No, there is no typo error above in the grey title... It was the sec 4's inside joke today. :D My god, I love the guy who came up with that. We cracked up every time we heard or said it.

So today some sec 4 councillors headed off to Sentosa beach to have a fun time out. Namely: Nazry, Chang Hee, Jeckie, Zhi Sheng, Jonathan, Joel, Tian Tian, Haziqah, Reeta and me. And I have to say, in the morning till evening of our spontaneous and rather unorganized outing, IT WAS AN AWESOME DAY TO REMEMBER.

I write this with sunburns on my 'delicate' skin and knowing that not only is my body experiencing the horrible effect of uneven tanning, but also that tomorrow my skin will start peeling from the bad sunburn. Well, WHAT TO DO? It's out of my control. Plus, today was admittedly a blistering hot day... and we were lazy to move to a more shady area. xD

Well, the day started out fine. Despite the fact that I held up the other councillors so many f&#%ing times (and I apologize for that, sincerely, wholeheartedly. god it's so *embarrassing* to be the last.) But in the end, we still found ourselves in the familiar area of Sentosa, walking along the road towards Palawan beach, our immortal destination. :D ... after shopping at Giant for some extra stuff (snacks, plastic cups, a beach ball, why-didn't-I-get-this-for-prom stuff etc.)

Well, we found out we were walking to Siloso beach instead, a tram ride back and more 'angry' debates later we followed Tian Tian to the RIGHT area. The boys, save for Nazry, wasted no time in diving into the cooling waters in order to refresh, right after their AMAZING and SEXY strip-off and changing in the open. The rest of us lounged about, camwhoring, suntanning (with NO suntan lotion, i'faith), walking around, playing frisbee.

Then there began the whole massacre of trying to get the people with no extra clothes wet. Oh the boys were merciless killers. I will not divulge in what exactly happened, that's for us to know, but it was overall a funFUNFUN thing to watch and experience. A break for lunch, then more hilarious massacre.

Finally we all ended off leaving Sentosa to enjoy dinner at VivoCity. Well, that didn't go so well especially when we confused the directory list at Harbourfront Centre with VivoCity's... But in the end half of us enjoyed a good KFC meal, whilst the other half (boys) enjoyed a steamboat dinner. I went home with Haziqah, Reeta, Nazry and Tian Tian. And on the train we discussed some... impressive and formidable topics.

I have to say today was a very, very spectacular and amazing day! Kudos to all of you guys who waited exasperated for me when I terminally screwed up. THNAK YOU GUYS FOR SUCH AN AMAZING DAY! :DDDDDD

And now, I bid you all Adieu. I will return next week Monday after my trip to Thailand. Woo, it's gonna be fun, and hopefully not painful due to my sunburns. Ouch. Au Revoir, Mon Cheris! :D

"Every generation gets a chance to change the world. Pity the nation that won't listen to your boys and girls. 'Cause the sweetest melody is the one we haven't heard. Is it true that perfect love drives out all fear? The right to appear ridiculous is something I hold dear. Oh, but a change of heart comes slow. It's not a hill, it's a mountain. As you start out the climb, listen for me, I'll be shouting. We're gonna make it all the way to the light. But you know I'll go crazy if I don't go crazy tonight. Baby, baby, baby. I know I'm not alone. ... You know we're gonna go crazy. You know we'll go crazy, you know we'll go crazy if we don't go crazy tonight."

- -8<- - - - WELCOME to the world of the PLASTIC BEACH - - - ->8- -

a DARK beach with a BLACK view ; it was 11:50 PM

"When the paralytic dreams that we all seem to keep. Drive on engines till they weep. With future pixels in factories far away."

I write this right now, hunched over. Just moments ago I had my head buried in my hands. I feel terrible, upset and burdened. Depressed is a more common word, but it just makes me look even more pathetic than I possibly ever can be.

I don't know why I'm feeling this way. It may be because of work, or maybe it's my family or some unknown emotional/psychological weight that's pushing down on me, affecting me to the point I just don't like anything anymore. I'm definitely experiencing one of those "down and out" periods in life, and I can't even work up the will to cry. The problem that affects me currently makes me go even more insane when I try to work out why I'm feeling this depressed... I don't even know the basic WHAT is making me feel depressed, and then there's the WHY am I feeling like this. Every other thing is just redundant.

