I'm not feeling paricularly emo right now, nor do I feel like dampening anyone's spirits or anything. It's something that lingered in the back my mind, I was conscious of it there, but now I'm only aware of it.

We're sec 4s for one. It's our last year in OPSS. It's April already. MYE's are next month. Our CCAs are on the brink / edge / precipice of stepping down. It's not going to be very long until our O Levels'. Then what? JC? Poly?

Now's not a very good time to actually slow down and think back in my secondary school life. But it's been really awesome, I was actually focused on my studies, I learnt more about myself and I made some great friends who I will never forget. Crazy shit happened, tragedy struck, we've had our shares of triumphs and anguish, and I faced them with my awesome friends.

Even if we're no where near the end, or even starting into the middle, I can say I've had a pretty good time.

Why? Cause the Drama Club's SYF is in two days. After that, there'll probably no more drama (though we can still drop by and terrorize the juniors), and I won't get to see Ms Adelynn Tan anymore. Then the Debate finals are in Friday, where we'll receive our prizes and probably no longer see Berton anymore, nor might we ever get the chance to debate ever again. Then Student Council Investiture in a few months... when we step down from council... It's something we all kind of look forward to when we think of the time we desperately need to study for our O's, but during that moment, it's something that you wish that would never end. And when it's over, you can't help but feel something's missing.

Maybe I'm digressing. I don't know.

But one thing's for sure. I'm gonna miss it. For sure.

I hope I can make the best out of everything now, and maybe later on, I won't feel so sad or remorseful over these experiences anymore. I won't regret anything, I don't want to. : )

Welp, anyway, back to track about my study life. Physics homework not done, I don't understand anything ANYTHING about electricity. Lit, SS, History, Chem not studied, like I planned to for this long weekend. >__> English test tomorrow, unsure about format. Yup... This sure is a bad, bad, baaaaaaaaaaad sign.

Oh damn.

"Crying out loud for someone to save you. Numb to everything in life, I've been dead to you for way too long. You take me away, away. Now you're bringing me back to life, back to life. Here we are, buried under our lives in a world, oh so cold. Frozen in a moment, just close your eyes. Life was all a dream, so put me to sleep. I'll follow the blood, to you, my God. Bring this puzzle back, back to life. I've been dead to you for way too long."

- -8<- - - - WELCOME to the world of the PLASTIC BEACH - - - ->8- -

a DARK beach with a BLACK view ; it was 8:39 PM

"When the paralytic dreams that we all seem to keep. Drive on engines till they weep. With future pixels in factories far away."

"Singing songs that make you slit your wrists,
It isn't that much fun..."

M N. 5th of the April. 17. Singapore. Female. Facebook. Tumblr.

Ex-Chongfu Primary. / Ex-CHAS.
Graduated Orchid Park Secondary:
Ex-Drama. Ex-Debater. Ex-Student Councillor. Ex-1A3-ian. Once-and-forever-2A3-ian. Ex-3A1-ian. Ex-PROUD-4A1-ian.

NGEE ANN FMS MCM [mass comm] T107/T102. RADIOHEATWAVE.COM Radio DJ. STAGE 52.

IN A RELATIONSHIP ♥

FYI, I quote a LOT of lyrics.

NOT emo, just tends to be more depressed than I'd like.
NOT a rocker, but loves to rock out.
NOT so sure i know who i am.
SUFFERS from Dermatillomania
a passionate LOVE for the colour RED
& PROUD TO BE A freak. Are you?

1. Love myself.
2. Self-Acceptance.
3. Eradicate insecurities.
4. Not to care.
5. Work hard in school.
6. Start over.
7. Take it slow.
8. Keep promises.
9. GPA >3.8 [yr 1.2,1.1,2.2,2.1,3.2]
10. To be MISERABLE and HAPPY.


"If it's not enough, try again. And again. Over and over again."

[[ WaNTS && WiSHES ]]

(1) Gorillaz - Plastic Beach
(2) 30STM - This Is War
(3) New Headphones
(4) Those new JEANS
(5) A Teenage Dream

Alex. :)♥ (my bumbling idiot)

HUTTSON My poopoo DOGGIE. ♥♥♥

BANDS :: MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE. Placebo. Marilyn Manson. 30 Seconds to Mars. Avenged Sevenfold. Linkin Park. Gorillaz. The Blackout. The Academy Is... Fall Out Boy. Bullet For My Valentine. Before Their Eyes. Lady Gaga. Just to name a VERY few...

HEROES :: GERARD WAY. TDK Joker. Jared Leto. Brian Molko. Draco Malfoy. 2D. Gerard Way. ♥ XD

Dilemmas.
The conflict.
Inner conflict.
Prejudiced people.
BUGS.

2A3-ians ♥ We Rock. Like Hell.
3/4A1-ians Over speed limit :D
Shoethrowers ♥ FAMILY
Apphia! :D :D :D Hee.
Azira A-zi-zi-ziraaaa! ♥ xD
Elizabeth ♥!
Elva VaVa :D
Farhan
Gavin
Isabelle
Jessica :D :D :D
Joanne ♥ XD
Joel is a legend!
Kenn Ninjaboy :D
Keng Ying CUZZIN! :D
Li Qing :DDD!
Matin! :D So cuute!
Nazry BiTCH!♥
Pearlyn So cute. :D
Rui Shuin Mah Couzin :D
Safwah rocks hardcore! :D ♥
Samuel ... Moo. :D ♥
Sarah BestFriend WALRUS ♥♥♥
Sheereen :DDD She cool yo!
Shi Wei :D:D:D So rad!
Si Ying, Tan rroooccckksss. :]
Si Ying, Yeh :D
Su Min She rocks!
Su Yuan :]

"Well you can hide a lot about yourself,
But honey, what're you gonna do?
And you can sleep in a coffin,
But the past ain't through with you."

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I'm nothing but a beautiful disaster,
Crying tears of blood and joy
Into this black void.
Oblivion;
It's the place to be.
Ephemeral Romance.
Will you come with me?




i want to be

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