After loads and loads of questions and very... odd answers that the guy gave me... I think I'm rather ready to handle the new school year. I might not accept it head-on... But I'll gradually roll with it.

Haha... Just finished my last piece of homework, that damned Chinese book review. Finally. What a last-minute cramping... But I'm guessing you guys may be doing the same? Ha... Have fun finishing. Should have finished it at the start...

Well, you guys have to admit. This 2007 has been one crazy shitload of a year, but it was enjoyable, nevertheless. Yeah... I'll miss you guys. 2A3-forever, hopefully. Missing all the funny times, the odd times, the careless times and we can forget the screwed up times.

Ms Xu and 2A3. Don't ever forget that. And the hall of fame... shame... And that never-used blackhole of Ms Xu's "heart". Haha... We rock. We always have.

But now, I'm preparing for the head-on crash-on start of 2008. It's gonna be a rather hectic year, stress, pressure, Maths and all. Hopefully we'll find time to hang out with each other. Hopefully we'll overcome the stress and not tire ourselves out with worry. It'll be another year, just like Sec 1. Only we'll have more experience around the school. We're the "new" seniors of the school now... -evil grin- ( minus the Sec 4s ).

So, you guys ready to rock out next year? 'Cause holding back might not be an option.

"Do you wanna hold my hand? Could you sign this photograph, 'cause I'm your biggest fan. Would you leave me lying here?"

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a DARK beach with a BLACK view ; it was 1:02 PM

"When the paralytic dreams that we all seem to keep. Drive on engines till they weep. With future pixels in factories far away."

Something's wrong.

I can tell.

A lot of things are just going wrong now.

I'm scared... I'm very scared. I shouldn't have eaten that dinner... I feel like vomiting now. I can hear their voices... I know what's wrong now.

A lot of things are just going so wrong...

I'm scared. She's scared. Even he's scared. This issue is going over the line. It's getting worse by the minute. The possiblities and fears are growing and growing... The list of terrible outcomes is increasing. I'm scared... Yet they've told me not to worry. How can I stop when they are worrying probably as much as me?

I'm scared... I'm getting so scared. I might never be okay ever again.

If that holy man is in this Saturday... Then I truly hope he can help me. If not, we're just not fated to meet... And I'll never get my decision made. I'm doomed...

So many damn things are just going wrong now... What's happening to everyone now...?

That awful feeling's back again. The nausea is building up. Why is everything going wrong now?

2007 had started off nicely, it'll probably end terribly. ... Now I'm scared of 2008 and the new school year. Why didn't I suicide earlier...?

EVERYTHING IS JUST GOING WRONG.

"Did we all fall down? Did we all fall down? Did we all fall down? Did we all fall down? From the lights to the pavement. From the van to the floor. From backstage to the doctor. From the earth to the morgue... All fall down, well after all...."

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a DARK beach with a BLACK view ; it was 10:00 PM

"When the paralytic dreams that we all seem to keep. Drive on engines till they weep. With future pixels in factories far away."

As you've noticed, I changed my blogskin.

I wouldn't say "again" because it's been a long while since I changed it to the previous green zombie one and an even longer period when I changed my grey-themed rocker skin to the zombie one.

I changed it to a My Chemical Romance one because after that concert and during my Bangkok trip, MCR was practically the only thought in my mind. How they performed, how they sang... Everything. It really made me realize, I am in love with that band.

You can call it an obsession for now... But then again I really do like this band so much to an extent that I would get excited at ANY piece of news that comes out about them, be it good or bad - but if it's bad, I'll get upset, of course.

But really now... They have sang loads of songs that I can relate to... That I can headbang to, that I can sing along to... It's a great band. And it IS the VERY first band that I've actually liked, and soon I grew to like other rock bands. "Helena" was the first song I ever heard, through my brother. Then came more and more other songs... Then the Black Parade... Then their appearance here in Singapore...

I really do love them. The members, the music, the passionate lyrics... The frontman ( GERARD WAY ). XD

I seriously wished I knew about them earlier... They would've been able to save my life.

"Can you hear me? Are you near me? Can we pretend to leave and then... We'll meet again when both our cars collide. What's the worst that I can say? Things are better if I stay. So long and goodnight, so long and goodnight. And if you carry on this way, things are better if I stay. So long and goodnight, so long and goodnight."

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a DARK beach with a BLACK view ; it was 2:45 AM

"When the paralytic dreams that we all seem to keep. Drive on engines till they weep. With future pixels in factories far away."

I went out today.

Because being cooped up today was seriously depressing for me. I kept thinking about the concert and how I couldn't get their autographs. Then checking one forum, someone found out which hotel they were staying at...

I would've been desperate enough to call the hotel reception, clarify, ask if they've left and probably go stalk that hotel.

But they're busy people, so I've convinced myself: MCR IS OUTTA THIS COUNTRY.

