Something's wrong with my blogger template. Hopefully it's not permanent and the scheduled outage will fix it. Then gotta reupdate.

Well anyway, the drama SYF was awesome. As always, we had fun being stupid and camwhorish and giving our energy and was in way high spirits. Sure we made mistakes here and there, but it didn't matter, what does matter was that we were confident, we were proud, we had fun and we gave our absolute best.

We did awesome. We really did.

And now the results are due in two weeks time or so. And we await with reluctant patience.

But in other news, following Drama SYF tradition, we did a music video, dancing randomly to Wonder Girls "Nobody", and it was hilarious. We have real-life footage of mad-hell dancing and screaming and cheering. Just one of the beautiful memories captured on media to preserve the good times I had in this school.

WATCH US IN WONDER ACTION!
Other memories included the Shoethrowers writing wishes on balloons and releasing them into the air in the middle of the parade square, when the debaters had dinner picnic in the middle of the parade square, when we lost the semi-finals, when we threw our faces away and did stupid stuff in front of our classes and school on whole... All these memories weren't captured on media resources, but they were good and bad memories that I just want to remember.

Sometimes I wish our brains had a bigger capacity for storing memories, good and bad. Because when I look back in my life, I realize now how much beauty I missed.

What's up with my sudden awareness? I guess maybe it had something to do with today's final Drama practice before the MYEs. Ms Tan came back and debriefed us, making us pose in ways we feel which best show us when we meet obstacles, and later on transform into a pose which we best feel it shows us when we rid of this obstacle.

Azira copied my poses and showed me my transformation. It made me smile because I saw how I really looked like, I could almost feel the pain in the obstacle evaporate and be replaced by melancholic relief in the second pose. I saw the poses of others, and it made me wonder how they felt when they were in their obstacle poses as well.

After that, we sat in a circle and wrote down ONE negative aspect of us that we hated the most about ourselves on one side of the paper. On the other side, we passed out papers around in that circle, and each paper we received from another person, we were to write something positive about that person. We did this back in class, but somehow it didn't provide a much fulfilling emotion I got when I got back my paper and saw that there were real nice things the drama club people wrote about me. Perhaps because I'm closer to them... and to have them write out traits about me that I don't believe about myself... it was just a touching feeling.

Ms Tan explained in life we usually see that one negative aspect of ourselves, and it hinders us. But other people see out positive traits, and they love us regardless of imperfections. It's something thousands of people have said so before... But now this little activity made such a big difference. It made me feel good. Something I haven't been feeling about myself in a very long time.

It was an amazing experience being in the drama club, in this SYF. It made me learn things I was never really fully aware of. It was a truly treasurable, memorable, beautiful experience. I met the most greatest of people, I had the greatest time of my life, I had so much fun and never had that much passion and energy flow through my body, I shouldn't be saying this, but I had a much better time feeling "at home" in this CCA than I did in my previous one... And I don't regret my decision to join this wonderful, exclusive club, because just a year and four months in this CCA, I've never felt such an emotion before. You guys are like family to me, to know it'll never be a bad day on Wednesday, because there would be CCA. Drama. And hilarity, insanity and all-round happiness would ensure. I can't express myself in words, but after all we've been through, all I feel like doing is hugging each and everyone of you. And applauding each and everyone of you.

We just did brilliant.

I want to thank the drama people, for the craziness, the awesomeness, the support.
I want to thank the teachers for bearing with our crap.
I want to thank Ms Adelynn Tan, who helped me so, so many times.

This day... is amazing.

But now I got homework. And tomorrow mock lit exam. Oh sheez, I screwed. FO SHO HO!

"Monkey see, monkey do, now you're all alone. We're killing ourselves in vain and moving slow. So stop me if I sound too predictable. Misery's a mask that's worn by most. I never used to feel so sick and tired. I remember when we used to stay high for hours. One minute it's here, and then it's gone. Will somebody wake up? Will somebody wake up, will somebody wake me up? Will someone please wake me up? Will somebody wake up, will somebody wake me up?"

