My blog is now super red (with hints of yellow and white and black). Doest' thou like it!?

Meh, I need to get started on homework and finish it all up quickly before my damn guilt eats me when it becomes last-minute work...

BUT THERE'S NO FLAMING MOTIVATION OR INSPIRATION TO DO IT!!!

But, heh, doing a little survey from AZIRA's blog first. :D
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Do you hold grudges easily?
Not entirely, usually I just forget about it and move on.

Do you suffer pain from a past hurt?
ALLLL the time.

In this world, what makes you the happiest?
A lot of things. But it makes me more content than happy really.

What are your thoughts on sex before marriage?
It's sick that everybody's (well, you generally get the idea) already doing it - engaged or otherwise. Some traditions are no longer existant.

Do you believe colors express your personality?
Not exactly. They can be sometimes quite misleading and far too ambiguous.

Are you a private person?
When it comes to the right time.

Who do you respect the most?
People who deserve respect. And even then, I can intenionally / unintenionally disrespect them.

What is an interest of yours that others would find silly?
... Talking to all the various personalities and demons in my little twisted mind, and out loud at times.

What are your thoughts on the world?
It USED to be a happy place. Look what we have now? Global warming, global economic crisis, world hunger, overpopulation, AIDS/HIV, Bird Flu (just returned as I've learnt from yesterday night's news)... You get the bloody picture.

I'm personally hoping - and waiting - for it to end.

Do you believe there is a god?
Yes, no, maybe? Don't know at all.

Do you fall for romance movies?
Well, even if they are cheesey and cliche, yeah.

Do you fall in love too quickly?
"Love" is a strong word here. I'm rather too impulsive in liking someone, but yeah, I do.

Do you believe in destiny (fate)?
I believe in fate, in a Karma way. Screw destiny, it doesn't always happen.

Do you catch yourself running from situations?
I do, but I always have to confront them one day (despite me hating confrontations with a bloody vengeance).

What would you consider to be your best talent?
I honestly don't know.

Which do you value more, family or friends?
Family. Cause my friends are my family, and so's my family. But you get the point, I value both of them like hell.

How do you define love?
From Billy & Mandy, "LOVE is EVOL spelt backwards"

Do you like card games?
Yeah.

Ever been swimming in a lake or river?
Does the lazy river at Wild Wild Wet count? If not, then no.

Have you ever been on a horse?
Yesss, when I was shit young.

Are you afraid of the dark?
Yes. THERE'S STUFF IN THERE.

Do you get distracted easily?
It depends. If I'm really engrossed in something, then no. Otherwise, yessss.

What is the last thing you did before you went to bed last night?
Was doodling, scribbling and drawing in a written diary of mine, thinking at the same time.

Is this year the best year of your life?
Second-best, so far. I'll compare this to other years up until I die (it won't be long).

Do you have any strange phobias?
I'm shit scared of vomiting and choking...

Is it easier to forgive or to forget?
Forget.

Do you give out second chances too easily?
Yeahhh, but it depends on the person and his offences. REALLY.

Have you dated people who weren't good to you?
Never dated before. But I've been neutral to people who were nasty to me.

Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance?
Depends on that person. But, yeah.

When was the last time you talked to one of your best friends?
Yesterday.

Have you done anything you regret in 2008 so far?
Like, what? 70% of 2008? Yes, loads.

Is there any emotion you're trying to avoid right now?
As of now, not really. But other times, I try to avoid Anti [the name I call all my negative emotions that manifest into a human body appearance and terrorizes my other emotions and thoughts] see how weird I am?

Have you ever slapped anyone?
Yes... And it felt great.

Have you ever been called Prince/Princess?
Ahahaha... Only during the Dramatically Sporty Camp. I had to act as a Princess.

Do you wear make up everyday?
No. I used to wear eyeliner, but it hurt my eyes.

Who do you go to when you need someone to talk to?
Sarah, Nazry, the Shoethrowers... My mom, Huttson.

Are you really into anyone right now?
Well, truthfully I'm trying to get out of that someone I'm into. It proves to be hard.

