $5 on Z anymore, not even offering one cookie like I did with the muffin last year. Ah well.

There was a cookie crisis. But that's another story. Man, the council was so crazy and freaked out that day.

Had debate after school. Actually was supposed to go for Physics remedial (GODFUCKDAMN!) but Mrs Devan pulled us out for debate because we had to do a mock debate to prepare the school team for Friday's Julien Gabriel's debate competition. It went quite well, and even Berton (debate coach) got us stuff! :D♥♥ Heh.

FRIDAY

Total Defence Day! Everyone gathered in the hall to watch a TDD video documentary-drama. It was so bloody fake, Ayu and I sat at the back of the hall, with the other councillors making fun of the video. Got shushed by C because we were too noisy and distracting.

Later when the drill started, as a leader, I was put down in the Media Liaison group! Meaning we were the "messangers" for the teacher. Had a very brief meeting before we realized we weren't needed at all. The power supply for our classrooms was cut off because of the bloody "fire" drill. In truth, I think my class / entire school would've blown up or been burned to the core in a real activity. Really.

That's how I feel it'll go anyway.

After school (so bloody damn hell hot and humid!), had flag training. This time was really chaotic, had problems with pulling the ropes at first, before getting the hang of it. Worked with both Charlotte and Nicolette for both National and School flag. It was fun! But the wind was messing me up so bad... C came!

Anyway, after Nicolette and Zhi Qing went off to work on their cases for Inter-class debate, I went off to the Council room to do Physics homework, THOUGHT no one would bother me until I found out C came in and started doing his homework, right in front of me. (His stuff & homework was there first, but I headed to the corner because I thought no one would care, big mistake)

A few other councillors popped in, which was a relief cause I felt extremely at discomfort being alone in a room with C and it was so damn quiet. But Andy + C makes the most funniest people I have ever met. They totally kept joking and bugging each other and it just made me laugh so much. How sweet.

Then C started sniffing a red whistle and acted all drugged, like he smoked opium or something. It was creepy, but cute. Really stupidly, adoringly cute. He even helped me with my Physics homework (without my permission) when he realized I was stuck at one question for a VERY long time... (Couldn't help it, missed out on Thursday remedial, now I have no bloody idea what is going on...) But really now, how sweet is this guy?! xD♥♥♥ n__n

But the by-far most "nicest" moment of what he said that made me feel so... "fluttery / mushy / gushy / yeah-that-nice-feeling-whatever" inside even though he's joking was when he started singing some song, and for laughs, I replied him to go join the "OP idol". I didn't expect any reply at all until he just said "I don't want, unless we sign up together and we do a duet" or something like that which is exactly the same meaning because I can't remember exactly what he said... He's so nice.

... I won't deny it. He is the very first person that I've liked that I feel that I can really talk to / feel comfortable around. Haha, he's got a certain charm about him that I like. The fact he's funny, responsible and sweet, bonus points! But he was kidding around... But still, it was a nice feeling. Still makes me smile even now. If he doesn't like me, that's ok with me... Because it seemed worth it. Very worth it. BTW yes, it was still on Friday.

After all that there nice stuff, the debaters headed down to Paya Leba Methodist Girls' School for the debate comeptition. Went rather well, we came totally prepared and went down hard, and won. But the prop for the motion did rather well too. =D We can nail this thing, and I swear if we can win this round 1, then for our inter-class debate, we can do it. I swear we can! =D And if any of you don't come on that day, I will step in for you and keel (kill) you the next day.

And yeah, that's basically my week... And it's the weekend! =D ... Should be sleeping now. Really.

"Telling them it's all for something real. Don't forsake the words you speak, you've gone too far... Acclaim!"

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a DARK beach with a BLACK view ; it was 12:20 AM

"When the paralytic dreams that we all seem to keep. Drive on engines till they weep. With future pixels in factories far away."

Friday, February 8, 2008

Like Me, Mothafucker!

1. If your doctor told you TODAY that you were pregnant, what would you say?
"WHAT?! HOW???!!!!?! ... Who's the father?!?!! ... ?!?!?!?!!!!"

2 . Do you trust all of your friends?
That depends really.

3. Would you move to another state or country to be with the one you love?
Yeah, probably.

4. Do you believe that everything happens for a reason?
For some unexplainable, twisted reason? Yeah. Sure I do.

5. Name two things you would NOT tolerate in a relationship?
The awkwardness / tension. Not having fun... Yeah.

6 . Which one of your friends do you think would make the best doctor?
Su Min! / Sarah! ... I don't know, leave it up to the future.

7. Are you afraid of falling in love?
Somewhat. How will it turn out?

8. Is there someone who pops into your mind at random times?
>___> <___<>

9. Would you stop talking to your friends because you hooked up with a new person?
Aw, no... I don't think I can stop going back to my friends.

10. When was the last time you flew in a plane?
December...? Yeah, December 2007.

11. What did the last text message you sent say?
... I forgot. I think it's "Ok, have fun."

12. What features do you find most attractive in the opposite sex?
... The face... And sometimes the hair / clothes.

13. Fill in the blank. I _______ you in my life..
I want Gerard Way, NOT you in my life.

14. Attached or Single?
Single.

15. If you were to wake up from being in a coma for a long period of time who would you call?
The Nurse. ( "Nurse! I'm aliveee! Why didn't you kill me?!" )

16. How many kids do you want to have?
Don't plan to... But that remains to be seen.

17. Love Someone?
Gerard Way. ^__^

18.Where was your MSN display picture taken?
Wherever the Black Parade was parading.