It helped me get over the heartbreak. Went to Orchard, picked up Hitman book (God DAMN it is good) and stayed at Kinokuniya browsing books. It really was therapy to me. So I bought a new Manga, Sensual Phrase, and whoa... First volume and it was so hardcore erotic. O__O!!!

Anyway, came back and started reading more manga comics on OneManga... And I have to say it really did take my mind of y heartbreak and depression.

Going out today seriously opened up my mind... I missed an MRT, and a bus. But then another came... So it kinda symbolized if you missed the first, a second will come. It'll take a while, but it will, hopefully. The on my way back, I saw a woman wearing a shirt saying "Shopping cures depression". God's word. Retail Therapy. Amen.

Whatever cures your depression, your soul therapy. That heartache's still there...

"I'm gonna use you and abuse you. I'm gonna know what's inside. Gonna use you and abuse you. I'm gonna know what's inside you."

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a DARK beach with a BLACK view ; it was 7:16 PM

"When the paralytic dreams that we all seem to keep. Drive on engines till they weep. With future pixels in factories far away."

Well I got back yesterday from the concert.

And I seriously have to say it was an interesting experience. It was terrible at the start, queueing up standing for nearly 4 hours... And even more heartbreaking waiting for the concert to start. They started late maybe because they were waiting for everyone to come in...

But the most stupidest thing happened when we were inside the Max Pavilion ( it was huge, like damn huge! ) we were bored and screaming and cheering at the technicians (mistaken identity eh?) and some joker-asshole blowsup a CONDOM (we seriously thought it was a balloon) and tossed it around moshpit style. Then some other joker nearer to me blew up a bigger condom and threw it (It was like a banana! O__o) and yelled over to the others "MY CONDOM IS BIGGER THAN YOURS!" and when his condom balloon flew far away from him, he yelled "Hey, give it back you murdering bastards!"

The sound of rubber popping caused everyone to moan and laugh. Well, that was one of the fun part at least.

Then at around 8.50 or so... or 9 (???) they entered (couldn't see much, was blocked) and managed to see Ray headbanging while guitaring, saw Mikey (he has alot more hair and looks so much cuter upfront... O__O) then saw Gerard right at the front lifting up the microphone stand like some heavy weight champion... And they started playing songs... If I was't so caught up in the crowd I seriously would have loved it.

Yes, the Q-Jumpas worked miracles, I seriously could see the stage, drums, Gerard. Oh whoa. Gerard... He was so freakishly pale under that light. But still, he had amazing hair ( it's black and medium-length, ladies. )...

I have to say I didn't really enjoy myself, because I was concerning myself about my safety in the crowd more than the concert. Everyone pushed and pulled forward, three minutes after the concert started, you sweated like shit. It was so horrifyingly wrong. Plus ten minutes and people was being pulled out because they were dying from exhausted, nausea...

My brother lost his specs and I was away from him... So I desperately tried to get him cause I thought he was about to faint ( in crisis like these, you have to get to your siblings. ) but I was being blocked and could get no where. Argh.

So stood there, being jostled by more people until I thought I could get a clear shot of Gerard performing then I saw 4 messages. My mom sent two, one telling me what happened to my bro, and the other telling me to stay with him. That's enough for me to turn around and squeeze my way out of that place. The more further back I went, the more roomier and airier it was, and I COULD BREATHE!

On my way towards the back, I saw malay boys around a circle break-dancing to the songs the band sung... And some Malay guy swinging his shirt and I was like "Whoa. O__O;". Finally met up with brother and headed outside for a drink, before feeling refreshed and went back in, this time we sat all the way at the back.

When MCR sang their last song, Famous Last Words, I seriously enjoyed it. More space to jump and sing the lyrics... It was awesome. Then they left, and we searched around for my brother's shoes and spectacles. We found the shoes... But only one lens from his spectacles... Amazingly they weren't broken... Unlike one lens we found shattered into three pieces. (JUST ONE)

Besides, when the lights came on, we found loads of shoes... Some were pairs... Some were just one shoe... And it was full of trash... So yeah. You can hella tell it was a total badass moshpit. PEOPLE LOST THEIR EZ-LINK CARD, CAMERAS, SHOES AND FUCKING SPECTACLES!!

But I have to say, it was amazing for me to see the band. And Gerard. They played awesome... It was all good, minus the bad, the tragic and the shit. If I ever go back for one of these concerts, I know what to do. Wait for the crazy people to go forward, I'll stay at the back. You get good views of them from the back actually. Still didn't see Frank perform... maybe because I was only focusing on Gerard...

Pfft, Gerard. He was such an awesome guy. He was yelling "We're gonna fuck you so hard you can't even walk tomorrow" and "When someone falls down, you fucking pick them up. Alright? You fucking pick them up" and... "Lemme see your fucking cell phone lights and lighters." He got ways to influence the crowd.

