Well. Second week's gone by. It's pretty fast... but rather slow and insecure.

Wonder how sec 4's gonna be like. Or even O' Levels for that sake. Must be one pretty big, terrible piece of a tough cookie.

We've covered pretty fast, but I somehow feel we're slowing behind the other classes. And... Covering a few chapters of work that I can barely understand and BAM! We're onto other chapters without clarifying each and everyone of them.

I think they've jumped like, five levels of stress from sec two to three. Wonder how we managed to cope with it all. And it's only the second-onto-third week. Amazing, but true. If stress really does give you grey hair, then by the end of this year, my scalp would probably glow at night.

I wonder how I can put all of that holy guy's ( I hope this isn't disrespectful calling him this... ) advice to good use. I find it easily to lose my temper and snap at people easily. God, this pains me.

It was entirely my decision. My fault. My flaws. She was just a cover-up for my mistake, my anguish, my pitiful, insincere(?) guilt. A lovely, stupid blunder I made from the first year onwards. How I put up with my own errors and faults was a miracle that pulled me all the way here. Now I wonder how it'll go in the new "path" I've chosen. I hope I don't trip and regret choosing that path, worst comes to worst, even wish I never did take that new path.

I'm a bloody, no-good, stupid, useless cheating liar. Useless cheating liar. Useless cheating lair. Damn you, Michelle. Damn you. Go to hell, Michelle. You should burn and burn and brun in hell, where they'll laugh and call you the "USELESS CHEATING LIAR" YOU ARE!!!

I think... No, I know... I might just crash and burn halfway through this year. Everything just seems so hard. I wanted to be hardworking, but it's hard now. Or is it another sorry lame excuse to use? Can't even tell what's going on anymore.

What's wrong with me?

"But can't tell if i've been breathing or sleeping or screaming or waiting for the man to call, and maybe all of the above. 'Cause moslty i've been sprawled on these Cathedral steps, while spitting out the blood and screaming 'SOMEONE SAVE US!'"

- -8<- - - - WELCOME to the world of the PLASTIC BEACH - - - ->8- -

a DARK beach with a BLACK view ; it was 12:55 AM

"When the paralytic dreams that we all seem to keep. Drive on engines till they weep. With future pixels in factories far away."

"Singing songs that make you slit your wrists,
It isn't that much fun..."

M N. 5th of the April. 17. Singapore. Female. Facebook. Tumblr.

Ex-Chongfu Primary. / Ex-CHAS.
Graduated Orchid Park Secondary:
Ex-Drama. Ex-Debater. Ex-Student Councillor. Ex-1A3-ian. Once-and-forever-2A3-ian. Ex-3A1-ian. Ex-PROUD-4A1-ian.

NGEE ANN FMS MCM [mass comm] T107/T102. RADIOHEATWAVE.COM Radio DJ. STAGE 52.

IN A RELATIONSHIP ♥

FYI, I quote a LOT of lyrics.

NOT emo, just tends to be more depressed than I'd like.
NOT a rocker, but loves to rock out.
NOT so sure i know who i am.
SUFFERS from Dermatillomania
a passionate LOVE for the colour RED
& PROUD TO BE A freak. Are you?

1. Love myself.
2. Self-Acceptance.
3. Eradicate insecurities.
4. Not to care.
5. Work hard in school.
6. Start over.
7. Take it slow.
8. Keep promises.
9. GPA >3.8 [yr 1.2,1.1,2.2,2.1,3.2]
10. To be MISERABLE and HAPPY.


"If it's not enough, try again. And again. Over and over again."

[[ WaNTS && WiSHES ]]

(1) Gorillaz - Plastic Beach
(2) 30STM - This Is War
(3) New Headphones
(4) Those new JEANS
(5) A Teenage Dream

Alex. :)♥ (my bumbling idiot)

HUTTSON My poopoo DOGGIE. ♥♥♥

BANDS :: MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE. Placebo. