Aww, the above is a sweet message on a letter I received from a Japanese penpal I recently now acquired, thanks to Ms Xu. Anyway, the letter I got was really pretty, filled me to the brim with happiness and excitement. I never knew the feeling of getting a reply / letter from someone you don't know (not a stalker or a hater) could be so... glam and fun-filled.

Thanks Ms Xu. : ]

Well, I got back from a tiresome day. Sec 3 Games Day (it sucked, but it was fun and it bonded 3A1 a bit more :D), a mock ASEAN discussion, drama (wasn't at all tiring), more mock ASEAN discussion and ushering for PTM (Sec 1 - 3)... whoa, I'm tired. Barely keeping my eyelids open from typing this.

But anyway, first, I got my report book back. :D Wheeee! (head explody!) I was pretty pleased with my results, really.

ENGLISH: B3
CHINESE: F9 [do you smell the sweet stench of FAILURE?! >:D]
A MATHS: A2 [Just 1 mark away from A1!]
E MATHS: A1
SCIENCE: A2 [beauty, eh?]
HUMANTITIES: B3
LITERATURE: B4 [damn...]

L1R4 Aggregate: 11
L1R5 Aggregate: 15

Class position: 5/41
Level position: 33/225

Promotion Status: PROMOTED TO S4 EXPRESS

But what Mrs Rupesh wrote for my remarks really made me ponder at first, then smile.

"However, I believe with some pushing and determination, Michelle is capable of acing her O'Level examinations next year."

I think I can. I think I really can. And I want to. =] I really want to.
_____________

Moving onto drama, I think I'm really excited for next year. SYF and (maybe) 10th year anniversary Speech Day, gonna be a grand, grand year...

But leaving the AVA room after that awesome and exciting discussion for next year, I suddenly felt depressed, remembering... stuff. And I wonder if I can still do all those things with constraints now.

Sigh, someone tell me a lie, like I'll be ok. I just need something to believe in right now.

And before I went off to change for ushering, I happened to see him (his O' Level exam for the day had just finished). And he waved at me. And he was smiling. And I think the feeling's still there for him, butttttt... it's mostly gone. I finally get it now: he's just a friendly, sweet guy.

That's all I need to say today's a very... unique day.

Oh, and sorry for the lateness, HAPPY BIRTHDAY, SYUNNAZRY! Best friends forever, leaving or not leaving school. :D

"Dear Die-ary, there's nothing terribly wrong with feeling lost, so long as that feeling precedes some plan on your part to actually do something about it. Too often a person grows complacent with their disillusionment, perpetually wearing their 'discomfort' like a favorite shirt. I can't say I'm very pleased with where my life is just now... but I can't help but look forward to where it's going."
- Nny (a.k.a. Johnny C), Johnny the Homicidal Maniac

- -8<- - - - WELCOME to the world of the PLASTIC BEACH - - - ->8- -

a DARK beach with a BLACK view ; it was 11:01 PM

"When the paralytic dreams that we all seem to keep. Drive on engines till they weep. With future pixels in factories far away."

"Singing songs that make you slit your wrists,
It isn't that much fun..."

M N. 5th of the April. 17. Singapore. Female. Facebook. Tumblr.

Ex-Chongfu Primary. / Ex-CHAS.
Graduated Orchid Park Secondary:
Ex-Drama. Ex-Debater. Ex-Student Councillor. Ex-1A3-ian. Once-and-forever-2A3-ian. Ex-3A1-ian. Ex-PROUD-4A1-ian.

NGEE ANN FMS MCM [mass comm] T107/T102. RADIOHEATWAVE.COM Radio DJ. STAGE 52.

IN A RELATIONSHIP ♥

FYI, I quote a LOT of lyrics.

NOT emo, just tends to be more depressed than I'd like.
NOT a rocker, but loves to rock out.
NOT so sure i know who i am.
SUFFERS from Dermatillomania
a passionate LOVE for the colour RED
& PROUD TO BE A freak. Are you?

1. Love myself.
2. Self-Acceptance.
3. Eradicate insecurities.
4. Not to care.
5. Work hard in school.
6. Start over.
7. Take it slow.
8. Keep promises.
9. GPA >3.8 [yr 1.2,1.1,2.2,2.1,3.2]
10. To be MISERABLE and HAPPY.


"If it's not enough, try again. And again. Over and over again."

[[ WaNTS && WiSHES ]]

(1) Gorillaz - Plastic Beach
(2) 30STM - This Is War
(3) New Headphones
(4) Those new JEANS
(5) A Teenage Dream

Alex. :)♥ (my bumbling idiot)

HUTTSON My poopoo DOGGIE. ♥♥♥

BANDS :: MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE. Placebo. Marilyn Manson. 30 Seconds to Mars. Avenged Sevenfold. Linkin Park. Gorillaz. The Blackout. The Academy Is... Fall Out Boy. Bullet For My Valentine. Before Their Eyes. Lady Gaga. Just to name a VERY few...

HEROES :: GERARD WAY. TDK Joker. Jared Leto. Brian Molko. Draco Malfoy. 2D. Gerard Way. ♥ XD

Dilemmas.
The conflict.
Inner conflict.
Prejudiced people.
BUGS.

2A3-ians ♥ We Rock. Like Hell.
3/4A1-ians Over speed limit :D
Shoethrowers ♥ FAMILY
Apphia! :D :D :D Hee.
Azira A-zi-zi-ziraaaa! ♥ xD
Elizabeth ♥!
Elva VaVa :D
Farhan
Gavin
Isabelle
Jessica :D :D :D
Joanne ♥ XD
Joel is a legend!
Kenn Ninjaboy :D
Keng Ying CUZZIN! :D
Li Qing :DDD!
Matin! :D So cuute!
Nazry BiTCH!♥
Pearlyn So cute. :D
Rui Shuin Mah Couzin :D
Safwah rocks hardcore! :D ♥
Samuel ... Moo. :D ♥
Sarah BestFriend WALRUS ♥♥♥
Sheereen :DDD She cool yo!
Shi Wei :D:D:D So rad!
Si Ying, Tan rroooccckksss. :]
Si Ying, Yeh :D
Su Min She rocks!
Su Yuan :]

"Well you can hide a lot about yourself,
But honey, what're you gonna do?
And you can sleep in a coffin,
But the past ain't through with you."

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I'm nothing but a beautiful disaster,
Crying tears of blood and joy
Into this black void.
Oblivion;
It's the place to be.
Ephemeral Romance.
Will you come with me?




i want to be

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