I promised myself a thousand times I'd clairfy this... But I always forgot.

Well, hah! I just remembered! ... Which is a good thing. Because usually I forget a lot of things. God help.

1. Alright, huns. I'm going to make this clear so you guys don't get the wrong message that I once made: Z is not muscular. I know. I checked with my brother. Unless you want to argue with a going-to-be-Nurse, so-smart-he'd-kick-your-ass guy, shut up and get with the picture.

2. Yeeeee-ahhhh. I got my passbook updated. Apparently I realized how bad I've been spending. Dude, I'd go bankrupt verrrrryyy quick if I keep up this spending habits. So my allowance is currently my savings, in coins and change. And yes, I promised myself I won't buy Absolute Boyfriend until after this week.

... I've got to get help.

3. I rely on my fucking brains to help me study, not on luck. I possess some weird ability (or so perhaps my mind is lying to me that I can do this) that just studying the night before test, I can do well. Yes, my brains, notluck. Unless my own mind is telling me that I'm believing in lies and really, luck is the reason why I made it this far. God help.

4. I need help. I really don't know what's wrong with me. I suddenly get all right and wrong are both wrong. Something is very wrong with me.

Heh. I even told my friends if I had two boys, I'd call them Jesus and Lucifer. If I had two girls, I'd call them Kit and Kat. If I had three boys, I'd name them Bob, Bobby and Bob the Builder. If I had three girls, I'd name them Ferg and Ga and Licious. Spells Fergalicious.

...

AND I NEED HELP!!!!

What's wrong with me...?

"Don't touch me please, I cannot stand the way you tease. I love you though you hurt me so, now I'm going to pack my things and go. Touch me baby, tainted love."

- -8<- - - - WELCOME to the world of the PLASTIC BEACH - - - ->8- -

a DARK beach with a BLACK view ; it was 7:32 PM

"When the paralytic dreams that we all seem to keep. Drive on engines till they weep. With future pixels in factories far away."

I need help.

I keep thinking of buying so Manga comics.

So far I have:

- Vampire Knight (Series Continuing, waiting for No. 6)
- Captive Heart (Series Continuing, waiting for Vol. 3)
- Absolute boyfriend (Series Completed, still buying Vol. 2 - 6)
- Chrno Crusade (Series Completed, Bought all)

I understand that's not much. But the volumes and series and money... Hooooo boy.

I'd be bankrupt soon if I keep this up. D:

"The damage is infectious, the confession is too late. And how can I accept this? How is this happening to me?"

- -8<- - - - WELCOME to the world of the PLASTIC BEACH - - - ->8- -

a DARK beach with a BLACK view ; it was 3:55 PM

"When the paralytic dreams that we all seem to keep. Drive on engines till they weep. With future pixels in factories far away."

In Muffins, I am: Noob.

And I can't help it!

;____;

I burnt a muffin. A muffin for God's sake! And I did so well in my Home Ec last year! A1s done well and practicals passed. I can cook rice and porridge, fry eggs and vegetables. Cook soup and more...

AND I BURNT A FUGGING MUFFIN!!!!

What's wrong with me?

"I run denying as we speak, hiding my face among the weak. Some say their day is all away."

- -8<- - - - WELCOME to the world of the PLASTIC BEACH - - - ->8- -

a DARK beach with a BLACK view ; it was 11:15 PM

"When the paralytic dreams that we all seem to keep. Drive on engines till they weep. With future pixels in factories far away."

- -8<- - - - WELCOME to the world of the PLASTIC BEACH - - - ->8- -

a DARK beach with a BLACK view ; it was 8:59 PM

"When the paralytic dreams that we all seem to keep. Drive on engines till they weep. With future pixels in factories far away."

Using School Computer. Internet slow. Can't really complain. Can't believe they've banned accessing Youtube... or MTS2. Gah...

Yes. I changed my blogskin. Again.

From "Emo" and "dark", I've decided to go more with my element: ROCK MUSIC!!!

I really can't believe how unhappy Zhi Qing was when she realized since last year, I've "changed". How I? I've never really noticed. They said I've gone from quiet, shy and anti-social to being a happy person. It's like Emo Avril to Blonde Avril Lavigne now.

Dude. No. I'm not that happy. I got my downs as well. Ups-and-downs. So many... But yeah, since the start of last year, I've entered a class where I regconized no one from my previous school. You can expect me to be quiet. But hey, as time passes, I generally settle into my skin and ... their tolerance level increased.

I hope this cheers you up ZQ. Because I'm still the "Emo" you know. I'm not letting it show alot. But yes, deep down, I'm still the angsty, angry, irritating and insane emo freak you knew all along. Don't worry. She's not going anywhere for long. I've just switched to being a rock fanatic. An EMO rock fanatic.
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On the more serious side: ... THEY NEVER TOLD US THEY WANTED US TO START DECIDING OUR FUTURE!!! We're... about 3(or so) months AHEAD of schedule!!

