Comparing this Friday to the previous one last, last week (13th March), I would say this is another definite beautiful day to remember.

But since I'm typing this at 2:55 AM on a Saturday... Let's just pretend it was yesterday. Friday the 27th.

School - as usual. Mr Nair and Mdm Lai weren't there, so used their free periods to practice debate. Got awesome support from Ming Yu and Alistar, and freakishly hilarious comic relief from Vemon, who read my cards at the speed of light and paused for, like, ever at the part where I was supposed to fill in the prop's point.

I told him to continue speaking, but he showed me the card and said there was nothing there. It was so funny... My God. Then he read my first point, and in all, my opening case and 1 st point was read by Vemon in 1min28secs. Minus rebuttals, minus 2nd point, and including the long, long pause for nothing. Good timing.

Thanks guys, your support was truly appreciated by us. : ]

Anyway, after school, headed down to Mac with Zhi Qing and Anuar, wanted to eat and practice debate more, but then I had to go pay my bill first. The fun part was on my way alone to Mac, I encounted Mrs Rupesh along the way... And Ms Soo. They asked where I was going, so I told them I was just going to Mac to eat and practice debating, but then it was actually against the school rules [BUT DAMMIT WE'RE NOT LOITERING]. So Ms Soo and Mrs Rupesh decided to follow me to Mac (thinking their job is going to be ... 'fun') ... And Ms Soo went upstairs and "terrorized" the OPSS students eating there.

Anuar, ZQ and I got the hell outta there quickly, self-explanatory why.

Anyway, headed back to school and practiced debate even more. Then Charlotte came along and we all met up with Berton and Ms Lim. And it was pretty obvious who was suffering when the two first met each other. Haha, Ms Lim was busy terrorizing Berton, implying so many ... inappropiate stuff. So, getting dressed and stuff, we headed out of the school and down to Nan Chiau High at Seng Kang.

The bad part, Ms Lim was gonna use her car and she didn't know how to get to Seng Kang. So basically, a slow-speed, within-speed-limit car chase began. Berton, ZQ, Charlotte and I in the taxi trying furtively to escape Ms Lim's... Lizzy (name of her car). We were so scared... >__>

The Quarter-Finals went well. Zhi Qing was our newest speaker and as a team, we all rocked together. We won against TKGS and Charlotte got best speaker role. And Apphia came to support us as well! How awesome, it sure was a great great debate really. So Semi-Finals, 1-hour confinement in a room and hidden camera searching, watch out, because here Orchid Park Secondary comes! :D:D:D:D [somehow next week is gonna be another hectic HECTIC heck tate round...]

Anyway, after the whole thing, we checked out the other compeititons and walked to Compassvale to eat. The others left early, leaving ZQ, Berton and me. We talked more about debate before saying goodbye to ZQ as she went off. Then Berton and me trained down to Harbourfront, talking about debate and more debate, nearly falling asleep and stuff, and separated with our different buses before going home. I took 855 and I swear, it's funny how I dozed off only when I reached Yishun... Well, anyway, that was Friday.

And though it wasn't as great a debate as 27th Feb, it was still sometime to commerate. Next debate, give it our best shot, yeah? Heh, the hidden camera can't remain hidden for long when we're around in that room.

... And now to study Physics and SS. Sigghhh~


"You're the best, and yes I do regret how I could let myself let you go. Now the lesson's learned. I touched it, I was burned. Oh. I think you should know, cause when I'm with him, I am thinking of you. Thinking of you. What you would do if you were the one who was spending the night... Oh, I wish that I was looking into your eyes."

- -8<- - - - WELCOME to the world of the PLASTIC BEACH - - - ->8- -

a DARK beach with a BLACK view ; it was 2:54 AM

"When the paralytic dreams that we all seem to keep. Drive on engines till they weep. With future pixels in factories far away."

Woo, our remedials for the March Holidays are finally over! :D

On the other hand, I have not started revising my sec 3 stuff and making notes for any of my subjects... That's worrying.

On the other hand, loads of funny stuff happened this week. One involved a very scary sudden-love-at-first-sight-stalkerish relationship that formed between SOME of the Shoethrowers and ... someone else. Another one involved me today getting back my History test paper and surprisingly I passed with 14/22 (would have passed better if I had committed the summary to memory but meh...) and Mr Nair was being all nice and letting those who passed write their own comments on their paper.

Next to my marks, I wrote, in bold red: WOO!

So it now looks like this:
Marks: 14/22 WOO!

That was retarded. But meh, headed down to VivoCity bent on getting the Converse shoes I wanted. Somehow they looked way different from the ones I pictured in my mind, and since they didn't have my size, I let it go. Wandered around aimlessly until I came across Page One. Till then, I was feeling pretty blue and low (no idea why...) like I was severly depressed. But there's a bright side. I didn't get the shoes I wanted... BUT I GOT SOMETHIN' ELSE BETTER AT PAGE ONE!

