I came across this whilst scanning through a Stephen King book... It was just one of those things that you add to the start of a new part of the book or a chapter to give it a nice touch, or even a subtle introduction... And being Stephen King, it ain't one of those nice and sweet messages to start off a fruity and sweet chapter (he's the #1 horror writer, of course something's gonna go gory).

The Heart by Stephen Crane

In the desert
I saw a creature, naked, bestial,
Who, squatting upon the ground,
Held his heart in his hands,
And ate of it.

I said, “Is it good, friend?”
“It is bitter - bitter,” he answered;
“But I like it
Because it is bitter,
And because it is my heart.”

I don't know what you see or infer from this, but what I think is that we, humans, are the creatures, and our hearts are bitter with hate, woe, troubles, pain, all that melancholic stuff, but we have to learn to accept it, our cruel fate - and "eat" it.

I don't know, my opinions are flawed as anybody else's. But reading this made me conscious of something, that no matter what hardships hit us and no matter how poor, dejected or low we become, the best of us accept this bitter reality and we try to make the best of it, the rest of us have to slowly chew it, or we could just throw the heart away and commit suicide, whatever fits each individual's fancy.

Anyway, Physics was a little confusing and disheartening for me. I struggled with the formulas and trying to grasp the simplistic concepts and reqiurements of the questions, but lucky me, after discussing with Charlotte my apparent worries and struggles were unfounded. I MIGHT PASS! And that's not normal for people (who suck at physics) like me.

E Maths paper 2 tomorrow, and then (if fate is feeling generous) a complete Shoethrower's outing down to Bottletree Lake a.k.a. the fishing farm that we wanted to go to for two years now! WOO!!! :D

"It's your light that guides me, welcoming a brand new life, my path has been set straight. I'm dancing with this fire, I'm dancing with the flame. You say that this scares you. He knows this as well. Go in the right path and you shall not fail. And now I'm walking on my mistakes. It's all where I'm going, not where I've been. You're the blood of love's creation. Let life begin. ... Take my hand, I'll show you everything. No questions remain, this is a war."

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a DARK beach with a BLACK view ; it was 11:58 AM

"When the paralytic dreams that we all seem to keep. Drive on engines till they weep. With future pixels in factories far away."

"Singing songs that make you slit your wrists,
It isn't that much fun..."

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Graduated Orchid Park Secondary:
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IN A RELATIONSHIP ♥

FYI, I quote a LOT of lyrics.

NOT emo, just tends to be more depressed than I'd like.
NOT a rocker, but loves to rock out.
NOT so sure i know who i am.
SUFFERS from Dermatillomania
a passionate LOVE for the colour RED
& PROUD TO BE A freak. Are you?

1. Love myself.
2. Self-Acceptance.
3. Eradicate insecurities.
4. Not to care.
5. Work hard in school.
6. Start over.
7. Take it slow.
8. Keep promises.
9. GPA >3.8 [yr 1.2,1.1,2.2,2.1,3.2]
10. To be MISERABLE and HAPPY.


"If it's not enough, try again. And again. Over and over again."

[[ WaNTS && WiSHES ]]

(1) Gorillaz - Plastic Beach
(2) 30STM - This Is War
(3) New Headphones
(4) Those new JEANS
(5) A Teenage Dream

Alex. :)♥ (my bumbling idiot)

HUTTSON My poopoo DOGGIE. ♥♥♥

BANDS :: MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE. Placebo. Marilyn Manson. 30 Seconds to Mars. Avenged Sevenfold. Linkin Park. Gorillaz. The Blackout. The Academy Is... Fall Out Boy. Bullet For My Valentine. Before Their Eyes. Lady Gaga. Just to name a VERY few...

HEROES :: GERARD WAY. TDK Joker. Jared Leto. Brian Molko. Draco Malfoy. 2D. Gerard Way. ♥ XD

Dilemmas.
The conflict.
Inner conflict.
Prejudiced people.
BUGS.

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I'm nothing but a beautiful disaster,
Crying tears of blood and joy
Into this black void.
Oblivion;
It's the place to be.
Ephemeral Romance.
Will you come with me?




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