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Friday, June 27, 2008
That Word? Courage. // Everyone's Crying for the Wrong Reasons!


STUDENT COUNCIL INVESTITURE!!!




Haha, just got back from the GREATEST [for now] SCI ever... xD Being sec 3 and wearing the whole blazer set suddenly makes more meaning then it did last year (when I hated it)... But now... Wow. A huge moment of realization. I LOVE IT!

Haha, anyway, after life skills (40 minutes of summing up the whole semester's try-not-to-date-at-this-age-sex-is-bad talk with Mrs. Rupesh), went to go find Ms. Fara for the Dramatically Sporty Camp thing... My god, must we really perform? ... This sucks... Ugh.

Anyway, after that talk, headed over to hall to help out with the BLUE carpet (chairs all ready & set up), taped carpet down, then wandered around aimlessly, ventured outside school for snacks (got coffee and choc pocky)... Then went with Charlotte to the library to atch Jeff Dunham videos. Holy crap, they are so damn hilarious XD [PEANUT RESPECT YO! Neeeeowwww!]

Anyway, went to change at 3, this time it was easier to wear those... things. Got changed into full gear, headed up to ITR room 2 to dump bags and barang... Then once everyone had their check, we headed down to the back of the hall to wait.

We were so nervous, we joked, we laughed, we jumped around, we... did the model poses with our blazers (Kenn... Wall-street businessman XD)... And then finally it was our turn to walk. It went alright, and then at our seats we sang LOUD & PROUD for our school song... Hah, we outsang the Sec 1s. XD (JUST LIKE IN SEC 1 & 2 SCI!)

But then it went okay, speeches went by (ho-hum...) and then BADGE GIVING! Watched the sec 2s and first row of sec 3s get their badges before my row went up. It was nerve-wrecking, but very fast and very soon. When I got to my position, I FORGOT TO CLOSE MY LEGS! (that sounds obscene but... I was supposed to have my feet together... don't get the wrong idea...) Thank you to Kristina and Jessica for reminding me subtly... *bows*

The pledge taking was alright, but upon going down the steps back to our seat, I MISSED THE LAST STEP. I didn't fall or anything, I SKIPPED THAT STEP ON PURPOSE (well... it was a natural thing for me to skip the last step of every staircase...) and ... well... guess that totally ruined the gracefulness of all the councillors flowing down the steps with poise and flair.

Sorry, you guys. DDDDD:

But the best part was the singing. NOW WE REALLY SANG OUR HEARTS OUT. Despite that always-happening mistake towards the end of our song, we didn't care. We literally laughed it off and sang even louder. And Nazry was behind me giving UNNECESSARY COMMENTS, but that only helped us laugh and sing even louder.

What happened:

Councillors: "You'll be in my heart!"
Nazry: "No, I won't."
Councillors: "Just look over your shoulder..." *looking at each other*
Nazry: "I don't want to."
Councillors: *laughing* "JUST LOOK OVER YOUR SHOULDER!"
Nazry: "No. No." XD

What the hell, Nazry... XD

But after that was the sec 4's performance. They danced, and we cheered. Then they did a special performance even we weren't informed or aware of... And they really moved people. They moved Ms. Soo and Mrs. Rupesh... Heck, even Muhd Nur and some other sec 4's cried onstage. The effect was just beautiful.

Even in the councillor audience, they moved some of us. Many of the sec 3 councillors were crying during their speeches (before performances) and during their performance. But SOME of us were crying for all the wrong reasons... (well, fake crying in a sense)

# o1. Charlotte "cried" because she missed the bus for the SYF opening... In the end she still made it, we presume.
# o2. Praise really cried because of the SONG, not the PEOPLE performing it... XD
# o3. Nazry "cried because we still had homework
# o4. Some really cried because the sec 4 & 5's performance was sincere and because they were leaving...
# o5. Some of us (the unemotional bastards) didn't even shed any tears... (but we felt something stirring in our hearts during their speeches)

But next year, you guys... Let's really cry for the right reason, okay? I'm starting to feel very closely attached to you guys... =]

But anyway, after that, we had refreshments, didn't really TRY to intereact with the other councillors from other schools, but then Praise accompanied me to go grab my camera and we camwhored with almost everyone. XD

But inside the ITR room 2... it was crazy. After Kenn messed up one photo, all the guys jumped on him and "tau pok-ed" him... They totally gang-banged him... XD But all in all, it was fun. Seriously, the ITR ROOM 2 MADNESS was VERY MAD. We had a crazy group photo...











But the best part was after most of the guests had left, we had that age-old tradition where all the ex-councillors and councillors gathered in the parade square and "yaaaaaaaaaam-beh!" ... We sabotaged the ex-and-new-head councillor... XD Hah.

After that, camwhored with the sec 2s even more... And finally went home. Haha, this has been SUCH a long, yet amazing day. I would die to relive this again.

TO THE SEC 4 AND 5'S... WE WILL TRULY MISS YOU. Thank you for everything. EVERYTHING.

