Yesterday was the English Advanced...

And today was the Chinese Advanced.

Well, firstly, English was pure crap. I suddenly feel like I'm failing at paper 1, WHICH NEVER HAPPENS. Paper 2 was alright, but 2 marks thrashed because I put down the wrong words...

Chinese... HOLY SHITGODDAMNCONFUCIOUSFUCKIT! I actually finished paper 2. That NEVER happens. And I felt pretty good. Paper 1 was shit. But still... I'm actually finishing my papers on time now. So this is what free time feels like.

The feeling's good.

But the fun part of the advanced was that we, the sec 3s, got to sit in the hall. ALMOST LIKE WE'RE GOING FOR 'O' LEVELS'. Oh my god! It was so exciting, to be doing our EOY advanced (which I have a feeling no one was truly serious about) in the hall, under the BIG ASS FANS. Haha, it rained early today, and it was freezing inside the hall.

Brr.



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a DARK beach with a BLACK view ; it was 1:43 PM

"When the paralytic dreams that we all seem to keep. Drive on engines till they weep. With future pixels in factories far away."

Self explanatory.

This week could be one of the worst in maybe all 52 weeks of 2008 that I'll go through (unless I don't make it until the end of the year; and some weeks hasn't come on yet)

+ I became IC for Recess canteen. And I feel like an utter and complete failure in the way I'm doing my damn job. [LIKE EVERYTHING GOES WRONG THE SECOND I STEP UP]

+ 3A1 has a *brand NEW* classroom - the foyer - and we're the *smartest* kids in the whole school.

+ Young, innocent, poor, pitiful, infected puppies are as good as DEAD in that Godforsaken sadistic place.

+ New exam schedule, doesn't make much of a difference... But still I'm not memorizing and rewriting notes for SS, History and Lit. Haha... I'm such a bloody JOKE.

And I never knew
some PEOPLE
had it in them
TO BE SO
FUCKING
MEAN
i would SCORN to look you in that disguise you call your FACE

So. What happened?

Shit happened.






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a DARK beach with a BLACK view ; it was 11:41 PM

"When the paralytic dreams that we all seem to keep. Drive on engines till they weep. With future pixels in factories far away."

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a DARK beach with a BLACK view ; it was 4:26 PM

"When the paralytic dreams that we all seem to keep. Drive on engines till they weep. With future pixels in factories far away."

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a DARK beach with a BLACK view ; it was 6:40 PM

"When the paralytic dreams that we all seem to keep. Drive on engines till they weep. With future pixels in factories far away."

So I think everyone should now know.

It's been going on for some time now but everyone's not taking me seriously [well... duh because this is just for laughs in my own little imaginary world but those fo you who are playing along should at least be supportive!]

So I'm going to say it.

Ladies and gentle-man...

I MARRIED THE DARK KNIGHT'S JOKER. fo sho.

Haha. LOL. But seriously, I love his character so much in the Dark Knight, I would so marry him and do all that lovey-dovey shit and what not. XD Muhahaha. Yuss.

But anyway, moving on. Back to school we went! So it was normal as usual. Except these two days everyone's stressing on the ADVANCED EXAMS and MAIN EXAMS in week 3 and 4 and 5.

AS IF WE DON'T KNOW.

Well, should be getting to studying History and SS soon. These require the most of brain capacity. Everything else, just hopes it holds on until 9th Oct, 9:50 AM [after Physics paper]. Cause that'll mark the end of the EOY exams.

In sec 1 and 2, I never bothered. Now I think I desperately need to.

"Throw on your break lights, we're in the city of wonder. Ain't gonna play nice, watch out, you might just go under. Better think twice, your train of thought will be altered, so if you must faulter be wise. Your mind's in disturbia, it's like the darkness is the light, disturbia. Am I scaring you tonight, disturbia. Ain't used to what you like, disturbia. Disturbia."

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a DARK beach with a BLACK view ; it was 3:28 PM

"When the paralytic dreams that we all seem to keep. Drive on engines till they weep. With future pixels in factories far away."

Went down to the airport to study with Charlotte. Her mom came along.

I was a bit nervous, but it turned out alright.

Anyway, sat and ate at Breeks Cafe in a small, little, dim-litted booth in a secluded corner.

What I did:
♣ Finished up my A Maths tuition homework
♣ Did chemistry tuition homework
♣ Tried to make notes for Physics [didn't work because I was getting lazy and because the notes were all over the place]
♣ Read through all SS notes

Before I went home. I really should have offered to pay for my food.

Somehow I felt a huge need to study for this whole week of holidays. But it somehow didn't work out... I'm seriously worrying over my upcoming EOYs. No shit... MY BLOODY ADVANCEDS ARE JUST THE END OF THIS MONTH! Heck, 3 weeks from now, I'd be sitting for my CL Advanced... 4 weeks and I'm going to find myself in the hall, surrounded by other sec 3 students doing my EOYs.

Frick.

Am I ready? NO
Am I prepared? NO
Am I feeling lucky? NO
Am I panicking like crazy? FUCK YES
M I DOING ANYTHING TO IMPROVE THE BLOODY SITUATION?! FUCK I NEED TO GET THIS STRAIGHTENED OUT

I really need to get a sense of urgency here. I need to get motivated but it's not working. Going for the memory course helped a bit [I'm a VISUAL and AUDITORY learner] but it's not doing much.

God I need to get my life straightened out and just push myself to start studying. Last minute revision isn't going to help. I want to be promoted. I want to show myself I can do this.