Two Somethin' Else Betters in fact. One horror novel and one graphic novel.

Then the rest was bland, boring and unmentionable. Sigh, should go study and do homework now. What a day, what a day...

Oh and to ZQ and Ian, the Watchmen funnie I was talking about:


That's scary.

"This conversation, information that you wanted me to share, but I didn't want to be there so I'll grant you one wish that won't come true. We stop waiting (we stop waiting, take this call). You don't have to follow. You don't have to follow. We're leaving you, we're leaving. You don't have to follow. You don't have to follow.We stop waiting and I start going home."

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a DARK beach with a BLACK view ; it was 7:39 PM

"When the paralytic dreams that we all seem to keep. Drive on engines till they weep. With future pixels in factories far away."

Let's clarify clarafy (XD) some stuff...

Operation W failed. SO SOMEBODY'S GONNA DIE TONIGHT.

Well, considering that we watched "Coming Soon" [NC16! When I'm not 16 yet Muhahaha] and SPOILER: The ghost woman was all ranty and going "YOU WANNA SEE ME DIE?!?!!?" So, yes, somebody did, in fact, DIE.

Anyway, Azira, Operation W was watching the Watchmen. We had 3 plans, which all failed. Pan A was buying tickets for that show and acting like 18-year-olds, Plan B was blaming Zi Peng if we failed, and Plan C was blaming Zhi Qing because she didn't dress like the rest of us [we ALL wore jackets, shirts and pants].

Funny how it was instantly SOLD OUT. And we just gave up and decided to watch the NC16 Horror movie, which I now decide it isn't that scary. It's all just using the same techniques, nothing happening then suddenly BAM! Everybody's shocked. If I realized that earlier, I wouldn't be a wimp and hide behind the thin fabric of my black hoodie in futile efforts to not get scared out of my shit.

I gotta go watch it again and maybe this time NOT hide behind anything. But I'm still pretty glad we got into an NC16 movie. : ] All of us.

Anyway, saw APPHIA TAN JIA QI after such a loooooooooong time. And I gotta say she's changed a lot. And she said she loves my hair, well, bull, I love hers. Naturally straight and silky. :D

She was awesome, and we've gotta go out again some time. :D

But as always, good things come to an end. And tomorrow's another school day [technically it's the March holidays but being sec 4... Eyyyeahhh, not happening]. Woo. Life sucks. Suck it in, bitches. Photos of today on my facebook. :]

"Back to the street where we began, feeling as good as lovers can, you know, now we're feeling so good. Picking up things we shouldn't read, looks like the end of history as we know, it's just the end of the world. "

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a DARK beach with a BLACK view ; it was 8:39 PM

"When the paralytic dreams that we all seem to keep. Drive on engines till they weep. With future pixels in factories far away."

Example? Last Friday, the 13th of March.

It was a good day reallyand then just degraded into a bad day. Somehow we were all really happy at first but in the end, there was tension and hurt running high.

I didn't get hurt directly, but it hurt to see others in that condition.

I don't really want to go into long and terrible details. But I'll just mention the absolute best and the absolute worst moment on Friday.

BEST
MORNING. Cross-country. 3 km. Bishan Park. Me, not a good runner. Finished the entire thing in 16:13 minutes. Managed to clinch the 20th position of the Top 20. Received medal. High spirits. Cheering, triumph, smiles, beams.

WORST
NIGHT. Debate. Still managable. Lost the debate though, a little heartbroken but still alright. Then everything after that was heartbreaking, and it didn't involve debate cards or material at all. Emotions ran high and wild. Felt bad and uneasy. Terrible, depression, dejection, anguish...

Who am I kidding? Everyone was kinda down at the end. Some more than others. It gets me worried and feeling bad, being so helpless and useless. Just tragic, that specific day. Just so tragic.

But I just wanna speak out for my heart: You guys did great. And even if we didn't get it, and even if everything now seems so hopeless and painful, don't cry over it, don't feel so remorseful and heartbroken over the actions that we did that unintentionally hurt others, don't get so stressed over something that's already over. All we can do now is look forward to something else in life, and it doesn't have to be debate. We'll be okay, and it'll take a good, long while to recover, but in the end we'll always be okay.

Rest well.
Take care.
Do something to forget about that whole mess.
We'll be okay in the end.
We always do.

I say that in utmost sincerity.

But for now... I'mma gonna rest, relax and pray OPERATION W goes smoothly, causeif it does... We could actually do something we've been praying and prying so hard... FOR SO LONG. DAMMIT! WE BETTER GET IN OR SOMEBODY'S GONNA DIE AND IT WON'T BE PRETTY.


