It's been five weeks in Ngee Ann Poly... Man I am so freaking tireddd. O__o

I've been getting a lack of sleep, I've not been finishing my assignments, even though they give us 2 weeks to do it... I am seriously slacking off, and feeling more and more insecure. There have been a couple of tests, I studied and did them to the best of my ability. BUT I'M STILL SO INSECURE I'M NOT ACTUALLY DOING WELL AND GETTING A FUCKING GPA OF >3.5 LIKE I WANTED!!!

OH DEAR GOD WHYYYY!?!?!?

But side note, I'm in Radio Heatwave, Ngee Ann's very own campus radio. :DDD I'm the lucky 20 in 200. But in any other case, I've got to loosen up and sound more natural on air. It's so damn weird, when the red ON AIR sign is on, I go blank blank blank AWKWARD***** Bloody M-F!!! No vulgarities on air. FO SHO.

I auditioned for Stage 52 and the Ngee Ann scholarship. Results to 52 will be posted next week, and my 2nd-tier interview to the scholarship is next week as well. Hopefully I don't jinx myself, but I hope I can get it. One, I need the money. Two, it would be really nice to achieve something challenging and improve my self-efficacy. Woo SOCial PSYchology...

So tired... Got Radio Heatwave later. Then debate... UGHHH. But I'm skipping out to have dinner with Charlotte.

Oh TGIF with the Shoethrowers tomorrow. Well most of them. I miss my friends.

Till the next update, cheers and have a good weekend. : ]

OHYES. And I am currently super obsessed with Gorillaz - PLASTIC BEACH! Such hypnotic and beautiful music. :D

"I'm a scary gargoyle on a tower, that you made with plastic power. Your rhinestone eyes are like factories far away. Here we go again. That's electric! Helicopters fly over the beach, same time everyday same routine. Clear target in the summer when skies are blue. It's part of the noise when winter comes, it reverberates in my lungs. Natures' corrupted in factories far away. Your love's like rhinestones, falling from the sky, with future pixels in factories far away."


- -8<- - - - WELCOME to the world of the PLASTIC BEACH - - - ->8- -

a DARK beach with a BLACK view ; it was 8:42 AM

"When the paralytic dreams that we all seem to keep. Drive on engines till they weep. With future pixels in factories far away."

"Singing songs that make you slit your wrists,
It isn't that much fun..."

M N. 5th of the April. 17. Singapore. Female. Facebook. Tumblr.

Ex-Chongfu Primary. / Ex-CHAS.
Graduated Orchid Park Secondary:
Ex-Drama. Ex-Debater. Ex-Student Councillor. Ex-1A3-ian. Once-and-forever-2A3-ian. Ex-3A1-ian. Ex-PROUD-4A1-ian.

NGEE ANN FMS MCM [mass comm] T107/T102. RADIOHEATWAVE.COM Radio DJ. STAGE 52.

IN A RELATIONSHIP ♥

FYI, I quote a LOT of lyrics.

NOT emo, just tends to be more depressed than I'd like.
NOT a rocker, but loves to rock out.
NOT so sure i know who i am.
SUFFERS from Dermatillomania
a passionate LOVE for the colour RED
& PROUD TO BE A freak. Are you?

1. Love myself.
2. Self-Acceptance.
3. Eradicate insecurities.
4. Not to care.
5. Work hard in school.
6. Start over.
7. Take it slow.
8. Keep promises.
9. GPA >3.8 [yr 1.2,1.1,2.2,2.1,3.2]
10. To be MISERABLE and HAPPY.


"If it's not enough, try again. And again. Over and over again."

[[ WaNTS && WiSHES ]]

(1) Gorillaz - Plastic Beach
(2) 30STM - This Is War
(3) New Headphones
(4) Those new JEANS
(5) A Teenage Dream

Alex. :)♥ (my bumbling idiot)

HUTTSON My poopoo DOGGIE. ♥♥♥

BANDS :: MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE. Placebo. Marilyn Manson. 30 Seconds to Mars. Avenged Sevenfold. Linkin Park. Gorillaz. The Blackout. The Academy Is... Fall Out Boy. Bullet For My Valentine. Before Their Eyes. Lady Gaga. Just to name a VERY few...

HEROES :: GERARD WAY. TDK Joker. Jared Leto. Brian Molko. Draco Malfoy. 2D. Gerard Way. ♥ XD

Dilemmas.
The conflict.
Inner conflict.
Prejudiced people.
BUGS.

2A3-ians ♥ We Rock. Like Hell.
3/4A1-ians Over speed limit :D
Shoethrowers ♥ FAMILY
Apphia! :D :D :D Hee.
Azira A-zi-zi-ziraaaa! ♥ xD
Elizabeth ♥!
Elva VaVa :D
Farhan
Gavin
Isabelle
Jessica :D :D :D
Joanne ♥ XD
Joel is a legend!
Kenn Ninjaboy :D
Keng Ying CUZZIN! :D
Li Qing :DDD!
Matin! :D So cuute!
Nazry BiTCH!♥
Pearlyn So cute. :D
Rui Shuin Mah Couzin :D
Safwah rocks hardcore! :D ♥
Samuel ... Moo. :D ♥
Sarah BestFriend WALRUS ♥♥♥
Sheereen :DDD She cool yo!
Shi Wei :D:D:D So rad!
Si Ying, Tan rroooccckksss. :]
Si Ying, Yeh :D
Su Min She rocks!
Su Yuan :]

"Well you can hide a lot about yourself,
But honey, what're you gonna do?
And you can sleep in a coffin,
But the past ain't through with you."

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I'm nothing but a beautiful disaster,
Crying tears of blood and joy
Into this black void.
Oblivion;
It's the place to be.
Ephemeral Romance.
Will you come with me?




i want to be

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