19. What's your middle name?
Why-do-you-need-to-know-biatch

20. Honestly, what's on your mind right now?
Why didn't I do my Debate research...?

21. If you could go back in time and change something, what would it be?
I would leave early for that MCR concert, bring roses, tell my brother to wear contact lenses and wait for MCR at their hotel. And bring my camera along as well. ... OH WHO AM I KIDDING?! I'll probably go back in time and meet Gerard Way and marry him. xD

22. Shoe size?
6. I don't know. I'm following my school shoes size.

23. What are you wearing right now?
Shorts. Shirt. Mah home gear.

24. Righty or Lefty?
Righty.

25. Best place to eat?
Anywhere with good food.

26. Favorite animal?
Well, duh. DOG!

29. Favorite juice?
... Apple. Orange... Mango! =D

30 . Have you had the chicken pox?
Nope. Had a vaccination since young.

31. Have you had a sore throat?
Every morning. Until I drink a cup of water.

32. Ever had plastic surgery?
Nope, never.

33. Who knows you the best?
I don't know really. It's definitely not me. Maybe my mom...

34. Do you get along with your family?
Most of the time.

35. Do you wear contact lenses or glasses?
Glasses.

36. Ever been in a fight with your pet?
Aw, no... Usually I'm the one to piss the little guy off. XD

37. Been to Mexico?
I haven't even been outta Asia and you're asking about America... No.

38. Did you buy something today?
No.

39. Did you get sick today?
Nope.

40. Do you miss someone today?
I miss Gerard Way's presence so much.

41. Did you get in a fight with someone today?
No. But I swear I'm going to.

42. When is the last time you had a massage?
In December. It wasn't my idea...

43. Last person to lay in your bed?
HUTTSON! =D

44. Last person to see you cry?
HUTTSON! =D

45. What was the last channel you watched?
AXN.

46. What are your plans for the weekend?
Get that debate research done, write out speech and do homework.

47. Who do you think will repost this?
Some joker with a lot of free time.

48. Are you happy?
Mildly content. Yeah.

49. Who was the last person you hung out with?
... Zhi Qing... Nicolette. Yeah.

50. final question... do you have a crush?
On C... In a way, yeah.
_______________________

... I miss Gerard Way so much. DDDDDD: Gah.

"Telling them its all for something real. Don't forsake the words you speak, you've gone too far. Acclaim!"

- -8<- - - - WELCOME to the world of the PLASTIC BEACH - - - ->8- -

a DARK beach with a BLACK view ; it was 11:03 PM

"When the paralytic dreams that we all seem to keep. Drive on engines till they weep. With future pixels in factories far away."

Thursday, February 7, 2008

A Different Kind Of Gerard Way

I think I like a new guy...

He's really nice to everyone, and funny as well. He's a good person... And he's sweet too! Extra bonus! :D

I think I'll call him "C", not "Z" because if I refer to him as the New Z, it'll sound like New Zealand. And besides, "C" stands for cute... and this time, this guy can talk. Haha... Looking at him, he reminds me of something... or someone...

I think I really do like this guy, even though he doesn't really seem like he cares actually... I think it'll be safer to admire him from a distance.

"I always put myself in destructive situations. I need oxygen to be exposed where no one goes, where no one’s been... When it all comes crashing… "

- -8<- - - - WELCOME to the world of the PLASTIC BEACH - - - ->8- -

a DARK beach with a BLACK view ; it was 5:38 PM

"When the paralytic dreams that we all seem to keep. Drive on engines till they weep. With future pixels in factories far away."

Friday, February 1, 2008

Death Will Be Such A Relief

I just realized today's the 2nd of February.

Time sure does travel fast, doesn't it? Ha... I can still remember being scared of the new year, the new class... Yeah...

I think we're breaking further and further apart. I'm not seeing them much anymore...

It's been a month, and I'm putting up with pricks already. Daily, weekly. Shit happens. And the more I put up a hypocritical smile, the more I feel like tearing their eyes out. So bloody irritating... Why can't they shut up?

I'm starting to hate them all. Just like last year alll over again...

And it's only the start of the year. It'll be a miracle if I survive.

Homework-test-wise, everything seems smooth. Literature, English, Maths... It's all alright. Except for Physics. God I think I'll fail. AGAIN. And then... There goes another Thursday, one hour's dedication to the lovely teacher for rememdial.

Ugh.

I'm gonna suffer... Gonna suffer. Few more months and then it'll be over. Dunno how long I'll survive but... yeah.

I'm a pathetic talker and listener. Don't compliment me, don't talk to me. I'd end up either giving you shit advice or ignoring you.

"I cannot take this anymore, saying everything I've said before. All these words they make no sense, I find bliss in ignorance. Less I hear the less you'll say, you'll find that out anyway."

- -8<- - - - WELCOME to the world of the PLASTIC BEACH - - - ->8- -

a DARK beach with a BLACK view ; it was 11:55 PM

"When the paralytic dreams that we all seem to keep. Drive on engines till they weep. With future pixels in factories far away."