"My intentions never change. What I wanted stays the same, and I know what I should do, it's time to set myself on fire. Was it a dream? Was it a dream? Is this the only evidence that proves it? A photograph of you and I, your reflection I've erased, like a thousand burned out yesterdays. Believe me when I say goodbye forever."

- -8<- - - - WELCOME to the world of the PLASTIC BEACH - - - ->8- -

a DARK beach with a BLACK view ; it was 12:04 AM

"When the paralytic dreams that we all seem to keep. Drive on engines till they weep. With future pixels in factories far away."

To Zhi Qing:



What'd I tell ya!? :D

To NAZRY and JEROME, YOU GUYS DID AWESOME FOR OP IDOL! I'M ROOTING FOR YEEZ!

"You used to be my everything. I used to be your only king. We used to be unseparable, ee couldn't spend the nights away. You used to be my melody. You used to mean the world to me. You didn't even say that you were sorry, sorry."

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a DARK beach with a BLACK view ; it was 1:36 AM

"When the paralytic dreams that we all seem to keep. Drive on engines till they weep. With future pixels in factories far away."

"Singing songs that make you slit your wrists,
It isn't that much fun..."

M N. 5th of the April. 17. Singapore. Female. Facebook. Tumblr.

Ex-Chongfu Primary. / Ex-CHAS.
Graduated Orchid Park Secondary:
Ex-Drama. Ex-Debater. Ex-Student Councillor. Ex-1A3-ian. Once-and-forever-2A3-ian. Ex-3A1-ian. Ex-PROUD-4A1-ian.

NGEE ANN FMS MCM [mass comm] T107/T102. RADIOHEATWAVE.COM Radio DJ. STAGE 52.

IN A RELATIONSHIP ♥

FYI, I quote a LOT of lyrics.

NOT emo, just tends to be more depressed than I'd like.
NOT a rocker, but loves to rock out.
NOT so sure i know who i am.
SUFFERS from Dermatillomania
a passionate LOVE for the colour RED
& PROUD TO BE A freak. Are you?

1. Love myself.
2. Self-Acceptance.
3. Eradicate insecurities.
4. Not to care.
5. Work hard in school.
6. Start over.
7. Take it slow.
8. Keep promises.
9. GPA >3.8 [yr 1.2,1.1,2.2,2.1,3.2]
10. To be MISERABLE and HAPPY.


"If it's not enough, try again. And again. Over and over again."

[[ WaNTS && WiSHES ]]

(1) Gorillaz - Plastic Beach
(2) 30STM - This Is War
(3) New Headphones
(4) Those new JEANS
(5) A Teenage Dream

Alex. :)♥ (my bumbling idiot)

HUTTSON My poopoo DOGGIE. ♥♥♥

BANDS :: MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE. Placebo. Marilyn Manson. 30 Seconds to Mars. Avenged Sevenfold. Linkin Park. Gorillaz. The Blackout. The Academy Is... Fall Out Boy. Bullet For My Valentine. Before Their Eyes. Lady Gaga. Just to name a VERY few...

HEROES :: GERARD WAY. TDK Joker. Jared Leto. Brian Molko. Draco Malfoy. 2D. Gerard Way. ♥ XD

Dilemmas.
The conflict.
Inner conflict.
Prejudiced people.
BUGS.

2A3-ians ♥ We Rock. Like Hell.
3/4A1-ians Over speed limit :D
Shoethrowers ♥ FAMILY
Apphia! :D :D :D Hee.
Azira A-zi-zi-ziraaaa! ♥ xD
Elizabeth ♥!
Elva VaVa :D
Farhan
Gavin
Isabelle
Jessica :D :D :D
Joanne ♥ XD
Joel is a legend!
Kenn Ninjaboy :D
Keng Ying CUZZIN! :D
Li Qing :DDD!
Matin! :D So cuute!
Nazry BiTCH!♥
Pearlyn So cute. :D
Rui Shuin Mah Couzin :D
Safwah rocks hardcore! :D ♥
Samuel ... Moo. :D ♥
Sarah BestFriend WALRUS ♥♥♥
Sheereen :DDD She cool yo!
Shi Wei :D:D:D So rad!
Si Ying, Tan rroooccckksss. :]
Si Ying, Yeh :D
Su Min She rocks!
Su Yuan :]

"Well you can hide a lot about yourself,
But honey, what're you gonna do?
And you can sleep in a coffin,
But the past ain't through with you."

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I'm nothing but a beautiful disaster,
Crying tears of blood and joy
Into this black void.
Oblivion;
It's the place to be.
Ephemeral Romance.
Will you come with me?




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