Well, this week's been an eventful one.

For one, last Friday, I watched HARRY POTTER AND THE HALF-BLOOD PRINCE with Zhi Qing and Azira. Great movie, not-so-great ending, but it was still alright. Plus my old obsession for Draco Malfoy and Slytherin is sparked up again.

This entire week was filled full of crazed Hogwarts-Magic-Harry Potter obsessive talk with the Shoethrowers. We were all taking the Facebook quizzes and testing which houses we were in, and since there were so many HUFFLEPUFFS and SLYTHERINS (just ZQ and I), we roleplayed, forced ourselves into the HP series and formed our own clique/"house": The SLUTTYPUFFS!

And of course, Wei Zhe and I got into fierce debate into how to take off our fingertips and find a way to conjoin our wands to our fingertips so we can just use our hands and the magical power can flow right out of our "finger-wand-tips"... Oh, and apparently this method is so effective and powerful, whenever we cast "Avada Kedavra", laser-like killing power blasts right out of our fingertips.

Think Cyclops' (from X-men) laser-eye blasts. Yes, it's THAT effective! As well as Nazry telling me that to do the Lumos (conjure up a light) spell, we have to point the middle fingers. It works, don't ask why, you filthy mudblood.

Just recently (last night, round 6.15) I watched HP6 again with Nazry. Watching with him was ridiculously hilarious. I don't want to reveal any spoilers so as not to ruin the show, but what Nazry remarked at some scenes were just inappropiate and oh god, BRILLIANT. I love ya Nazry, we've GOT to watch other movies together! We'll totally screw them up, down, left and right!

Siiiigggghhh, the talks this week were entertaining and amusing. And just plain WRONG. We screwed up everything, including slandering Cho Chang and other people we don't like, screwing up the timeline and the individual houses and stalking the people we like/love/are married to. We should all make an Unbreakable Vow, next two years, when Deathly Hallows come out, we are so watching together. Screw everything else.

Yes, you've noticed I've been subtly Slytherin green. Weeeee! :D



Roleplay and fantasy life aside. I applied for DPA and was asked for an interview this week as well. The interview went well I can say, though I was half-an-hour late. They asked questions, we responded, we asked questions, they responded and clarified any doubts or assumptions other people had of the course...

And it was when they told us more about the course I start to question whether I do want that course. It's not the thing of studying or biology or anything, but it's the projects that involve... testing on animals. And after that the animals are supposed to be killed. It's not absue, it's protocol. It's not illegal, it's AVA-procedure.

I don't know if I'm emotionally stable enough to handle that.

Back to thinking what I really want after secondary school education. But I think it's safer if I just study hard and get as low points as possible, then I'll be in the safe zone.

Another time this week I went to school, mentally exhausted, slightly drowsy and ... appearing depressed I guess. I don't know why, I wasn't that stressed by studying the night before. But I think I know why I was so "emo". I'm going to digress and talk to myself here, no need to empathize with a freak like me, it's more safer if you watch from a distance.

I saw something I shouldn't have seen. It was an accidental mistake. And seeing it made me feel confused, bewildered and empty inside. I felt so unfamiliar, out of my comfort zone, as if I've been thrust into a room full of strangers. I don't know --- anymore. The looks are different from what I've remembered. I just don't know what to feel, what to say or think. Have I completely absolved myself from seeing that? That I do not feel as strongly as I would have a while ago? Or did I distance myself too much from that? That I don't know how to react anymore?

Either way, I feel like a stranger, looking at that. I just don't know --- anymore. Maybe it mentally aggravates me, but I can't be sure. I'm going to forget about this. Because I don't need to remind myself of things that I've worked so hard to put away from my memories.

In the meantime, the time now is 4:08 AM. I am exhausted and I need sleep. Homework and study to do tomorrow.

PS, I would sigh, but my Maths tutor told me it's not good luck... So, I'm going to swear in what's considered offensive in Hogwarts instead.

Filthy mudbloods and squibs and blood traitors... Grr.

