My CA1 results came back! :D Yayness... After that screw-up, I got the proper copy now.

And here they are(!) :

ENGLiSH: 68.8 [ B3 ]

CHiNESE: 47.0 [ D7 ] (Oh, it burns!)

A MaTHS: 82.5 [ A1 ]

E MaTHS: 91.0 [ A1 ]

SCiENCE (Phys + Chem): 66.5 [ B3 ]

COMBiNED HUMANiTiES (SS + Hist): 74.5 [ A2 ]

LiTERATURE: 53.0 [ C6 ]
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Truthfully, I'm mildly satisfied with it. I could have done better. A lot better. And my Chinese... I'm a gone-case. I reallydon't know how I can improve. From Sec 1 to 2 I've improved. I actually passed... but now I feel I'm degrading myself. In more ways than one.

It's late. And I feel depressed. I'm violently caught up with my own emotions and my thoughts. Bah the bloody over-thinking.

And my actions don't seem to be any better as well. And to think I had a lovely week to start with, now I have a crappy way to end this week 1.

And I'll keep continuing being paranoid and a bitch. Because I can't really change. Because I don't think I can change. Ever. At all.

In love in C ... I'm full of it and SICK of it. And now he knows. And I wished I never did anything at all. I was being an idiot. I caused so much pain to be inflicted on people: The medium, him & me. Sorry for the pain inflicted on the medium, I never meant for you to be dragged into this bloody dirty fucking mess.

When will I stop fucking messing things up?

I'M SORRY. That's all I can say.

"I gotta make up for what I've done. 'Cause I was all up in a piece of heaven. While you burned in hell, no peace forever."

Besides the morbid video my friend, Cassy, showed me from A7X, the cartoon video for "A Little Piece of Heaven". Whoa. o__o That's extreme, with the zombies and the blood, gore and morbid macabre graphics + very haunting lyrics... Whoa. For future reference: this one...

For now, I think I'll go mull and lament over the bloody mistakes I made. Because I'm a stupid fucker, and now I feel even worse than Helena when she's languishing / pineing for Demetrius...

My literature and Chinese's failing... Sigh...

Just let someone tear my heart out and eat it,
Skeletons can play in an orchestra,
Let me come back to life and die again,
And just then the sky can rain blood like it's crying.

"You had my heart, at least for the most part. 'Cause everybody's gotta die sometime, we fell apart. Let's make a new start. 'Cause everybody's gotta die sometime - yeah. But baby, don't cry..."

- -8<- - - - WELCOME to the world of the PLASTIC BEACH - - - ->8- -

a DARK beach with a BLACK view ; it was 10:41 PM

"When the paralytic dreams that we all seem to keep. Drive on engines till they weep. With future pixels in factories far away."

"Singing songs that make you slit your wrists,
It isn't that much fun..."

M N. 5th of the April. 17. Singapore. Female. Facebook. Tumblr.

Ex-Chongfu Primary. / Ex-CHAS.
Graduated Orchid Park Secondary:
Ex-Drama. Ex-Debater. Ex-Student Councillor. Ex-1A3-ian. Once-and-forever-2A3-ian. Ex-3A1-ian. Ex-PROUD-4A1-ian.

NGEE ANN FMS MCM [mass comm] T107/T102. RADIOHEATWAVE.COM Radio DJ. STAGE 52.

IN A RELATIONSHIP ♥

FYI, I quote a LOT of lyrics.

NOT emo, just tends to be more depressed than I'd like.
NOT a rocker, but loves to rock out.
NOT so sure i know who i am.
SUFFERS from Dermatillomania
a passionate LOVE for the colour RED
& PROUD TO BE A freak. Are you?

1. Love myself.
2. Self-Acceptance.
3. Eradicate insecurities.
4. Not to care.
5. Work hard in school.
6. Start over.
7. Take it slow.
8. Keep promises.
9. GPA >3.8 [yr 1.2,1.1,2.2,2.1,3.2]
10. To be MISERABLE and HAPPY.


"If it's not enough, try again. And again. Over and over again."

[[ WaNTS && WiSHES ]]

(1) Gorillaz - Plastic Beach
(2) 30STM - This Is War
(3) New Headphones
(4) Those new JEANS
(5) A Teenage Dream

Alex. :)♥ (my bumbling idiot)

HUTTSON My poopoo DOGGIE. ♥♥♥

BANDS :: MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE. Placebo. Marilyn Manson. 30 Seconds to Mars. Avenged Sevenfold. Linkin Park. Gorillaz. The Blackout. The Academy Is... Fall Out Boy. Bullet For My Valentine. Before Their Eyes. Lady Gaga. Just to name a VERY few...

HEROES :: GERARD WAY. TDK Joker. Jared Leto. Brian Molko. Draco Malfoy. 2D. Gerard Way. ♥ XD

Dilemmas.
The conflict.
Inner conflict.
Prejudiced people.
BUGS.

2A3-ians ♥ We Rock. Like Hell.
3/4A1-ians Over speed limit :D
Shoethrowers ♥ FAMILY
Apphia! :D :D :D Hee.
Azira A-zi-zi-ziraaaa! ♥ xD
Elizabeth ♥!
Elva VaVa :D
Farhan
Gavin
Isabelle
Jessica :D :D :D
Joanne ♥ XD
Joel is a legend!
Kenn Ninjaboy :D
Keng Ying CUZZIN! :D
Li Qing :DDD!
Matin! :D So cuute!
Nazry BiTCH!♥
Pearlyn So cute. :D
Rui Shuin Mah Couzin :D
Safwah rocks hardcore! :D ♥
Samuel ... Moo. :D ♥
Sarah BestFriend WALRUS ♥♥♥
Sheereen :DDD She cool yo!
Shi Wei :D:D:D So rad!
Si Ying, Tan rroooccckksss. :]
Si Ying, Yeh :D
Su Min She rocks!
Su Yuan :]

"Well you can hide a lot about yourself,
But honey, what're you gonna do?
And you can sleep in a coffin,
But the past ain't through with you."

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I'm nothing but a beautiful disaster,
Crying tears of blood and joy
Into this black void.
Oblivion;
It's the place to be.
Ephemeral Romance.
Will you come with me?




i want to be

BEAUTIFUL

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