I know it's already 1 hour and 34 minutes into the new decade of this (not-so) new millenia, but I just have to reminisce about 2009. It was definitely one of the greatest years of my life (and I'm only 16!)

Effectively, like every single year has done for me, 2009 has made me laugh, cry, scream, yell, do stupid things, fall, break down, jump around, go crazy, fall helplessly in love, appreciate, hate, love, dance etc. The list goes on forever because in the last year it was just so amazing.

You guys and this blog has played a dear, dear role in making it one of the greatest years ever. So, in honour of 2009, I'm gonna take a surreptitious look at all the eventful events that happened. Many memories may not be mentioned, some others forgotten, but I'll always remember that exquisite and endearing feeling of knowing that 2009 was a bittersweet but beautiful year. brace yourself, because this is about to be filled with nostalgic, chaotic, disorganized and sentimental valued shit.

2009 - only my friends and I will get it.

Remember how every single 2008 sec 3 was nervous for the year? I told you guys that we had to buckle up and rock out if we would survive the O Level year... Or being Sec 4 for that matter as well.

4A1!!! All our teachers wanted us to study hard and work hard... And 4A1 got so many interesting punishments. Foyer our new classroom. Vocab corrections. Jumping jacks and push-up positions. Singing after recess for being late. So many bittersweet and painful memories. But still so fun! And us being the sole winners of Racial Harmony-National Day competition... Our class spirit that day was brimming, and our first and only class party! It was truly amazing. Graduation Day was a momentus occasion as well. I will miss you all very dearly. We had such a phenomenal time...

TEACHERS OF OPSS WHO TAUGHT ME!!! I am positively and entirely grateful for the care and concern you've shown me over the years. How you've helped me grow my potential, how you've helped me work hard towards what I want, how you've talked to me and made me see things of myself that I never knew... Thank you so much for caring and nuturing me to be the person I am today. I am honoured and proud to say that I have amazing teachers from OPSS who have taught me. I'm definitely coming back to visit.

DRAMA SYF 2009!!! Fuck the Silver award, we deserved way more than that. The Drama club had the amazing Nobody dance, following tradition. And to know that we did our best and had so much fun day in and day out during rehearsals and such... We were so happy like FUCKS, yeahh... And to know Ms Adelynn Tan more is a complete honour for me. One of the greatest people you will ever meet and will forever love. I know I will.

DEBATE! Oh, one of the truly most inspiring and amazing experiences that I will forever cherish. Thank you so much Berton and my friends for supporting me and being with me during this incredible rollercoaster journey of loop-de-loops and ups and downs. The whole debate experience was truly enriching and has helped me grow so much in person and in charisma. Though in the end things didn't work out as well as we hoped for, in my eyes we're all winners. And totally outlandish and amazing talkers as well.

MY 16TH BIRTHDAY! GOD that 5th April was amazing. I've never felt so loved and appreciated before, but you guys just made me feel truly amazing and happy. In that one day everything was so chaotic and disorganized but I loved every second of it nonetheless. I was surprised all right, but thank you so much once again. It warms my heart. Truly it does. : )

LITERATURE CLASS ANTICS! Oh my goddd, I love every lit lesson. Remember going for incredibly boring seminars? Where they did nothing but recap everything that we knew??? And when the real boring seminar speaker-guy told me I was not allowed to question the logic of anything in Literature for that matter. Screw you Shakespeare... Remember Ashton was suddenly the guy that everybody loved? We wanted so badly to camwhore with him, but he was so shy! AHHH! So many great memories, you guys. Especially with the four jokers, our best friend Bob Ewell and Mrs Rupesh... And we were unwanted in the school for the whole year because we kept switching venues for our lessons.