"The way you're dancing, makes me come alive. Makes me shiver and perspire. Your surreptitious glancing, the way you crack a smile, you really start a fire. So move closer, I wanna feel your touch. So come over, come on. Love of mine, this fortress in our hearts feels much weaker, now we're apart. Love of mine, this fortress in our hearts, comes crashing down. I need a change of skin. I need a change."

- -8<- - - - WELCOME to the world of the PLASTIC BEACH - - - ->8- -

a DARK beach with a BLACK view ; it was 3:32 AM

"When the paralytic dreams that we all seem to keep. Drive on engines till they weep. With future pixels in factories far away."

"Singing songs that make you slit your wrists,
It isn't that much fun..."

M N. 5th of the April. 17. Singapore. Female. Facebook. Tumblr.

Ex-Chongfu Primary. / Ex-CHAS.
Graduated Orchid Park Secondary:
Ex-Drama. Ex-Debater. Ex-Student Councillor. Ex-1A3-ian. Once-and-forever-2A3-ian. Ex-3A1-ian. Ex-PROUD-4A1-ian.

NGEE ANN FMS MCM [mass comm] T107/T102. RADIOHEATWAVE.COM Radio DJ. STAGE 52.

IN A RELATIONSHIP ♥

FYI, I quote a LOT of lyrics.

NOT emo, just tends to be more depressed than I'd like.
NOT a rocker, but loves to rock out.
NOT so sure i know who i am.
SUFFERS from Dermatillomania
a passionate LOVE for the colour RED
& PROUD TO BE A freak. Are you?

1. Love myself.
2. Self-Acceptance.
3. Eradicate insecurities.
4. Not to care.
5. Work hard in school.
6. Start over.
7. Take it slow.
8. Keep promises.
9. GPA >3.8 [yr 1.2,1.1,2.2,2.1,3.2]
10. To be MISERABLE and HAPPY.


"If it's not enough, try again. And again. Over and over again."

[[ WaNTS && WiSHES ]]

(1) Gorillaz - Plastic Beach
(2) 30STM - This Is War
(3) New Headphones
(4) Those new JEANS
(5) A Teenage Dream

Alex. :)♥ (my bumbling idiot)

HUTTSON My poopoo DOGGIE. ♥♥♥

BANDS :: MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE. Placebo. Marilyn Manson. 30 Seconds to Mars. Avenged Sevenfold. Linkin Park. Gorillaz. The Blackout. The Academy Is... Fall Out Boy. Bullet For My Valentine. Before Their Eyes. Lady Gaga. Just to name a VERY few...

HEROES :: GERARD WAY. TDK Joker. Jared Leto. Brian Molko. Draco Malfoy. 2D. Gerard Way. ♥ XD

Dilemmas.
The conflict.
Inner conflict.
Prejudiced people.
BUGS.

2A3-ians ♥ We Rock. Like Hell.
3/4A1-ians Over speed limit :D
Shoethrowers ♥ FAMILY
Apphia! :D :D :D Hee.
Azira A-zi-zi-ziraaaa! ♥ xD
Elizabeth ♥!
Elva VaVa :D
Farhan
Gavin
Isabelle
Jessica :D :D :D
Joanne ♥ XD
Joel is a legend!
Kenn Ninjaboy :D
Keng Ying CUZZIN! :D
Li Qing :DDD!
Matin! :D So cuute!
Nazry BiTCH!♥
Pearlyn So cute. :D
Rui Shuin Mah Couzin :D
Safwah rocks hardcore! :D ♥
Samuel ... Moo. :D ♥
Sarah BestFriend WALRUS ♥♥♥
Sheereen :DDD She cool yo!
Shi Wei :D:D:D So rad!
Si Ying, Tan rroooccckksss. :]
Si Ying, Yeh :D
Su Min She rocks!
Su Yuan :]

"Well you can hide a lot about yourself,
But honey, what're you gonna do?
And you can sleep in a coffin,
But the past ain't through with you."

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I'm nothing but a beautiful disaster,
Crying tears of blood and joy
Into this black void.
Oblivion;
It's the place to be.
Ephemeral Romance.
Will you come with me?




i want to be

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