I didn't get their autograph at all... And sad to say didn't manage to catch Gerard's attention ( didn't we all? )... But well, I tried to ask the bouncers was there any way we could go backstage for a few moments and get their autographs... but it was flat out "No"s.

Seeing them was already an awesome thing. Woke up depressed today, but I'm gradually counting my blessings. After all, I got to MCR live. I don't think many people could've been able to do that... Managed to get a few videos on my handphone, but it real crap quality. At least you could make out a few blurred figures ( Gerard... Mikey... Ray? )

MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE FUCKING ROCKS AND I AM SO FUCKING GLAD I WENT TO THEIR CONCERT AND ROCKED OUT!!!

"Close your eyes and swallow, time is on your side. I will make you feel so hollow, time is on your side. So lay down for me, time is on your side and feel so hollow. "Everybody knows that you're a liar, it is time to fight with fire."

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a DARK beach with a BLACK view ; it was 9:09 AM

"When the paralytic dreams that we all seem to keep. Drive on engines till they weep. With future pixels in factories far away."

❤ ❤ ❤

Eh heheheheheheheheeehheeeehhh heh heh...

I'm sorry. I'm just so excited because tomorrow I get to see MCR perform. And I did play my cards right. I did head down to meet at the place where the seller who sold me the MCR Q-Jumpas for tomorrow's concert. Thankfully, she sold me them at an affordable price... I really was desperate. And I swear, I would be so heartbroken if they weren't the real deal. But I think I really can believe they are real... And they will work...

Reading from a forum, Bob won't be playing. Aw shucks. But hey, the poor guy deserves his rest. That burn from the "Famous Last Words" video must have been badass bad. But whatever the point is, I'm going to have fun tomorrow, I'm going to rock out and lash out tomorrow, scream, dance, lose my voice. Whatever. I just wanna rock out at my very first concert...

And maybe hopefully be able to get their autographs or something... But that's doubtful... If time permits, I'll be picking up my Hitman book. Two excitements in one fulfilling, promising day... Hopefully it'll run smoothly. Just another wistful dream... And hopefully won't end tragedically if the Q-Jumpas don't work and my mom ends up laughing at me for myefforts gone to waste.

Sigh... Gerard Way, I eagerly await the Welcome to the Black Parade concert... ❤ ❤ ❤

"This isn’t the first time, it wont be the last. Tonight I’m coming for you, go! This isn’t the first time; it won’t be the last. This city’s almost got you burned! Let’s go! Let’s go! You know I love the way you love to front. I know! I know! What you got I know is what I want. Let’s hide and run! Some say that one day we will start again. I won’t let go! It’s nothing to lose but all to gain. We’re falling down! Whoa oh oh! "

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a DARK beach with a BLACK view ; it was 8:34 PM

"When the paralytic dreams that we all seem to keep. Drive on engines till they weep. With future pixels in factories far away."

To start it all off, I missed another phone call from the Kinokuniya people AGAIN. T___T But I called them back and I managed to get enquires about my Hitman: Enemy Within book.

Phone call 1 (me to them) : I asked about my book, they checked and the book can be delivered to the place. It'll take 4 - 6 weeks though.

Phone call 2 (them to me) : A guy from Kinokuniya called me telling me they actually have a book in stock and told me to come collect it.

So wow. I have amazing luck and I am so happy and lucky and thankful!!! Maybe praying really does have miracles. And I'm heading over to the bookstore tomorrow to collect it. Rahh! I get to play Hitman 2 and Blood Money, I get to watch the movie and now I get to read it! 47-kun! I am your biggest fan! Kyaawuaaa~!! O__o Um... Yeah.

They put me on hold 3 times, I hate that hold tone now... >__>

And if I play my cards right and say the right words, I might get closer to getting two Q-Jumpas for the MCR concert on Tuesday... Hopefully the seller agrees and lets me have them (for a price, it's okay for me because I'm desperate... but broke) . I would love to get drenched in Gerard Way's sweat if I can surely get upfront with the 987FM privilege.

Somehow I love that my life is running smoothly over rough rocks. Mostly at least. Please let me have / buy / get those Q-Jumpas...

"You're standing at the door, I'm falling to the floor. You look even better than you did before. I'm staring at my feet, wondering if I can do this. It's been a while but I couldn't forget you."

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a DARK beach with a BLACK view ; it was 10:14 PM

"When the paralytic dreams that we all seem to keep. Drive on engines till they weep. With future pixels in factories far away."

That one phonecall from the Kinokuniya people concerning my Hitman book order... And I missed it. T___T Oh God I'm in total anguish now... -EMOSOB- I am so carrying my handphone everywhere I go from now on.

