Went down to the airport to study with Charlotte. Her mom came along.

I was a bit nervous, but it turned out alright.

Anyway, sat and ate at Breeks Cafe in a small, little, dim-litted booth in a secluded corner.

What I did:
♣ Finished up my A Maths tuition homework
♣ Did chemistry tuition homework
♣ Tried to make notes for Physics [didn't work because I was getting lazy and because the notes were all over the place]
♣ Read through all SS notes

Before I went home. I really should have offered to pay for my food.

Somehow I felt a huge need to study for this whole week of holidays. But it somehow didn't work out... I'm seriously worrying over my upcoming EOYs. No shit... MY BLOODY ADVANCEDS ARE JUST THE END OF THIS MONTH! Heck, 3 weeks from now, I'd be sitting for my CL Advanced... 4 weeks and I'm going to find myself in the hall, surrounded by other sec 3 students doing my EOYs.

Frick.

Am I ready? NO
Am I prepared? NO
Am I feeling lucky? NO
Am I panicking like crazy? FUCK YES
M I DOING ANYTHING TO IMPROVE THE BLOODY SITUATION?! FUCK I NEED TO GET THIS STRAIGHTENED OUT

I really need to get a sense of urgency here. I need to get motivated but it's not working. Going for the memory course helped a bit [I'm a VISUAL and AUDITORY learner] but it's not doing much.

God I need to get my life straightened out and just push myself to start studying. Last minute revision isn't going to help. I want to be promoted. I want to show myself I can do this.

But, on the lighter side, I wore my Joker tee to the study session yesterday. :D

Well, wasn't that cute? I officially have a favourite shirt now, next to my sandwich shirt. :D

I don't wanna play anymore. Cause this is hurting.

"Seems every station on the TV is selling something no one can be. If every page was torn from the magazine, would cash still drive the media machine? The products, damage and pursuit are endless, identity can leave you selfless. We will not witness this anymore. This is the end for you, my friend. I can't forgive, I won't forget. On and on, we sing our songs and on and on, the wars wage on and on and on, we sing our songs for more, for more!"

- -8<- - - - WELCOME to the world of the PLASTIC BEACH - - - ->8- -

a DARK beach with a BLACK view ; it was 12:30 PM

"When the paralytic dreams that we all seem to keep. Drive on engines till they weep. With future pixels in factories far away."

"Singing songs that make you slit your wrists,
It isn't that much fun..."

M N. 5th of the April. 17. Singapore. Female. Facebook. Tumblr.

Ex-Chongfu Primary. / Ex-CHAS.
Graduated Orchid Park Secondary:
Ex-Drama. Ex-Debater. Ex-Student Councillor. Ex-1A3-ian. Once-and-forever-2A3-ian. Ex-3A1-ian. Ex-PROUD-4A1-ian.

NGEE ANN FMS MCM [mass comm] T107/T102. RADIOHEATWAVE.COM Radio DJ. STAGE 52.

IN A RELATIONSHIP ♥

FYI, I quote a LOT of lyrics.

NOT emo, just tends to be more depressed than I'd like.
NOT a rocker, but loves to rock out.
NOT so sure i know who i am.
SUFFERS from Dermatillomania
a passionate LOVE for the colour RED
& PROUD TO BE A freak. Are you?

1. Love myself.
2. Self-Acceptance.
3. Eradicate insecurities.
4. Not to care.
5. Work hard in school.
6. Start over.
7. Take it slow.
8. Keep promises.
9. GPA >3.8 [yr 1.2,1.1,2.2,2.1,3.2]
10. To be MISERABLE and HAPPY.


"If it's not enough, try again. And again. Over and over again."

[[ WaNTS && WiSHES ]]

(1) Gorillaz - Plastic Beach
(2) 30STM - This Is War
(3) New Headphones
(4) Those new JEANS
(5) A Teenage Dream

Alex. :)♥ (my bumbling idiot)

HUTTSON My poopoo DOGGIE. ♥♥♥

BANDS :: MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE. Placebo. Marilyn Manson. 30 Seconds to Mars. Avenged Sevenfold. Linkin Park. Gorillaz. The Blackout. The Academy Is... Fall Out Boy. Bullet For My Valentine. Before Their Eyes. Lady Gaga. Just to name a VERY few...

HEROES :: GERARD WAY. TDK Joker. Jared Leto. Brian Molko. Draco Malfoy. 2D. Gerard Way. ♥ XD

Dilemmas.
The conflict.
Inner conflict.
Prejudiced people.
BUGS.

2A3-ians ♥ We Rock. Like Hell.
3/4A1-ians Over speed limit :D
Shoethrowers ♥ FAMILY
Apphia! :D :D :D Hee.
Azira A-zi-zi-ziraaaa! ♥ xD
Elizabeth ♥!
Elva VaVa :D
Farhan
Gavin
Isabelle
Jessica :D :D :D
Joanne ♥ XD
Joel is a legend!
Kenn Ninjaboy :D
Keng Ying CUZZIN! :D
Li Qing :DDD!
Matin! :D So cuute!
Nazry BiTCH!♥
Pearlyn So cute. :D
Rui Shuin Mah Couzin :D
Safwah rocks hardcore! :D ♥
Samuel ... Moo. :D ♥
Sarah BestFriend WALRUS ♥♥♥
Sheereen :DDD She cool yo!
Shi Wei :D:D:D So rad!
Si Ying, Tan rroooccckksss. :]
Si Ying, Yeh :D
Su Min She rocks!
Su Yuan :]

"Well you can hide a lot about yourself,
But honey, what're you gonna do?
And you can sleep in a coffin,
But the past ain't through with you."

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I'm nothing but a beautiful disaster,
Crying tears of blood and joy
Into this black void.
Oblivion;
It's the place to be.
Ephemeral Romance.
Will you come with me?




i want to be

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