Damn... What happened to each and everyone of us?

After this whole week, I just realized how screwed up our entire school is and will be. It worries me for the future welfare of the whole school. Let alone the world. O__O

If this is Term 2, week 2 of my sec 3 life... I fear to think what will come for us when we reach sec 4... Gahh it's so scary...

And I should be revising my work now. My MYE's coming very soon. Heck... I've only got 4 weeks left! (3 techincally if you're counting speech day rehearsals and crap and GAHH!!!) So little time... DDDDDDDDDD: -depressed emo sob-

Anyway... Life is so cruel these days. Emotions are running terribly high and problems have just skyrocketed to the next level... School-wise, study-wise and everything-outside-of-school-life-wise... It's just plain messed-up. EVERYTHING IS SERIOUSLY MESSED UP. O__O And to think I could survive this year... I'm starting to have doubts.

I'm seeing people breaking down before my eyes. I'm seeing people breaking up AND ALL OF US ARE BREAKING APART!! Somehow 2A3 just doesn't seem to exist anymore. And I've just watched through a few clips of our 2A3 days. I wanna go back. I desperately wanna go back to those times.

Not to mention the OPSS Student council farewell party we had last year, saying goodbye to the previous Sec 4 batch. Dude, I didn't even realize they took pictures! But I laughed through everything. It happened on the 7th Dec... A while after I came back from the Perak camp... And I didn't even write about that! I saw those pictures from the video and I wanted to laugh and cry... How touching... Thanks to Mdm Haslinah for letting me know about it...
For future reference

I didn't even realize they took pics with me included in them... O___o

Now I wish I could go back to the beginning and restart. Maybe I wouldn't have regretted so many things now.

It's just... everything seems to be going wrong now. And I'm terribly worried for everything else. Does it get harder every year? Even though my Sec 2 life was like soap, it was so fast it slid right by me. Then I guess everything will be different.

Now's the time to be resilient(?). But I have a feeling it's too late for that. It's far too late for that.

The future seems so bleak suddenly. DDD:

"Under the burning sun, I take a look around. Imagine if this all came down. I'm waiting for the day to come..."

- -8<- - - - WELCOME to the world of the PLASTIC BEACH - - - ->8- -

a DARK beach with a BLACK view ; it was 9:19 PM

"When the paralytic dreams that we all seem to keep. Drive on engines till they weep. With future pixels in factories far away."

"Singing songs that make you slit your wrists,
It isn't that much fun..."

M N. 5th of the April. 17. Singapore. Female. Facebook. Tumblr.

Ex-Chongfu Primary. / Ex-CHAS.
Graduated Orchid Park Secondary:
Ex-Drama. Ex-Debater. Ex-Student Councillor. Ex-1A3-ian. Once-and-forever-2A3-ian. Ex-3A1-ian. Ex-PROUD-4A1-ian.

NGEE ANN FMS MCM [mass comm] T107/T102. RADIOHEATWAVE.COM Radio DJ. STAGE 52.

IN A RELATIONSHIP ♥

FYI, I quote a LOT of lyrics.

NOT emo, just tends to be more depressed than I'd like.
NOT a rocker, but loves to rock out.
NOT so sure i know who i am.
SUFFERS from Dermatillomania
a passionate LOVE for the colour RED
& PROUD TO BE A freak. Are you?

1. Love myself.
2. Self-Acceptance.
3. Eradicate insecurities.
4. Not to care.
5. Work hard in school.
6. Start over.
7. Take it slow.
8. Keep promises.
9. GPA >3.8 [yr 1.2,1.1,2.2,2.1,3.2]
10. To be MISERABLE and HAPPY.


"If it's not enough, try again. And again. Over and over again."

[[ WaNTS && WiSHES ]]

(1) Gorillaz - Plastic Beach
(2) 30STM - This Is War
(3) New Headphones
(4) Those new JEANS
(5) A Teenage Dream

Alex. :)♥ (my bumbling idiot)

HUTTSON My poopoo DOGGIE. ♥♥♥

BANDS :: MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE. Placebo. Marilyn Manson. 30 Seconds to Mars. Avenged Sevenfold. Linkin Park. Gorillaz. The Blackout. The Academy Is... Fall Out Boy. Bullet For My Valentine. Before Their Eyes. Lady Gaga. Just to name a VERY few...

HEROES :: GERARD WAY. TDK Joker. Jared Leto. Brian Molko. Draco Malfoy. 2D. Gerard Way. ♥ XD

Dilemmas.
The conflict.
Inner conflict.
Prejudiced people.
BUGS.

2A3-ians ♥ We Rock. Like Hell.
3/4A1-ians Over speed limit :D
Shoethrowers ♥ FAMILY
Apphia! :D :D :D Hee.
Azira A-zi-zi-ziraaaa! ♥ xD
Elizabeth ♥!
Elva VaVa :D
Farhan
Gavin
Isabelle
Jessica :D :D :D
Joanne ♥ XD
Joel is a legend!
Kenn Ninjaboy :D
Keng Ying CUZZIN! :D
Li Qing :DDD!
Matin! :D So cuute!
Nazry BiTCH!♥
Pearlyn So cute. :D
Rui Shuin Mah Couzin :D
Safwah rocks hardcore! :D ♥
Samuel ... Moo. :D ♥
Sarah BestFriend WALRUS ♥♥♥
Sheereen :DDD She cool yo!
Shi Wei :D:D:D So rad!
Si Ying, Tan rroooccckksss. :]
Si Ying, Yeh :D
Su Min She rocks!
Su Yuan :]

"Well you can hide a lot about yourself,
But honey, what're you gonna do?
And you can sleep in a coffin,
But the past ain't through with you."

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I'm nothing but a beautiful disaster,
Crying tears of blood and joy
Into this black void.
Oblivion;
It's the place to be.
Ephemeral Romance.
Will you come with me?




i want to be

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