CHINESE O LEVELS! ... Seriously, I hated it. But lucky for me I had my wonderful Chinese tuition teacher who turned me, a consistent F9-er to a C6-er. I PASSED CHINESE!! AWW YEAHHH BITCHES. But seriously, Chinese, if I didn't have such a hard time understanding and learning you, I would have actually enjoyed getting to learn more about you. But, since I don't, screw you, Chinese.

DPA! ... >:/ Skip.

PRELIMS / O LEVELS. Studying for both were killers. These two major exams broke down pretty much everyone who studied hard for it. They dragged us all down, and when we all thought we would never survive and get it over with... It's over. Woooo. Just like that... Night studying was a fun thing to do, though.

COUNCIL!!! Now this deserves quite a long memory-jog. My god, I loved my time in council. Being an upper sec councillor was a better experience than being lower sec, but still it was a brilliant and dear time I had being in the student council. We had so many laughs and cries, so many successes and failures, so much randomosity... But damn the H1N1... We couldn't have our SCI 2009, and the sec 3's said farewell to us when we weren't around. We're not dead, you guys. And then there's our beloved Kota Tinggi camp! Oh, my. So much craziness and love ♥ from everyone...

For everyone, OPSS or whatever reading this, being a councillor from 2006-2009 was definitely a very good experience. Sure, there were mnay times of frustration and high tension from conflicts with other students, but when you overlook all of the negative things, you realize that being a councillor has helped with self-esteem and responsibility. It nutures you as a leader and a team-member as well. Plus you get your own council room to relax in. I'm gonna miss that room, as much as I miss the council that I originally detested, but came to love with all my heart. OPSS STUDENT COUNCIL FTW!!!

PROM!!! Awesome, awesome night. Need I say more?

MY FRIENDS!!! I write this to the Shoethrowers, my classmates, my outside friends, tutors, the friends that I've just recently made (Thailand boy!). My heart is aching with sincerity and genuine gratitude as I write this, I am very thankful to have you as my friends. You have supported me through the times when I was down. You have shared your jokes and spread laughter to me and made me feel so much better. You have talked to me and gave me the pleasure of your company, you gave me so much love and understanding and gifts and such... I am eternally grateful for all of the wonderful times we've shared. You're the reason why 2009 was a beautiful year for me. And in return, I will be there for you. Just call/email/SMS/facebook. Keep in touch, guys. Because I swear I will this year. New Year's Resolution, ma.

AFTER O'S! Getting a job. Well, I have to admit, I do enjoy this job I'm working in. It's given me the valuable lesson of being independent and service-oriented. It also pays (just got paycheck heh-heh-heh...).

LOVE LIFE! Well, admittedly earlier this year I was still into C. Then I moved onto a rather unlikely prospect, but that didn't work out as well. I cried over him too, and after that I focused on my O Levels'. Meh, studies come first. Always.

MYSELF AND I. Have I actually figured out who I am? What traits and characteristics I exactly have? Have I discovered much about myself? Do I love myself? Well, I can't exactly say I've found and figured out who I am yet, but I'm enjoying this journey of self-discovery. Sure I've gotten depressed quite a number of times in o9... But I've definitely grown as a person and learnt a lot about myself during 2009, and I'm hoping to finally find acceptance within myself. I know I will, it's just a matter of when.

2010
So what will the future hold? Who knows. But I've always believed things will work out in the end, we've just got to BELIEVE and TRUST it. Hard work and effort is always important. And waiting for the O Level results is a real nerve-wrecker, but I think we'll all be okay. And after that, JC or Poly?

For now, I'm just gonna enjoy whatever time I have left before a new school and story begins. I think we all should, being kids and being stupid.

I know it's late. But Happy New Year 2010, everyone. : ]

"Groove slam, work it back. Space Cowboy just play that track. Gaga in the room, so starstruck. Cherry cherry cherry cherry, boom boom. Rollin' up to the club on the weekend, stylin' out to the beat that you're freakin'. Fantasize on the track that you're tweakin'. Blow my heart up. Put your hands on my waist, pull the fader. Run it back with original flavor. Queue me up, I'm the twelve on your table. I'm so starstruck, so starstruck, baby could you blow my heart up? I'm so starstruck. Baby, could you blow my heart up? I'm so starstruck."