Yeah, well, putting that aside ( not really, I seriously wanna know whether I can order that book or not ) I headed back to school for the Sec 4 Councillor Farewell party... It wasn't really much of a party... But we did kinda have fun... ( Actually it was more of the Sec 4's pushing us around for fun )... They're evil. >___>

But it was seriously fun. We had crazy games, one that involved being blind and mute... and getting yelled at, tortured by crazy sec 3 and 4's who like to mess around with us so we can't listen to the "leader" who'll lead us to safety. Gah, it was sure fun to watch them make the "blind" folk go crazy.

But besides that, we had a hilariously crazy musical chair game at the start. When it rolled down to the final 10, they had to choose a partner each to represent them, it was pure fun. Those who got out in musical chairs, their partners would get soaked with water in balloons popped over their fun. It wasn't as fun, but it was already bliss laughing at how wet they got.

Other than that, we had a water balloon fight. Um, wow. O__O First we had to beg Ms Kaur and Ms Soo so they'll let us play in the parade square when the damn orange thing was on. I swear, that orange alert system is only there for decoration, to waste electricity and to burn fossil fuel faster. What shit is Major Tan coming up with?

They let us... Yay, on the conidition that we run for cover should there be any lightning flashing. Well, apparently there was no sign of lightning or thunder... And none of us got fried playing water bomb fight, so yeah, We were safe! But not really, because it was the Sec 4's farewell, they requested for us ( the lower sec ) to be pelted with water bombs before we fight back.

Pure bliss. Total fun. Pain. Pain. Fun. Well, I got hit in the abdomen by someone (Muhdnur...) and hit in the back... It was fun, seriously.

Then we settled down, had (A BUFFET) dinner. I went for seconds, because I didn't want to mix my wasabi-with-soy-sauce-and-sushi together along with my friend rice. It'll taste wrong. But that was the first time I'got seriously extreme with the wasabi. I cried... because it burned my throat, the smell was coming out of my nostrils. Whoa. Despite that, it was awesome, that's how you eat sushi.

After that we headed over to the Level Masters' room to watch a few videos and see pictures taken from the Perak camp. Ah, abseiling... White water rafting... The rock. XD Heh-heh-heh-heh... [ I stylo leh... My team members crying after that rapid then I go pose the "peace" sign. Lol... ]

Then the day ended after the sec 4 were presented with gifts and comments from us. Yes, us, the sec 2s, not including Reeta, Yee Suan and Hazika (It's an inside joke xD) and from the Sec 3's as well. From what the Sec 4's have said and reviewed about their past as a councillor from the start, it seriously makes me see that being a councillor is really alot more fun thn what it looks like initially. You get the see the fun, happy side of disipline mistresses / Masters (i.e. Ms Kaur... Ms Soo... Mr Naufal"YOUDAMAN!"... Mr Paul Tan)

If I ever do make the standards to last up to Sec 4, then it'll definitely be a trip to remember.

In the meantime, I found out why Helena still had to tell Demetrius why Lysander and Hermia eloped in the woods. Because Hermia wanted to get out of the way so Demetrius wouldn't be distracted by Hermia and Helena could get him to fall back in love with her. Also because Helena wanted to pull down Demitrius's hopes that he will never be with Hermia and that maybe he would see that she was the better choice for him.

A MIDSUMMER'S NIGHT DREAM IS SO DAMN CONFUSING!!! The language... Oh, woe the langauge. If Ms Kaur didn't explain that, I seriously don't know how I'm going to survive.

Latest future 3A1 news: 2 more students added. Most likely foreigners. There're 42 pupils to count now. Thre more the merrier? Let's hope so.

"It was ice cream headaches and sweet avalanche. When the pearls in our shells got up to dance. You call me a bad tipper of the cradle. But wer'e just tired young fawns on hunter's lawns. We're the has-beens of husbands. Sharpening the knives of young wives. Take two years and call me when you're better. Take tears that are mine, find yourself wetter."
From this song, I abosolutely adore the screamo part.

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a DARK beach with a BLACK view ; it was 11:53 PM

"When the paralytic dreams that we all seem to keep. Drive on engines till they weep. With future pixels in factories far away."

Found another one of them surveys. They're so damn fun!

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PREPS


Do you wear makeup?:


Hell no.


Do you talk about boys at all girl slumber parties?:


Quite alot really. But they vary from politics to obscenity. xD


Do you LOVE to shop?:

Not really. It's more of a "like".


Do you go to Abercrombie or/and Hollister?:

... Do they even exist here?


Do you spend over 100 dollars on a pair of shoes?:

No. But if they're Converse then maybe.


Do the people at Hot Topic creep you out?:

Does Hot Topic even exist here?!


Do you listen to the top ten on the radio?:

Used to.


Is it hot when boys sweat?:

... O__O Ew no.


Do you like romantic comedys?:

Aw, they're alright. Yes.


Do you spend over a hour to get ready to go out?:

No.


Do you refuse to leave the house without makeup on?:

Never.