But, on the lighter side, I wore my Joker tee to the study session yesterday. :D

Well, wasn't that cute? I officially have a favourite shirt now, next to my sandwich shirt. :D

I don't wanna play anymore. Cause this is hurting.

"Seems every station on the TV is selling something no one can be. If every page was torn from the magazine, would cash still drive the media machine? The products, damage and pursuit are endless, identity can leave you selfless. We will not witness this anymore. This is the end for you, my friend. I can't forgive, I won't forget. On and on, we sing our songs and on and on, the wars wage on and on and on, we sing our songs for more, for more!"

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a DARK beach with a BLACK view ; it was 12:30 PM

"When the paralytic dreams that we all seem to keep. Drive on engines till they weep. With future pixels in factories far away."

Returned to school today for remedial [A Maths, Physics and SS]. Before going home, there was a newspaper meeting. So I have to wirte out a review for Teachers' Day.

Then asked if we could go to anyone's house, in the end, we (ZQ, Me, Charz) decided to go to ZQ's house. Watched the best friends battle it out. Journeyed to Seng Kang in MRT... Took a very long while.

Watched more best friend fighting... everybody was best friend fighting, c'mon, HOO!

Then finally reached ZQ's place. Watched few sniplets of Donnie Darko (Charz's & ZQ's movie review column for newspaper), then tried to write review... Even tried interviewing the model and the MCs but they both failed terribly. Then for some reason, we started pretending to act like we were the people on Punk'd. The heck...

Didn't manage to get anything done... But meh, I'll find something to write down. But for now... Physics homework.

BAAAHHHH.

"If I had died I would have never felt sad at all, you will not hear me say 'I'm sorry'. Where is the light, wonder if it's weeping somewhere? Here's a lullaby to close your eyes. Goodbye. It was always you that I despised. I don't feel enough for you to cry, oh no. Here's a lullaby to close your eyes, goodbye."

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a DARK beach with a BLACK view ; it was 7:39 PM

"When the paralytic dreams that we all seem to keep. Drive on engines till they weep. With future pixels in factories far away."

"Singing songs that make you slit your wrists,
It isn't that much fun..."

M N. 5th of the April. 17. Singapore. Female. Facebook. Tumblr.

Ex-Chongfu Primary. / Ex-CHAS.
Graduated Orchid Park Secondary:
Ex-Drama. Ex-Debater. Ex-Student Councillor. Ex-1A3-ian. Once-and-forever-2A3-ian. Ex-3A1-ian. Ex-PROUD-4A1-ian.

NGEE ANN FMS MCM [mass comm] T107/T102. RADIOHEATWAVE.COM Radio DJ. STAGE 52.

IN A RELATIONSHIP ♥

FYI, I quote a LOT of lyrics.

NOT emo, just tends to be more depressed than I'd like.
NOT a rocker, but loves to rock out.
NOT so sure i know who i am.
SUFFERS from Dermatillomania
a passionate LOVE for the colour RED
& PROUD TO BE A freak. Are you?

1. Love myself.
2. Self-Acceptance.
3. Eradicate insecurities.
4. Not to care.
5. Work hard in school.
6. Start over.
7. Take it slow.
8. Keep promises.
9. GPA >3.8 [yr 1.2,1.1,2.2,2.1,3.2]
10. To be MISERABLE and HAPPY.


"If it's not enough, try again. And again. Over and over again."

[[ WaNTS && WiSHES ]]

(1) Gorillaz - Plastic Beach
(2) 30STM - This Is War
(3) New Headphones
(4) Those new JEANS
(5) A Teenage Dream

Alex. :)♥ (my bumbling idiot)

HUTTSON My poopoo DOGGIE. ♥♥♥

BANDS :: MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE. Placebo. Marilyn Manson. 30 Seconds to Mars. Avenged Sevenfold. Linkin Park. Gorillaz. The Blackout. The Academy Is... Fall Out Boy. Bullet For My Valentine. Before Their Eyes. Lady Gaga. Just to name a VERY few...

HEROES :: GERARD WAY. TDK Joker. Jared Leto. Brian Molko. Draco Malfoy. 2D. Gerard Way. ♥ XD

Dilemmas.
The conflict.
Inner conflict.
Prejudiced people.
BUGS.

2A3-ians ♥ We Rock. Like Hell.
3/4A1-ians Over speed limit :D
Shoethrowers ♥ FAMILY
Apphia! :D :D :D Hee.
Azira A-zi-zi-ziraaaa! ♥ xD
Elizabeth ♥!
Elva VaVa :D
Farhan
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Jessica :D :D :D
Joanne ♥ XD
Joel is a legend!
Kenn Ninjaboy :D
Keng Ying CUZZIN! :D
Li Qing :DDD!
Matin! :D So cuute!
Nazry BiTCH!♥
Pearlyn So cute. :D
Rui Shuin Mah Couzin :D
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Samuel ... Moo. :D ♥
Sarah BestFriend WALRUS ♥♥♥
Sheereen :DDD She cool yo!
Shi Wei :D:D:D So rad!
Si Ying, Tan rroooccckksss. :]
Si Ying, Yeh :D
Su Min She rocks!
Su Yuan :]

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But honey, what're you gonna do?
And you can sleep in a coffin,
But the past ain't through with you."

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I'm nothing but a beautiful disaster,
Crying tears of blood and joy
Into this black void.
Oblivion;
It's the place to be.
Ephemeral Romance.
Will you come with me?




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