I'm just basically feeling low caliber now. For once it's not my self-confidence or self-esteem that's the cause of this depression (I can tell, or maybe I'm wrong), but really, really it's just something else that's just making me feel rotten inside.

I don't know what to do. I really don't.

maybe just to say this to myself with a tone brimming with venomous hate: stay the hell away from me

But we have to carry on in life everyday even though we barely are aware of how fast the time passes and what we just did in our past few years of life actually happened. This depression will pass with time, I just need to squelch it and bottle it up like I always do. Damn this way of coping with unknown problems that fuck my wellbeing up.


But I will digress from this maelstrom of conflicting and heartwrenching emotions. I'mma gonna focus on the positive things that have happened in my life after O Levels and the KOTA TINGGI (aww yeah!) CAMP.

[X] I got a job.
[Y] PROMMM!!!
[Z] The whole working experience.

I'm gonna skip [X], because it was all pretty much an 'accident' how I got the job anyway. I tried out a whole hell lotta places, enquiring politely if there were any part-time positions available, my outcome was there were many 'no's', a few 'yes's' that turned out as 'we don't want you' and a few 'uhh's'. I was on the verge of giving up when I recalled a place and called them up and surprisingly, regarding the high quality of that place, they DID have a vacancy.

The big surprise of the whole interview process was that they would hire someone like me who has no experience AT ALL in this type of business - or any other for that matter. Well, still, it's pretty sweet to be employed. The pay's decent, but I will not disclose nor will I divulge publicly where I am working and what I am doing on this open blog for fear of being harassed by people. Like I ever will be, I know. But you never know, there are devils in disguises lurking about.

But moving to the extremely funtasticular part: [Y]! Or rather known as PROM!!! :D Yes, I am well aware of the very sad fact it was a week and a day ago, and I am very late in relating my experience, but who gives a damn?! I still loved it! :D

Day started out fine. I had no plan to meet up with anyone whatsoever, everyone was out doing something else with somebody. So my original plan was just to stay home the whole day and play Sims 3 until it was time to ready myself for prom. It was a great plan until...

Wei Zhe called! And asked me to accompany him when he heads down to my aunt's bridal shoppe for hair and makeup. I agreed and we went, where our time was wasted away doing a lot of useless stuff. I was getting my hair straightened when...

Zhi Qing showed up! :D More wasting time and deaths in PSP games, and then a small McDonalds' meal before...

PROM AWAITS! We left the shoppe and rushed down to Somerset, and walked off to Holiday Inn (doesn't give a fuck about the recently added new name) where we met...

Charlotte! And a lot of other class/school mates, all beautifully glammed / dolled / adorned in gorgeous evening regalia. Indeed everyone was astounding in their outfits, all the girls (well, most of them) were all well-dressed in classy prom dresses, and all the guys were looking swell and handsome (SAMMYUEL! MOKHTAR! ASHTON!). You have to admit, discard all the ugly OPSS uniforms and give us a night like this where we are to make it memorable ourselves, we OPSS people sure know how to glam the evening up! Except me, who wore skinny pants despite everyone expecting me to show up in a dress. Albeit me, look at all our prom pictures on Facebook! We're all so classy and beautiful! [Except a few somebodys who ended up looking like tasteless sluts. Such an expected and drab turn-up.]

Anyway, overall night experience: Everyone complained of the food, but I thought it was okay. Our darling prom queen is Ivonne, who greatly deserves that title because she has all the qualities: looks, brains and the attitude. CONGRADULATIONS IVONNE! :D

To me, it was definitely a night to remember. The atmopshere was pink and mesmerizing, everyones' spirits were high and excited, it was just wild. No one paid attention to the entertainment (sorry you guys) and the principal. Everyone was going camwhore-crazy, tossing their cameras at their friends and asking them to take photos of them with other people. Myself included in that area. But when it all boils down, this was the night where almost everyone saw each other at their best (well, somewhere there), not for the last time, no. But maybe and perhaps the last. And in the end, I'm glad I had a great and fun time at the prom, where everything and everyone were so elaborately well-tailored and looking good.

We were just all smiles. : ]

And a small note on [Z]: well, working at my new job wasn't as bad as I thought it would be. As long as I'm willing to learn and not screw up badly, I think I can do this well. But let's be honest, this job is tiring and stressful. Which job isn't?