Do you consider cheerleading a sport?:

Don't know. Don't care.


Does blood make you want to puke?:

Oh no... =D I adore it really.


Do you cry in front of people?:

If I'm pushed to the point of tears.


Is it important for you to wear waterproof eyeliner all the time?:

No. In fact eyeliner really killed my eyes once.


Do you LOVE pink?:

So-so like. Not love.


Would you ever date a kind of ugly guy?:

If he could make me laugh a lot like a good friend, why not?


PUNK


Do you call people a poser often?:

Nope. Behind my backs I don't know.


Do you like Mohawks?:

They look freaky honestly, but with dramatic flair.


Can you skateboard?:

Not really. But I can balance when it's moving.


Do you have more than 3 piercings?:

If you count the ears, no. No ears, still no.


Do you like to mix bright colors with the dark?:

It balances the colours, as long as it's not too bright.


Does your wardrobe have plaid in it?:

... There's a plaid shirt... but it's not the punk-kind of plaid. I don't even know why it's there.


Do you know who the Sex Pistols are?:

London Punk band? Then yeah.


Do you actually listen to them?:

Not even once.


Do people consider you:

People tell me I'm cool... So maybe I am [ NOT ].


Don't you just hate labels?:

Oh the prejudice in the forsaken world. Hell yeah.


NERD


Do you hand your homework in on time?:

Yes. I do.


Are you upset when you don't recieve a honor roll?:

Nope. They're just bonuses. I just want good grades.


Do you like to read in your spare time?:

If I'm not feeling lazy. Then yeah.


Do you play video games?:

I don't think so.


Computor games?:

Hitman 2... Sims 2. Oh yeah.


Can you hack into other peoples computors?:

No, I'm a CPU n00b. xP


Do you get picked on?:

Not that I know of.


Do people ask you to do their homework for them often?:

No... In fact I copy off my friend's homework at times. xD


Are you an anime freak?:

More of Manga.


Do you wear glasses?:

Born with eye deficiency. Can't help it.


Do you get good grades?:

Above average.


Ever gotten a scholarship?:

No, don't think I ever will.


Do you think you'll get into college?:

That remains to be seen.


JOCK


Do you love sports?:

Well, yeah. Kind of.


Are you on any teams?:

Softball C-going-on-B division Girls'.


Do you play for fun with your friends?:

For fun, for victory. Yeah.


Do you like to get drunk at parties?:

I get high and happy without the use of alcohol or drugs or sugar.


Do you show off your muscles?:

I don't think I have any. xD Lol...


Do you jog/run/walk in your free time?:

Not at all. =D


Do you go to the gym?:

If I have time during holidays.


Can you beat all your friends in a race?:

If I run fast enough, but no, not really.


Sometimes do you forget you own strength?:

If my mind is cluttered.


Do you get angry easily?:

It's a tragedy, yes.


Do you watch sports on TV?:

I get too bored.


LONER


Do you have 5 or under friends?:

Nope. The entire class, council board and softball team are my friends! ( It's may be a one-sided thing though. )


Are you quiet in class?:

Sometimes. People actually notice when I'm really quiet, so usually I'm not.


Do you stand alone at lunch time?:

If I have councillor duty, then yes. If not, no.


Do you walk home alone?:

I prefer it actually.


Do you feel invisible sometimes?:

Yeah, sometimes.


Are you a people person?:

When it's the right time with friendly people, you'll regret knowing me.


EMO


Do you cry daily/weekly?:

If something tragic happens, then I probably will. But no.


Do you wear tight clothes?:

Only the pants. They give off the illusion my legs are thin. xD


You have no problems with Gay/Bi people:

No. In fact they have really good personalities and sense of humour!


Do you cut yourself?:

Used too. Now is very, very occasionally.


Do you get called emo?:

Yes. By people who are Emo themselves.


Do you have black hair?:

Born with it. Not by choice.


Skinny?:

Nope. I'm big-boned. xD ( It's an excuse for my body shape really )


Do you listen to Hawthorne Heights?:

Unless they're screamo, no. But I heard one guy died in his sleep in that band.


Can you Hardcore dance?:

No. But if I had the hair, I'd hardcore headbang.


Do songs make you cry?:

If they manage to break me.


Are you suicidal?:

Used to be.


Depressed?:

More often than I'd like. But now, not often.


METALHEAD


Do you listen to metal?:

Hell yeah!


Do you appreciate Classic rock?:

Don't even know what that is.


Do you absolutely hate rap?:

No. I don't mind it really, I find it kinda nice when it's not overboard.


Are your conversations usually about music?:

If I talk to the right people. Kenn! =D


Have you ever been in a moshpit?:

No. But fuck yeah it would be so cool to try it out!


You think emos are pussies:

Noo... The "Emos" I know are quite strong.


You have over 5 band shirts:

Only two. They don't have a design I like.


You don't care what you look like:

Not always true.