I'd be breaking down now. I can't believe we had to take a survey about what courses / classes we could take next year. Ugh, I've never thought I had any othe bigger dilemma than the one I had... two years ago? Yeah, that one held my love for someone. It ended badly. This one holds my future. And I hope I dont screw up.

List of subjects I wanna (and haveta) take:
- English
- Chinese (absolutely have to)
- E Maths
- Additional Maths
- Social Studies and History
- Pure Bio
- Combined Chem & Psychics
- Literature
- Food & Nutrition

Sadly, I can only take 7 subjects. Or 8, but that'd be absolute suicide and I'm not willing to take the plunge. I may have to drop Literature or F&N, which sucks because I believe I can do well in those subjects if I hard very hard. Not to mention Mrs Zahri had told me to "take Literature next year, ah". Didn't expect that but it came out.

Hm... I wonder if I'll ever make it to Sec 4 before tripping and getting trampled over.

"See you right back here tomorrow for the next round, keep this scene inside your head."

- -8<- - - - WELCOME to the world of the PLASTIC BEACH - - - ->8- -

a DARK beach with a BLACK view ; it was 4:33 PM

"When the paralytic dreams that we all seem to keep. Drive on engines till they weep. With future pixels in factories far away."

"Singing songs that make you slit your wrists,
It isn't that much fun..."

M N. 5th of the April. 17. Singapore. Female. Facebook. Tumblr.

Ex-Chongfu Primary. / Ex-CHAS.
Graduated Orchid Park Secondary:
Ex-Drama. Ex-Debater. Ex-Student Councillor. Ex-1A3-ian. Once-and-forever-2A3-ian. Ex-3A1-ian. Ex-PROUD-4A1-ian.

NGEE ANN FMS MCM [mass comm] T107/T102. RADIOHEATWAVE.COM Radio DJ. STAGE 52.

IN A RELATIONSHIP ♥

FYI, I quote a LOT of lyrics.

NOT emo, just tends to be more depressed than I'd like.
NOT a rocker, but loves to rock out.
NOT so sure i know who i am.
SUFFERS from Dermatillomania
a passionate LOVE for the colour RED
& PROUD TO BE A freak. Are you?

1. Love myself.
2. Self-Acceptance.
3. Eradicate insecurities.
4. Not to care.
5. Work hard in school.
6. Start over.
7. Take it slow.
8. Keep promises.
9. GPA >3.8 [yr 1.2,1.1,2.2,2.1,3.2]
10. To be MISERABLE and HAPPY.


"If it's not enough, try again. And again. Over and over again."

[[ WaNTS && WiSHES ]]

(1) Gorillaz - Plastic Beach
(2) 30STM - This Is War
(3) New Headphones
(4) Those new JEANS
(5) A Teenage Dream

Alex. :)♥ (my bumbling idiot)

HUTTSON My poopoo DOGGIE. ♥♥♥

BANDS :: MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE. Placebo. Marilyn Manson. 30 Seconds to Mars. Avenged Sevenfold. Linkin Park. Gorillaz. The Blackout. The Academy Is... Fall Out Boy. Bullet For My Valentine. Before Their Eyes. Lady Gaga. Just to name a VERY few...

HEROES :: GERARD WAY. TDK Joker. Jared Leto. Brian Molko. Draco Malfoy. 2D. Gerard Way. ♥ XD

Dilemmas.
The conflict.
Inner conflict.
Prejudiced people.
BUGS.

2A3-ians ♥ We Rock. Like Hell.
3/4A1-ians Over speed limit :D
Shoethrowers ♥ FAMILY
Apphia! :D :D :D Hee.
Azira A-zi-zi-ziraaaa! ♥ xD
Elizabeth ♥!
Elva VaVa :D
Farhan
Gavin
Isabelle
Jessica :D :D :D
Joanne ♥ XD
Joel is a legend!
Kenn Ninjaboy :D
Keng Ying CUZZIN! :D
Li Qing :DDD!
Matin! :D So cuute!
Nazry BiTCH!♥
Pearlyn So cute. :D
Rui Shuin Mah Couzin :D
Safwah rocks hardcore! :D ♥
Samuel ... Moo. :D ♥
Sarah BestFriend WALRUS ♥♥♥
Sheereen :DDD She cool yo!
Shi Wei :D:D:D So rad!
Si Ying, Tan rroooccckksss. :]
Si Ying, Yeh :D
Su Min She rocks!
Su Yuan :]

"Well you can hide a lot about yourself,
But honey, what're you gonna do?
And you can sleep in a coffin,
But the past ain't through with you."

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I'm nothing but a beautiful disaster,
Crying tears of blood and joy
Into this black void.
Oblivion;
It's the place to be.
Ephemeral Romance.
Will you come with me?




i want to be

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