So I was invited to Mrs Rupesh's Deepavali celebration dinner. Along with the Excos and the 3A1 councillors. Yesterday night was the event, and it was pretty awesome! But first, my day...

Woke up in the morning. Nothing much happened

... Until Azira SMSed! She told me there was a film showcase going on at 2 to 5 and she asked the Shoethrowers if we could go, turns out I was the only one who could make it. Met Azira's mother, brother, sister and her at Dhoby Ghaut MRT at... 1:30++ pm. We journeyed down to a 'SAE institution', where Azira's mom and bro left to watch a movie, and Azira, me and her sister to go through the course.

There were 3 speakers. And truthfully, I found the whole thing rather interesting and inspiring. (I so wanna be in film now)

... Until the last speaker put the bor(e) in boring, we left during the break at 4. Meh.

Then we headed down to Plaza Sing and walked around, I left at 5 to head back to Yishun. Then I was killing time to meet up with Zhi Qing before we headed down to Mrs Rupesh's Grandma's place. So I bought root beer and started walking around the new Northpoint mall, was in pretty high spirits

... Until 3 Christians [NO OFFENCE HERE, REALLY] came up to me, and started talking to me about God and whatnot... WTFH!?! I seriously do not mean to offend or hurt anyone's feelings here, but they kept talking to me about God and everything related to it... (I'm not interested, I'm sorry, but I'm serious). But I shan't go on into hateful, ignorant, human-sinning-nature detail...

... Then I just left them, refusing to let them give me their contacts or their music CD...

That fucking pissed me off for the rest of the time

... Until I met up with Zhi Qing. I swear friends can seriously just lift the aggravated mood. Anyway, we took 856 to the bus stop in Mrs Rupesh's given directions. Traffic was murder, we were waiting to cross so many times but the cars kept coming, there was no end to it!

... Until we just followed the girl who ran across the road somewhere in front of us. We made it and began what Haziqah called the '7 minute walk' to Mrs Rupesh's Granny's house. ... It took us less than that actually. But the sky was darkening pretty fast.

We reached the place and met Samantha, Yee Suan, Haziqah and Qing Ning. Manik and Othman were there too. They hired a caterer and they served Roti Prata (what a variety! Banana, chocolate, cheese, onion etc.), 4 types of curry, custard and jelly as well. So we ate to our full and chatted with Mrs Rupesh, and learnt that we must never marry a man who loves soccer. (Good call)

Then the ex-Excos arrived, we greeted them and continued talking and slacking and stuff. We even tried joining the men in watching soccer... That failed. Then we wanted to try to change the channel during half-time... XD Hah.

We were bored

... Until the soccer game finished and Yee Suan, Qing Ning, Zhi Qing and I watched Princess Dairies on the Disney channel, haha, it was a nice experience.

... Until I was constantly terrorized by Zhi Qing... who hasn't watched the show in ages... >:/

But anyway, we just slacked around before we decided to go home. Said bye to the ex-ex-Excos, the ex-Excos and made the '7 minute walk' journey back to the bus stop. Waiting for a suitable bus back to the Yishun interchange was a murderous nightmare. But once we got there, I walked home.

Relaxed and was so happy about my day

... Until the throbbing headache started drumming in the back of my head. Took a panadol and slept.

What a bittersweet, awesome, stupid, boring, infuriating, jealous, hateful, thought-provoking and happy day.

And this results in over-exerting myself. How's that possible!??!

"You're worth losing my self esteem. Your clever words mean nothing more to me than a lot I've heard in a movie. You're worth losing my, losing my, losing my self esteem. You're not worth putting myself in these situations. Whoa oh! Whoa, whoa oh! Why do I put myself in these situations? Whoa oh! Whoa, whoa oh! I keep pushing myself even though I can't take it at all."



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a DARK beach with a BLACK view ; it was 10:58 AM

"When the paralytic dreams that we all seem to keep. Drive on engines till they weep. With future pixels in factories far away."

"Singing songs that make you slit your wrists,
It isn't that much fun..."

M N. 5th of the April. 17. Singapore. Female. Facebook. Tumblr.

Ex-Chongfu Primary. / Ex-CHAS.
Graduated Orchid Park Secondary:
Ex-Drama. Ex-Debater. Ex-Student Councillor. Ex-1A3-ian. Once-and-forever-2A3-ian. Ex-3A1-ian. Ex-PROUD-4A1-ian.

NGEE ANN FMS MCM [mass comm] T107/T102. RADIOHEATWAVE.COM Radio DJ. STAGE 52.

IN A RELATIONSHIP ♥

FYI, I quote a LOT of lyrics.

NOT emo, just tends to be more depressed than I'd like.
NOT a rocker, but loves to rock out.
NOT so sure i know who i am.
SUFFERS from Dermatillomania
a passionate LOVE for the colour RED
& PROUD TO BE A freak. Are you?

1. Love myself.
2. Self-Acceptance.
3. Eradicate insecurities.
4. Not to care.
5. Work hard in school.
6. Start over.
7. Take it slow.
8. Keep promises.
9. GPA >3.8 [yr 1.2,1.1,2.2,2.1,3.2]
10. To be MISERABLE and HAPPY.


"If it's not enough, try again. And again. Over and over again."

[[ WaNTS && WiSHES ]]

(1) Gorillaz - Plastic Beach
(2) 30STM - This Is War
(3) New Headphones
(4) Those new JEANS
(5) A Teenage Dream

Alex. :)♥ (my bumbling idiot)

HUTTSON My poopoo DOGGIE. ♥♥♥

BANDS :: MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE. Placebo. Marilyn Manson. 30 Seconds to Mars. Avenged Sevenfold. Linkin Park. Gorillaz. The Blackout. The Academy Is... Fall Out Boy. Bullet For My Valentine. Before Their Eyes. Lady Gaga. Just to name a VERY few...

HEROES :: GERARD WAY. TDK Joker. Jared Leto. Brian Molko. Draco Malfoy. 2D. Gerard Way. ♥ XD

Dilemmas.
The conflict.
Inner conflict.
Prejudiced people.
BUGS.

2A3-ians ♥ We Rock. Like Hell.
3/4A1-ians Over speed limit :D
Shoethrowers ♥ FAMILY
Apphia! :D :D :D Hee.
Azira A-zi-zi-ziraaaa! ♥ xD
Elizabeth ♥!
Elva VaVa :D
Farhan
Gavin
Isabelle
Jessica :D :D :D
Joanne ♥ XD
Joel is a legend!
Kenn Ninjaboy :D
Keng Ying CUZZIN! :D
Li Qing :DDD!
Matin! :D So cuute!
Nazry BiTCH!♥
Pearlyn So cute. :D
Rui Shuin Mah Couzin :D
Safwah rocks hardcore! :D ♥
Samuel ... Moo. :D ♥
Sarah BestFriend WALRUS ♥♥♥
Sheereen :DDD She cool yo!
Shi Wei :D:D:D So rad!
Si Ying, Tan rroooccckksss. :]
Si Ying, Yeh :D
Su Min She rocks!
Su Yuan :]

"Well you can hide a lot about yourself,
But honey, what're you gonna do?
And you can sleep in a coffin,
But the past ain't through with you."

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I'm nothing but a beautiful disaster,
Crying tears of blood and joy
Into this black void.
Oblivion;
It's the place to be.
Ephemeral Romance.
Will you come with me?




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