- -8<- - - - WELCOME to the world of the PLASTIC BEACH - - - ->8- -

a DARK beach with a BLACK view ; it was 9:13 PM

"When the paralytic dreams that we all seem to keep. Drive on engines till they weep. With future pixels in factories far away."

"Singing songs that make you slit your wrists,
It isn't that much fun..."

M N. 5th of the April. 17. Singapore. Female. Facebook. Tumblr.

Ex-Chongfu Primary. / Ex-CHAS.
Graduated Orchid Park Secondary:
Ex-Drama. Ex-Debater. Ex-Student Councillor. Ex-1A3-ian. Once-and-forever-2A3-ian. Ex-3A1-ian. Ex-PROUD-4A1-ian.

NGEE ANN FMS MCM [mass comm] T107/T102. RADIOHEATWAVE.COM Radio DJ. STAGE 52.

IN A RELATIONSHIP ♥

FYI, I quote a LOT of lyrics.

NOT emo, just tends to be more depressed than I'd like.
NOT a rocker, but loves to rock out.
NOT so sure i know who i am.
SUFFERS from Dermatillomania
a passionate LOVE for the colour RED
& PROUD TO BE A freak. Are you?

1. Love myself.
2. Self-Acceptance.
3. Eradicate insecurities.
4. Not to care.
5. Work hard in school.
6. Start over.
7. Take it slow.
8. Keep promises.
9. GPA >3.8 [yr 1.2,1.1,2.2,2.1,3.2]
10. To be MISERABLE and HAPPY.


"If it's not enough, try again. And again. Over and over again."

[[ WaNTS && WiSHES ]]

(1) Gorillaz - Plastic Beach
(2) 30STM - This Is War
(3) New Headphones
(4) Those new JEANS
(5) A Teenage Dream

Alex. :)♥ (my bumbling idiot)

HUTTSON My poopoo DOGGIE. ♥♥♥

BANDS :: MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE. Placebo. Marilyn Manson. 30 Seconds to Mars. Avenged Sevenfold. Linkin Park. Gorillaz. The Blackout. The Academy Is... Fall Out Boy. Bullet For My Valentine. Before Their Eyes. Lady Gaga. Just to name a VERY few...

HEROES :: GERARD WAY. TDK Joker. Jared Leto. Brian Molko. Draco Malfoy. 2D. Gerard Way. ♥ XD

Dilemmas.
The conflict.
Inner conflict.
Prejudiced people.
BUGS.

2A3-ians ♥ We Rock. Like Hell.
3/4A1-ians Over speed limit :D
Shoethrowers ♥ FAMILY
Apphia! :D :D :D Hee.
Azira A-zi-zi-ziraaaa! ♥ xD
Elizabeth ♥!
Elva VaVa :D
Farhan
Gavin
Isabelle
Jessica :D :D :D
Joanne ♥ XD
Joel is a legend!
Kenn Ninjaboy :D
Keng Ying CUZZIN! :D
Li Qing :DDD!
Matin! :D So cuute!
Nazry BiTCH!♥
Pearlyn So cute. :D
Rui Shuin Mah Couzin :D
Safwah rocks hardcore! :D ♥
Samuel ... Moo. :D ♥
Sarah BestFriend WALRUS ♥♥♥
Sheereen :DDD She cool yo!
Shi Wei :D:D:D So rad!
Si Ying, Tan rroooccckksss. :]
Si Ying, Yeh :D
Su Min She rocks!
Su Yuan :]

"Well you can hide a lot about yourself,
But honey, what're you gonna do?
And you can sleep in a coffin,
But the past ain't through with you."

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I'm nothing but a beautiful disaster,
Crying tears of blood and joy
Into this black void.
Oblivion;
It's the place to be.
Ephemeral Romance.
Will you come with me?




i want to be

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