Do you own more than 10 CD's?:

Yup.


Do you listen to your music loud?:

If I can get away with it, crank the volume up baby!


Do you like to get drunk and goof off with your friends?:

We don't need alcohol to be high and happy.


Are you offended when somebody insults your favorite band?:

I try to be open to harsh critique.


You think Hot Topic is for posers:

Is there seriously a Hot Topic here?!



GANGSTERS


Do your pants hang low?:

If they are too loose, then yeah. But most time no. [ Do your chang hang lo'? ]


Do you treat women like objects?:

That is like treating your best friend like dirt. Fuck no.


Do you like rap?:

Honestly, yeah.


Do you try to look badass in front of people?:

No, I'd end up getting slapped.


Do you have grillz?:

What the hell are those?


Have you ever been in a gang fight?:

Nope. They're more of fights using vulgarities. Fuck. Cunt. Bitch. Whore. Fat Whore. Yeah.


GOTH


Do you like black?:

Hell yes!



Do you consider black a color or shade?:

A colour. Because I grew up led to believe that.


Do you listen to heavy metal?:

Oh yeah.


Marilyn Manson?:

Fuck yeah! =D



Do you wear black lipstick?:

No.


Do you HATE preps?:

No, as long as they don't bother me.


You can go 3 hours without smiling:

If I'm not aware of it, then I can go on forever.


HIPPIE


You adore animals:

They're awesome when they're not trying to kill you!


You do drugs:

Nooo dude. Drugs are, like, uncool mannnnnnn.


You own 3 type dye shirts:

Not even one.


You never bother getting a haircut:

No, I get haircuts when I need them.


You support PETA:

Don't know what that is.


You drive in a minivan:

We shall see!


SKATER


You know how to skateboard:

I know how to balance. Kinda.


Is your hair frizzy from putting on your helmet?:

No, it gets more of... flat.


Are you associated with any punks?:

No... More of crazy cool people.


You really like to pull of stunts:

If I only knew how to skateboard like Tony Hawk.


Do you spend ALOT of time skateboarding?:

If I only knew how to skateboard... Or owned one for that matter. And besides, no.


89 Facts About Me


EVER BEEN GIVEN AN ENGAGEMENT RING?:
Nooo, I don't think anyone would love me that much.


LONGEST RELATIONSHIP?:
Never had one.


LAST GIFT YOU RECEIVED?:
I forgot... It's a really long time actually.

EVER DROPPED A CELL PHONE?:
I don't think so. All my life I don't remember wailing at my handphone.

WHEN'S THE LAST TIME YOU WORKED OUT?:
Two Fridays ago at the gym.

THING(S) YOU SPEND A LOT OF MONEY ON?:
Movies, Manga, books. Whatever appeals to me.

LAST FOOD YOU ATE?:
Some weird pastry my mom bought.

FIRST THING YOU NOTICE ABOUT THE OPPOSITE SEX?:
The face... Oh the face... xD -blushblush-

ONE FAVORITE SONG?:
Tainted Love - Marilyn Manson

WHERE DO YOU LIVE?:
Sinagapore. That's all you need to know.

HIGH SCHOOL YOU ATTENDED?
Orchid Park!

CELL PHONE SERVICE PROVIDER?:
Singtel... High-card.

FAVORITE MALL?:
Don't have one.

LONGEST JOB YOU HAD?:
Never had one.

DO YOU OWN A PAIR OF DICE?:
A furry cute pair of fuzzy dice.

DO YOU PRANK CALL PEOPLE?:
Only with the company of my friends.

LAST WEDDING YOU ATTENDED?:
A very long time ago... My uncle's.

FIRST PERSON YOU'D CALL IF YOU WON THE LOTTERY?:
I'd phone mah momma! =D

LAST TIME YOU SAW YOUR BEST FRIEND?:
A VERY long time ago. If you're refering to my first best friend.

FAVORITE FAST FOOD RESTAURANT?:
Doesn't really matter to me.

BIGGEST LIE YOU HAVE EVER HEARD?:
... I'm not gonna say it here for privacy reasons.

WHERE'S YOUR FAVORITE PLACE TO EAT WITH FRIENDS?:
Anywhere's good. So long we have fun.

CAN YOU COOK?:
Not really... I try very hard not to burn my food.

WHAT CAR DO YOU DRIVE?:
I'm not driving yet. But we'll see.

BEST KISSER?:
Never even been kissed. I'll most probably never will be kissed.

LAST TIME YOU CRIED?:
Not very long ago.

MOST DISLIKED FOODS?:
Century Egg, I swear the smell will kill you.

THING YOU LIKE MOST ABOUT YOURSELF?:
My double-eyelids and my eyes. ;D

THING YOU DISLIKE MOST ABOUT YOURSELF?:
Almost everything.