Sigghhhh~ Onwards, onwards we go. New batch of Ex-cos and councillors. :DDD

http://s82.photobucket.com/albums/j267/Rulelezz/SCI%202008/?albumview=slideshow - SCI PHOTOS I TOOK

"When destiny calls you, you must be strong. I may not be with you, but you've got to hold on. They'll see in time... I know. We'll show them together, 'cause you'll be in my heart! Yes, you'll be in my heart, from this day on, now and forever more!"

Courage.
That was the word.
Apparently, I didn't have any.
If only I had the guts to ask, and to smile and to take.
Throw away my pride.
Dismiss all accusations and suspicions.
That nervousness and unwillingness hinders me.
I wish it didn't.
If only I had the guts...
Courage.
I need to work more on that.
Don't let this be the last chance I have.
Let this be the last chance I missed.
If only I had the guts...
THE COURAGE.


- -8<- - - - WELCOME to the world of the PLASTIC BEACH - - - ->8- -

a DARK beach with a BLACK view ; it was 8:38 PM



"When the paralytic dreams that we all seem to keep. Drive on engines till they weep. With future pixels in factories far away."





can you hear it? it's beautiful. like angels suffocating.

"Singing songs that make you slit your wrists,
It isn't that much fun..."



!EMO in the SCENE!

M N. 5th of the April. 17. Singapore. Female. Facebook. Tumblr.

Ex-Chongfu Primary. / Ex-CHAS.
Graduated Orchid Park Secondary:
Ex-Drama. Ex-Debater. Ex-Student Councillor. Ex-1A3-ian. Once-and-forever-2A3-ian. Ex-3A1-ian. Ex-PROUD-4A1-ian.

NGEE ANN FMS MCM [mass comm] T107/T102. RADIOHEATWAVE.COM Radio DJ. STAGE 52.

IN A RELATIONSHIP ♥

FYI, I quote a LOT of lyrics.

NOT emo, just tends to be more depressed than I'd like.
NOT a rocker, but loves to rock out.
NOT so sure i know who i am.
SUFFERS from Dermatillomania
a passionate LOVE for the colour RED
& PROUD TO BE A freak. Are you?

RECHERCHE.

1. Love myself.
2. Self-Acceptance.
3. Eradicate insecurities.
4. Not to care.
5. Work hard in school.
6. Start over.
7. Take it slow.
8. Keep promises.
9. GPA >3.8 [yr 1.2,1.1,2.2,2.1,3.2]
10. To be MISERABLE and HAPPY.


"If it's not enough, try again. And again. Over and over again."

student ORGANIZER.

[[ WaNTS && WiSHES ]]

(1) Gorillaz - Plastic Beach
(2) 30STM - This Is War
(3) New Headphones
(4) Those new JEANS
(5) A Teenage Dream

ROMANCE.

Alex. :)♥ (my bumbling idiot)

HUTTSON My poopoo DOGGIE. ♥♥♥

BANDS :: MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE. Placebo. Marilyn Manson. 30 Seconds to Mars. Avenged Sevenfold. Linkin Park. Gorillaz. The Blackout. The Academy Is... Fall Out Boy. Bullet For My Valentine. Before Their Eyes. Lady Gaga. Just to name a VERY few...

HEROES :: GERARD WAY. TDK Joker. Jared Leto. Brian Molko. Draco Malfoy. 2D. Gerard Way. ♥ XD

HATRED.

Dilemmas.
The conflict.
Inner conflict.
Prejudiced people.
BUGS.

SCREAMO!




party with the ROCKSTARS!

2A3-ians ♥ We Rock. Like Hell.
3/4A1-ians Over speed limit :D
Shoethrowers ♥ FAMILY
Apphia! :D :D :D Hee.
Azira A-zi-zi-ziraaaa! ♥ xD
Elizabeth ♥!
Elva VaVa :D
Farhan
Gavin
Isabelle
Jessica :D :D :D
Joanne ♥ XD
Joel is a legend!
Kenn Ninjaboy :D
Keng Ying CUZZIN! :D
Li Qing :DDD!
Matin! :D So cuute!
Nazry BiTCH!♥
Pearlyn So cute. :D
Rui Shuin Mah Couzin :D
Safwah rocks hardcore! :D ♥
Samuel ... Moo. :D ♥
Sarah BestFriend WALRUS ♥♥♥
Sheereen :DDD She cool yo!
Shi Wei :D:D:D So rad!
Si Ying, Tan rroooccckksss. :]
Si Ying, Yeh :D
Su Min She rocks!
Su Yuan :]

past CONCERTS.

"Well you can hide a lot about yourself,
But honey, what're you gonna do?
And you can sleep in a coffin,
But the past ain't through with you."


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standing OVATION.

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i am the MORBID MIND.

I'm nothing but a beautiful disaster,
Crying tears of blood and joy
Into this black void.
Oblivion;
It's the place to be.
Ephemeral Romance.
Will you come with me?




i want to be

BEAUTIFUL

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