Before I blog in a while. I would like to quote somebody who is a friend and a fellow councillor, also my confidante and my second-IC of the councillor duty I'm IC of: Amanda Tan.

Because today, she said to me:

"How dumb can you get?!" - Amanda Tan, 13/1/09

Well, she had a very good reason to say that. I didn't study for the A Maths revision test that was given today. But I gotta say, I found it average, almost easy even. How nice, I'm suddenly confident of getting a good mark on that test. Though the Matrix and Coordinate Geometry part of the test got me worried. Nevertheless, lucky me. I DID IT! :D

But, Amanda, if you ever do see this, you should know: I can get very dumb at times. You just gotta be there when I am.

Other than that, I've been at war with myself and others at that dreaded subject of mine: Chinese. Apparently we get two tries to pass that damn subject... And when I'm in a foul mood, I'd wail and scream that if I fail the first time I swore I'd never go for the second, and when I'm in a rather pleasant mood, I'm all up for failure... even if I fail both. Cause frankly, I've seen a shit lot of F9s on my report card till the point I'm no longer surprised. If that's worrying, call me up. We can talk.

But as I really thought about it, I should just pack up my laziness and all taht negativitiy in me and just put in some effort. I really don't care or mind if I fail, least I just wanna see that I've done my best and tried my REAL hardest. That's when I can really smile when I see another F9.

EFFORT. EFFORT. EFFORT. I seriously need to put more of that into myself.

But in the meantime, Zhi Qing treated me and Charlotte to waffles at Northpoint. And we saw a chocolate dome-shaped cake... And that DOME-word became an obsession all of a sudden. Me and Charlotte were going all "DOME... DOME... DOME... DOME... DOMEEE..." even to fit the Rihanna's Disturbia tune.

Sighhh. We sure are stupid... : ]

"I'm a mascot for what you've become. And, oh, oh, I love the mayhem more than the love. And oh baby, when they made me they broke the mold. Girls used to follow me around when I got cold. Throw your cameras in the air, and wave 'em like you just don't care. I will never believe in anything again, I will never believe in anything again. Oh, change will come, oh."

- -8<- - - - WELCOME to the world of the PLASTIC BEACH - - - ->8- -

a DARK beach with a BLACK view ; it was 6:47 PM

"When the paralytic dreams that we all seem to keep. Drive on engines till they weep. With future pixels in factories far away."

"Singing songs that make you slit your wrists,
It isn't that much fun..."

M N. 5th of the April. 17. Singapore. Female. Facebook. Tumblr.

Ex-Chongfu Primary. / Ex-CHAS.
Graduated Orchid Park Secondary:
Ex-Drama. Ex-Debater. Ex-Student Councillor. Ex-1A3-ian. Once-and-forever-2A3-ian. Ex-3A1-ian. Ex-PROUD-4A1-ian.

NGEE ANN FMS MCM [mass comm] T107/T102. RADIOHEATWAVE.COM Radio DJ. STAGE 52.

IN A RELATIONSHIP ♥

FYI, I quote a LOT of lyrics.

NOT emo, just tends to be more depressed than I'd like.
NOT a rocker, but loves to rock out.
NOT so sure i know who i am.
SUFFERS from Dermatillomania
a passionate LOVE for the colour RED
& PROUD TO BE A freak. Are you?

1. Love myself.
2. Self-Acceptance.
3. Eradicate insecurities.
4. Not to care.
5. Work hard in school.
6. Start over.
7. Take it slow.
8. Keep promises.
9. GPA >3.8 [yr 1.2,1.1,2.2,2.1,3.2]
10. To be MISERABLE and HAPPY.


"If it's not enough, try again. And again. Over and over again."

[[ WaNTS && WiSHES ]]

(1) Gorillaz - Plastic Beach
(2) 30STM - This Is War
(3) New Headphones
(4) Those new JEANS
(5) A Teenage Dream

Alex. :)♥ (my bumbling idiot)

HUTTSON My poopoo DOGGIE. ♥♥♥

BANDS :: MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE. Placebo. Marilyn Manson. 30 Seconds to Mars. Avenged Sevenfold. Linkin Park. Gorillaz. The Blackout. The Academy Is... Fall Out Boy. Bullet For My Valentine. Before Their Eyes. Lady Gaga. Just to name a VERY few...

HEROES :: GERARD WAY. TDK Joker. Jared Leto. Brian Molko. Draco Malfoy. 2D. Gerard Way. ♥ XD

Dilemmas.
The conflict.
Inner conflict.
Prejudiced people.
BUGS.

2A3-ians ♥ We Rock. Like Hell.
3/4A1-ians Over speed limit :D
Shoethrowers ♥ FAMILY
Apphia! :D :D :D Hee.
Azira A-zi-zi-ziraaaa! ♥ xD
Elizabeth ♥!
Elva VaVa :D
Farhan
Gavin
Isabelle
Jessica :D :D :D
Joanne ♥ XD
Joel is a legend!
Kenn Ninjaboy :D
Keng Ying CUZZIN! :D
Li Qing :DDD!
Matin! :D So cuute!
Nazry BiTCH!♥
Pearlyn So cute. :D
Rui Shuin Mah Couzin :D
Safwah rocks hardcore! :D ♥
Samuel ... Moo. :D ♥
Sarah BestFriend WALRUS ♥♥♥
Sheereen :DDD She cool yo!
Shi Wei :D:D:D So rad!
Si Ying, Tan rroooccckksss. :]
Si Ying, Yeh :D
Su Min She rocks!
Su Yuan :]

"Well you can hide a lot about yourself,
But honey, what're you gonna do?
And you can sleep in a coffin,
But the past ain't through with you."

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I'm nothing but a beautiful disaster,
Crying tears of blood and joy
Into this black void.
Oblivion;
It's the place to be.
Ephemeral Romance.
Will you come with me?




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