LONGEST SHIFT YOU HAVE WORKED AT A JOB?:
Never had a shift, never had a job. Yet.

FAVORITE MOVIE?:
... >__> Hitman. xD

CAN YOU SING?:
Yeah, but whether it's good or not depends on the person listening.

LAST CONCERT ATTENDED?:
OPSS Principal Farewell Concert.

LAST KISS?:
My dog. I get urges to kiss and cuddle that cute little thing. xD

LAST MOVIE RENTED?:
Never rented one!

ONE THING YOU NEVER LEAVE THE HOUSE WITHOUT?:
Money / Handphone, whichever's much more important.

FAVORITE VACATION SPOT?:
I would love to visit Toyko... But favouite vacation spot is New Zealand.

LAPTOP OR DESKTOP COMPUTER?:
Desktop Computer. ( But I won't mind a laptop. xD )

FAVORITE COMEDIAN?:
... Whoever can make me laugh.

DO YOU SMOKE?:
Nope.

SLEEP WITH OR WITHOUT CLOTHES?:
With clothes. Sleeping nude is so wrong.

WHO SLEEPS WITH YOU EVERY NIGHT?:
My mom. For personal reason. STFU.

DO LONG DISTANCE RELATIONSHIPS WORK?:
If we're friends, then yeah. I got alot of long distant friends.

HOW MANY TIMES HAVE YOU BEEN PULLED OVER BY THE POLICE?:
Never been pulled over. And hopefully it stays that way.

PANCAKES OR FRENCH TOAST?:
Pancakes! :D

DO YOU LIKE COFFEE?:
As long as it has cream and sugar.

HOW DO YOU LIKE YOUR EGGS?:
I don't really care, as long as they're cooked, clean and edible.

DO YOU BELIEVE IN ASTROLOGY?:
Somewhat. They work out for me.

LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE?:
My friend's maid. My friend wasn't home.

LAST PERSON ON YOUR MISSED CALL LIST?:
An unknown number... O__o

WHAT WAS THE LAST TEXT MESSAGE YOU RECEIVED?:
"Now! x)"

NUMBER OF PILLOWS?:
Only 1.

WHAT ARE YOU WEARING RIGHT NOW?:
Shirt and shorts.

PICK A LYRIC, ANY LYRIC:
"I'll attack! We'll attack! Run away! Run away! I'll attack! I'll attack!"

DO YOU LIKE JELLY ON YOUR PEANUT BUTTER SANDWICH?:
I never tried that before really.

CAN YOU PLAY POOL?:
The kiddy non-serious version, yeah.

CAN YOU SWIM? :
I'm an amateur. But I can stay afloat.

FAVORITE ICE CREAM?:
Vanilla! :D

DO YOU LIKE MAPS?:
They're confusing.

TELL ME A RANDOM FACT ABOUT YOURSELF:
I have been asked loads of times by people why I joined softball instead of drama. There.

EVER ATTEND A THEME PARTY?:
Nope. It would be fun though.

WHAT IS YOUR FAVOURITE SEASON?:
Autumn. But we can't experience it here. T__T

LAST TIME YOU LAUGHED AT SOMETHING STUPID?:
In the last hour. I went on rampage and shot random people in Hitman Blood Money.

WHAT TIME DID YOU WAKE UP THIS MORNING?:
10:15 am I think.

BEST THING ABOUT WINTER?:
It's cold, it's windy, it'll snow. Oh yeah.

LAST TIME A COP GAVE YOU A TICKET?:
Never, and please let it stay that way.

NAME OF YOUR FIRST PET?:
... Fiona the fish... O__O

DO YOU THINK PIRATES ARE COOL OR OVERRATED?:
They are so damn cool.

WHAT ARE YOU DOING THIS WEEKEND?:
That remains to be seen.

BIRTH DATE?:
5 April.

WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE?:
An actress.

ARE YOU ON A LAPTOP?:
Nope. I don't own one anyway.

ARE YOU SMILING?:
No, damn you! NO!

DO YOU MISS SOMEONE RIGHT NOW?:
Nope, not at all.

IF YOU COULD GO ANYWHERE IN THE WORLD WHERE WOULD YOU GO?:
TOKYO damn it! TOKYO!!! ( Or America, that'd be nice too. )

ARE YOU IN HIGH SCHOOL?:
Oh yeah.

DO YOU HAVE A CRUSH?:
Used to.

WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE NAME?:
Balthazar. =D

WHAT COLOR IS YOUR BATHING SUIT?:
Blue... Dark blue... striped blue...

DOES YOUR SCHOOL START IN AUGUST?:
We're not in America. Our school starts in January (Sadly).

DID YOU GO ON VACATION LAST MONTH?:
Nope, stayed home... But will soon. xD

HAVE YOU EVER BEEN ON A CRUISE?:
Never.

DO YOU HAVE A SISTER?:
Nope. One brother and a (male) dog.