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a DARK beach with a BLACK view ; it was 1:34 AM

"When the paralytic dreams that we all seem to keep. Drive on engines till they weep. With future pixels in factories far away."

"Singing songs that make you slit your wrists,
It isn't that much fun..."

M N. 5th of the April. 17. Singapore. Female. Facebook. Tumblr.

Ex-Chongfu Primary. / Ex-CHAS.
Graduated Orchid Park Secondary:
Ex-Drama. Ex-Debater. Ex-Student Councillor. Ex-1A3-ian. Once-and-forever-2A3-ian. Ex-3A1-ian. Ex-PROUD-4A1-ian.

NGEE ANN FMS MCM [mass comm] T107/T102. RADIOHEATWAVE.COM Radio DJ. STAGE 52.

IN A RELATIONSHIP ♥

FYI, I quote a LOT of lyrics.

NOT emo, just tends to be more depressed than I'd like.
NOT a rocker, but loves to rock out.
NOT so sure i know who i am.
SUFFERS from Dermatillomania
a passionate LOVE for the colour RED
& PROUD TO BE A freak. Are you?

1. Love myself.
2. Self-Acceptance.
3. Eradicate insecurities.
4. Not to care.
5. Work hard in school.
6. Start over.
7. Take it slow.
8. Keep promises.
9. GPA >3.8 [yr 1.2,1.1,2.2,2.1,3.2]
10. To be MISERABLE and HAPPY.


"If it's not enough, try again. And again. Over and over again."

[[ WaNTS && WiSHES ]]

(1) Gorillaz - Plastic Beach
(2) 30STM - This Is War
(3) New Headphones
(4) Those new JEANS
(5) A Teenage Dream

Alex. :)♥ (my bumbling idiot)

HUTTSON My poopoo DOGGIE. ♥♥♥

BANDS :: MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE. Placebo. Marilyn Manson. 30 Seconds to Mars. Avenged Sevenfold. Linkin Park. Gorillaz. The Blackout. The Academy Is... Fall Out Boy. Bullet For My Valentine. Before Their Eyes. Lady Gaga. Just to name a VERY few...

HEROES :: GERARD WAY. TDK Joker. Jared Leto. Brian Molko. Draco Malfoy. 2D. Gerard Way. ♥ XD

Dilemmas.
The conflict.
Inner conflict.
Prejudiced people.
BUGS.

2A3-ians ♥ We Rock. Like Hell.
3/4A1-ians Over speed limit :D
Shoethrowers ♥ FAMILY
Apphia! :D :D :D Hee.
Azira A-zi-zi-ziraaaa! ♥ xD
Elizabeth ♥!
Elva VaVa :D
Farhan
Gavin
Isabelle
Jessica :D :D :D
Joanne ♥ XD
Joel is a legend!
Kenn Ninjaboy :D
Keng Ying CUZZIN! :D
Li Qing :DDD!
Matin! :D So cuute!
Nazry BiTCH!♥
Pearlyn So cute. :D
Rui Shuin Mah Couzin :D
Safwah rocks hardcore! :D ♥
Samuel ... Moo. :D ♥
Sarah BestFriend WALRUS ♥♥♥
Sheereen :DDD She cool yo!
Shi Wei :D:D:D So rad!
Si Ying, Tan rroooccckksss. :]
Si Ying, Yeh :D
Su Min She rocks!
Su Yuan :]

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But honey, what're you gonna do?
And you can sleep in a coffin,
But the past ain't through with you."

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I'm nothing but a beautiful disaster,
Crying tears of blood and joy
Into this black void.
Oblivion;
It's the place to be.
Ephemeral Romance.
Will you come with me?




i want to be

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