So I went to Amanda's chruch for Valentines' Day Dinner. Like I did a year ago. And I gotta say, it was a pretty nice experience all over again. To listen to stories of successful and failed tries at courting your crush...

Somehow it's funnier then last year. Maybe because this year had Guitar Hero, Indian "I love you" phrases and 'Transformers' actions. (It was hilarious! :D)

Anyway it was a good night, not the best and worst Valentine's Day I've had so far. But this year I notice more couples. Hmm? Some trend's probably coming up. Oh well, love's just a mere distraction people try to delude themselves with, just to try to forget the stress and pain they're so associated with. Then again, that's my own opinion... Flawed as anyone else's.

But since I'm such a stupid and ignorant cur, I might as well just pour out my heart and let out all my frustrations of today. Not the first one, and it definitely won't be the last one. But it's one of the last.

Let's wind the clocks back a year. Today is 14th February 2008, I should have just said to you out loud that I like you. Would have given me some peace, but meh, human ignorance, what can I do about it? Today is now 14th February 2009, and thank God I don't anymore. It's not going to consume me. Not anymore.

Anyway, before Zhi Qing and I headed off to the church dinner, we watched Valkyrie with Anuar. Pretty good conspiracy movie... And yes, Tom Cruise, SPOILER: we saw the blast too. Anyway, it had quite a good plotline to it... After the movie, we wanted to give a standing ovation and scream "Hail Hitler" but we suspected we'd get beaten up by 30% or so of the movie-watchers.

And later, Zhi Qing and I found her long-lost bus mate in the MRT. Tiny, tiny Singapore world...

"Say goodbye, and take both of my hands. You've danced your last dance, why don't you dance it for us? Take this dance as our last goodbye. You've danced your last dance, why don't you dance it for us? Whoa, whoa, whoa… It’s been too long and your never coming back. It’s no good saying sorry. We let this burn a little longer, until we grow stronger, until we fall apart."

- -8<- - - - WELCOME to the world of the PLASTIC BEACH - - - ->8- -

a DARK beach with a BLACK view ; it was 11:44 PM

"When the paralytic dreams that we all seem to keep. Drive on engines till they weep. With future pixels in factories far away."

"Singing songs that make you slit your wrists,
It isn't that much fun..."

M N. 5th of the April. 17. Singapore. Female. Facebook. Tumblr.

Ex-Chongfu Primary. / Ex-CHAS.
Graduated Orchid Park Secondary:
Ex-Drama. Ex-Debater. Ex-Student Councillor. Ex-1A3-ian. Once-and-forever-2A3-ian. Ex-3A1-ian. Ex-PROUD-4A1-ian.

NGEE ANN FMS MCM [mass comm] T107/T102. RADIOHEATWAVE.COM Radio DJ. STAGE 52.

IN A RELATIONSHIP ♥

FYI, I quote a LOT of lyrics.

NOT emo, just tends to be more depressed than I'd like.
NOT a rocker, but loves to rock out.
NOT so sure i know who i am.
SUFFERS from Dermatillomania
a passionate LOVE for the colour RED
& PROUD TO BE A freak. Are you?

1. Love myself.
2. Self-Acceptance.
3. Eradicate insecurities.
4. Not to care.
5. Work hard in school.
6. Start over.
7. Take it slow.
8. Keep promises.
9. GPA >3.8 [yr 1.2,1.1,2.2,2.1,3.2]
10. To be MISERABLE and HAPPY.


"If it's not enough, try again. And again. Over and over again."

[[ WaNTS && WiSHES ]]

(1) Gorillaz - Plastic Beach
(2) 30STM - This Is War
(3) New Headphones
(4) Those new JEANS
(5) A Teenage Dream

Alex. :)♥ (my bumbling idiot)

HUTTSON My poopoo DOGGIE. ♥♥♥

BANDS :: MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE. Placebo. Marilyn Manson. 30 Seconds to Mars. Avenged Sevenfold. Linkin Park. Gorillaz. The Blackout. The Academy Is... Fall Out Boy. Bullet For My Valentine. Before Their Eyes. Lady Gaga. Just to name a VERY few...

HEROES :: GERARD WAY. TDK Joker. Jared Leto. Brian Molko. Draco Malfoy. 2D. Gerard Way. ♥ XD

Dilemmas.
The conflict.
Inner conflict.
Prejudiced people.
BUGS.

2A3-ians ♥ We Rock. Like Hell.
3/4A1-ians Over speed limit :D
Shoethrowers ♥ FAMILY
Apphia! :D :D :D Hee.
Azira A-zi-zi-ziraaaa! ♥ xD
Elizabeth ♥!
Elva VaVa :D
Farhan
Gavin
Isabelle
Jessica :D :D :D
Joanne ♥ XD
Joel is a legend!
Kenn Ninjaboy :D
Keng Ying CUZZIN! :D
Li Qing :DDD!
Matin! :D So cuute!
Nazry BiTCH!♥
Pearlyn So cute. :D
Rui Shuin Mah Couzin :D
Safwah rocks hardcore! :D ♥
Samuel ... Moo. :D ♥
Sarah BestFriend WALRUS ♥♥♥
Sheereen :DDD She cool yo!
Shi Wei :D:D:D So rad!
Si Ying, Tan rroooccckksss. :]
Si Ying, Yeh :D
Su Min She rocks!
Su Yuan :]

"Well you can hide a lot about yourself,
But honey, what're you gonna do?
And you can sleep in a coffin,
But the past ain't through with you."

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I'm nothing but a beautiful disaster,
Crying tears of blood and joy
Into this black void.
Oblivion;
It's the place to be.
Ephemeral Romance.
Will you come with me?




i want to be

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