"We were the Kings and Queens of Promise. We were the phantoms of ourselves, maybe the children of a lesser God. Between Heaven and Hell, Heaven and Hell. The age of man is over, a darkness comes and all these lessons that we learned here have only just begun. We were the Kings and Queens of Promise. We were the phantoms of ourselves, maybe the children of a lesser God. Between Heaven and Hell. We are the Kings. We are the Queens. We are the Kings! We are the Queens!"

- -8<- - - - WELCOME to the world of the PLASTIC BEACH - - - ->8- -

a DARK beach with a BLACK view ; it was 6:39 PM

"When the paralytic dreams that we all seem to keep. Drive on engines till they weep. With future pixels in factories far away."

"Singing songs that make you slit your wrists,
It isn't that much fun..."

M N. 5th of the April. 17. Singapore. Female. Facebook. Tumblr.

Ex-Chongfu Primary. / Ex-CHAS.
Graduated Orchid Park Secondary:
Ex-Drama. Ex-Debater. Ex-Student Councillor. Ex-1A3-ian. Once-and-forever-2A3-ian. Ex-3A1-ian. Ex-PROUD-4A1-ian.

NGEE ANN FMS MCM [mass comm] T107/T102. RADIOHEATWAVE.COM Radio DJ. STAGE 52.

IN A RELATIONSHIP ♥

FYI, I quote a LOT of lyrics.

NOT emo, just tends to be more depressed than I'd like.
NOT a rocker, but loves to rock out.
NOT so sure i know who i am.
SUFFERS from Dermatillomania
a passionate LOVE for the colour RED
& PROUD TO BE A freak. Are you?

1. Love myself.
2. Self-Acceptance.
3. Eradicate insecurities.
4. Not to care.
5. Work hard in school.
6. Start over.
7. Take it slow.
8. Keep promises.
9. GPA >3.8 [yr 1.2,1.1,2.2,2.1,3.2]
10. To be MISERABLE and HAPPY.


"If it's not enough, try again. And again. Over and over again."

[[ WaNTS && WiSHES ]]

(1) Gorillaz - Plastic Beach
(2) 30STM - This Is War
(3) New Headphones
(4) Those new JEANS
(5) A Teenage Dream

Alex. :)♥ (my bumbling idiot)

HUTTSON My poopoo DOGGIE. ♥♥♥

BANDS :: MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE. Placebo. Marilyn Manson. 30 Seconds to Mars. Avenged Sevenfold. Linkin Park. Gorillaz. The Blackout. The Academy Is... Fall Out Boy. Bullet For My Valentine. Before Their Eyes. Lady Gaga. Just to name a VERY few...

HEROES :: GERARD WAY. TDK Joker. Jared Leto. Brian Molko. Draco Malfoy. 2D. Gerard Way. ♥ XD

Dilemmas.
The conflict.
Inner conflict.
Prejudiced people.
BUGS.

2A3-ians ♥ We Rock. Like Hell.
3/4A1-ians Over speed limit :D
Shoethrowers ♥ FAMILY
Apphia! :D :D :D Hee.
Azira A-zi-zi-ziraaaa! ♥ xD
Elizabeth ♥!
Elva VaVa :D
Farhan
Gavin
Isabelle
Jessica :D :D :D
Joanne ♥ XD
Joel is a legend!
Kenn Ninjaboy :D
Keng Ying CUZZIN! :D
Li Qing :DDD!
Matin! :D So cuute!
Nazry BiTCH!♥
Pearlyn So cute. :D
Rui Shuin Mah Couzin :D
Safwah rocks hardcore! :D ♥
Samuel ... Moo. :D ♥
Sarah BestFriend WALRUS ♥♥♥
Sheereen :DDD She cool yo!
Shi Wei :D:D:D So rad!
Si Ying, Tan rroooccckksss. :]
Si Ying, Yeh :D
Su Min She rocks!
Su Yuan :]

"Well you can hide a lot about yourself,
But honey, what're you gonna do?
And you can sleep in a coffin,
But the past ain't through with you."

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I'm nothing but a beautiful disaster,
Crying tears of blood and joy
Into this black void.
Oblivion;
It's the place to be.
Ephemeral Romance.
Will you come with me?




i want to be

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