Without looking them up, could you list the seven deadly sins?
Yes. Wrath, Gluttony, Pride, Sloth, Lust, Greed and Envy. It's like general knowledge to me, but not too sure whether these really ARE the REAL seven deadly sins.

In the past two days, what times have you gone to bed?
12... and... after 1 I think? It was bloody late for all I know.

Whats the last movie you saw in theaters and with who?
I can't remember... It's been waa-aayy too long.

What is one thing you always seem to have in your freezer?
Ice. Yes... ice.

Do you complain when you're bored, or do you look for something to do?
I look for something to do (but I'm rarely bored, I got my mind to entertain me). Because I absolutely fucking HATE it when someone complains they're bored.

Why are so many single people bitter on Valentine's day?
Well, maybe they're not getting any luck in love.

Do you personally like Valentine's day?
I don't actually care, to the truthful. It's just a fun day to go all, "HAY I LUFF U BITCH HUGGS AND KISSES MUUUAAAHHHH". Is that just me?

What were you doing at 7:00 am?
I was sleeping... And being rudely awakened by my fatass brother?

Have you ever been to North Dakota?
Nope. Never been outta Asia (excluding Australia and NZ)

Have you ever done yoga?
Nooo...

What's the worst thing you've done to your current cell phone?
As far as it hurts me, dropping it on the floor. 3 times, I think.

Are any of your friends lifeguards?
Nope.

When do you plan on moving out of your parents house?
When I'm gonna live in another country for work? Or maybe when I can be independent enough to live by myself.

What's your favorite Bath & Body Work's scent, if you shop there?
Is there even a Bath & Body Work in Singapore?!

What's the last thing you baked?
Nothing. I don't bake. If I bake, the Gates of Hell will be unleashed and all the demons will find their way onto this plane through my horrendous baking...

If you have siblings, which one of you is going to be married first?
My brother. I don't want to be married. But even for his (wife's) sake, I hope he doesn't get married.

What are the last three books you read?
The Shining by Stephen King, The Dark Night movie novel Charlotte lent me... And currently reading Misery by Stephen King.

Does anyone in your family have a GPS system?
Nope, or at least I don't know.

What was the last pair of shoes you wore?
My black (love them) Converse.

What were the last three things you Googled or looked up?
Generally just song lyrics... And the definitions of words, "Anti" is one of 'em.

What type of food have you always wanted to try?
Loads of stuff... Stuff that I've never tried before.

Do you own more than 50 DVDs?
I think so...? Not even sure if they're DVDs.

Who was the last person in your family to cook you breakfast?
Mother Dearest.

What channel is your TV on right now?
TV's off right now. But I'm gonna watch the Simpsons later.

Is there anything you're obsessed with?
My Chemical Romance, Draco Malfoy, Johnny the Homicidal Maniac, TDK Joker (Hubbyyy♥), James from the Twilight move... Why yes, yes I do. : ]

Are you a good flirt?
Fuck no.

Have you been called a tease?
FUCK no. And thank god for that.

Know anyone that will be getting married soon?
Nooo.

Has anyone told you a secret that if told would cause some drama?
Ummm... Yes? Not entirely sure.

Who was the last person to tell you they trusted you?
It was a verryy long time ago.

Do you know anyone that drives a truck?
My cousins' uncle? Don't know if he does now.

Would you ever get your eyebrow pierced?
Yeah, it looks cool and fun actually. But I'd rather get my lips pierced... If only it didn't go awry if I grew old.

Do you eat those little 100 calorie packs of things?
I don't know if I do?

Besides an animal, do you know what a cougar is?
Sounds like a cigarette brand. But I'm definitely wrong. GOOGLE CHECK.

Is your boss male?
I have no boss. But my principal's female.

Where will you be tomorrow at 2:30pm?
Probably outside with Zhi Qing? Who knows.