ARE YOU UPSTAIRS?:
Nope, downstairs at my computer.

ARE YOU IN LOVE?:
It was more of infatuation with that person. But no.

HAVE YOU EVER BEEN IN THE HOSPITAL?:
Well, yeah. I was born there.

DO YOU WISH YOU COULD SEE ANYONE PARTICULAR RIGHT NOW?:
... Kinda... Yeah.

WHAT JEWELRY ARE YOU WEARING?:
None... Unless you count my earrings.

WHAT ARE YOU GOING TO DO AFTER THIS SURVEY?:
Maybe linger around a bit more on the internet... Then read Shakespeare and go to sleep. Still have so many Acts and Scenes to read and understand. Argh!

_____________________

"Is this who you are? Some sweet violent urge. A weak fallen man... With the promise of an end?"

- -8<- - - - WELCOME to the world of the PLASTIC BEACH - - - ->8- -

a DARK beach with a BLACK view ; it was 3:00 PM

"When the paralytic dreams that we all seem to keep. Drive on engines till they weep. With future pixels in factories far away."

- -8<- - - - WELCOME to the world of the PLASTIC BEACH - - - ->8- -

a DARK beach with a BLACK view ; it was 7:32 PM

"When the paralytic dreams that we all seem to keep. Drive on engines till they weep. With future pixels in factories far away."

"Singing songs that make you slit your wrists,
It isn't that much fun..."

M N. 5th of the April. 17. Singapore. Female. Facebook. Tumblr.

Ex-Chongfu Primary. / Ex-CHAS.
Graduated Orchid Park Secondary:
Ex-Drama. Ex-Debater. Ex-Student Councillor. Ex-1A3-ian. Once-and-forever-2A3-ian. Ex-3A1-ian. Ex-PROUD-4A1-ian.

NGEE ANN FMS MCM [mass comm] T107/T102. RADIOHEATWAVE.COM Radio DJ. STAGE 52.

IN A RELATIONSHIP ♥

FYI, I quote a LOT of lyrics.

NOT emo, just tends to be more depressed than I'd like.
NOT a rocker, but loves to rock out.
NOT so sure i know who i am.
SUFFERS from Dermatillomania
a passionate LOVE for the colour RED
& PROUD TO BE A freak. Are you?

1. Love myself.
2. Self-Acceptance.
3. Eradicate insecurities.
4. Not to care.
5. Work hard in school.
6. Start over.
7. Take it slow.
8. Keep promises.
9. GPA >3.8 [yr 1.2,1.1,2.2,2.1,3.2]
10. To be MISERABLE and HAPPY.


"If it's not enough, try again. And again. Over and over again."

[[ WaNTS && WiSHES ]]

(1) Gorillaz - Plastic Beach
(2) 30STM - This Is War
(3) New Headphones
(4) Those new JEANS
(5) A Teenage Dream

Alex. :)♥ (my bumbling idiot)

HUTTSON My poopoo DOGGIE. ♥♥♥

BANDS :: MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE. Placebo. Marilyn Manson. 30 Seconds to Mars. Avenged Sevenfold. Linkin Park. Gorillaz. The Blackout. The Academy Is... Fall Out Boy. Bullet For My Valentine. Before Their Eyes. Lady Gaga. Just to name a VERY few...

HEROES :: GERARD WAY. TDK Joker. Jared Leto. Brian Molko. Draco Malfoy. 2D. Gerard Way. ♥ XD

Dilemmas.
The conflict.
Inner conflict.
Prejudiced people.
BUGS.

2A3-ians ♥ We Rock. Like Hell.
3/4A1-ians Over speed limit :D
Shoethrowers ♥ FAMILY
Apphia! :D :D :D Hee.
Azira A-zi-zi-ziraaaa! ♥ xD
Elizabeth ♥!
Elva VaVa :D
Farhan
Gavin
Isabelle
Jessica :D :D :D
Joanne ♥ XD
Joel is a legend!
Kenn Ninjaboy :D
Keng Ying CUZZIN! :D
Li Qing :DDD!
Matin! :D So cuute!
Nazry BiTCH!♥
Pearlyn So cute. :D
Rui Shuin Mah Couzin :D
Safwah rocks hardcore! :D ♥
Samuel ... Moo. :D ♥
Sarah BestFriend WALRUS ♥♥♥
Sheereen :DDD She cool yo!
Shi Wei :D:D:D So rad!
Si Ying, Tan rroooccckksss. :]
Si Ying, Yeh :D
Su Min She rocks!
Su Yuan :]

"Well you can hide a lot about yourself,
But honey, what're you gonna do?
And you can sleep in a coffin,
But the past ain't through with you."

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I'm nothing but a beautiful disaster,
Crying tears of blood and joy
Into this black void.
Oblivion;
It's the place to be.
Ephemeral Romance.
Will you come with me?




i want to be

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