What's the plan for you in the next few hours?
No plan. Just be spontaneous. But I do wanna catch the Simpsons.
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Well, that was long. :/

"And it pulses through, the desire to change, to deconstruct all of my, all of my, past failings. But where to begin, because when you live in sin. It’s hard to look at saints,without them reflecting your jet black aura back on you. And all I have is hope my inner burn’s not fading, I’ll wipe the blood from my cheek and get on with my day. "

- -8<- - - - WELCOME to the world of the PLASTIC BEACH - - - ->8- -

a DARK beach with a BLACK view ; it was 4:46 PM

"When the paralytic dreams that we all seem to keep. Drive on engines till they weep. With future pixels in factories far away."

"Singing songs that make you slit your wrists,
It isn't that much fun..."

M N. 5th of the April. 17. Singapore. Female. Facebook. Tumblr.

Ex-Chongfu Primary. / Ex-CHAS.
Graduated Orchid Park Secondary:
Ex-Drama. Ex-Debater. Ex-Student Councillor. Ex-1A3-ian. Once-and-forever-2A3-ian. Ex-3A1-ian. Ex-PROUD-4A1-ian.

NGEE ANN FMS MCM [mass comm] T107/T102. RADIOHEATWAVE.COM Radio DJ. STAGE 52.

IN A RELATIONSHIP ♥

FYI, I quote a LOT of lyrics.

NOT emo, just tends to be more depressed than I'd like.
NOT a rocker, but loves to rock out.
NOT so sure i know who i am.
SUFFERS from Dermatillomania
a passionate LOVE for the colour RED
& PROUD TO BE A freak. Are you?

1. Love myself.
2. Self-Acceptance.
3. Eradicate insecurities.
4. Not to care.
5. Work hard in school.
6. Start over.
7. Take it slow.
8. Keep promises.
9. GPA >3.8 [yr 1.2,1.1,2.2,2.1,3.2]
10. To be MISERABLE and HAPPY.


"If it's not enough, try again. And again. Over and over again."

[[ WaNTS && WiSHES ]]

(1) Gorillaz - Plastic Beach
(2) 30STM - This Is War
(3) New Headphones
(4) Those new JEANS
(5) A Teenage Dream

Alex. :)♥ (my bumbling idiot)

HUTTSON My poopoo DOGGIE. ♥♥♥

BANDS :: MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE. Placebo. Marilyn Manson. 30 Seconds to Mars. Avenged Sevenfold. Linkin Park. Gorillaz. The Blackout. The Academy Is... Fall Out Boy. Bullet For My Valentine. Before Their Eyes. Lady Gaga. Just to name a VERY few...

HEROES :: GERARD WAY. TDK Joker. Jared Leto. Brian Molko. Draco Malfoy. 2D. Gerard Way. ♥ XD

Dilemmas.
The conflict.
Inner conflict.
Prejudiced people.
BUGS.

2A3-ians ♥ We Rock. Like Hell.
3/4A1-ians Over speed limit :D
Shoethrowers ♥ FAMILY
Apphia! :D :D :D Hee.
Azira A-zi-zi-ziraaaa! ♥ xD
Elizabeth ♥!
Elva VaVa :D
Farhan
Gavin
Isabelle
Jessica :D :D :D
Joanne ♥ XD
Joel is a legend!
Kenn Ninjaboy :D
Keng Ying CUZZIN! :D
Li Qing :DDD!
Matin! :D So cuute!
Nazry BiTCH!♥
Pearlyn So cute. :D
Rui Shuin Mah Couzin :D
Safwah rocks hardcore! :D ♥
Samuel ... Moo. :D ♥
Sarah BestFriend WALRUS ♥♥♥
Sheereen :DDD She cool yo!
Shi Wei :D:D:D So rad!
Si Ying, Tan rroooccckksss. :]
Si Ying, Yeh :D
Su Min She rocks!
Su Yuan :]

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But honey, what're you gonna do?
And you can sleep in a coffin,
But the past ain't through with you."

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I'm nothing but a beautiful disaster,
Crying tears of blood and joy
Into this black void.
Oblivion;
It's the place to be.
Ephemeral Romance.
Will you come with me?




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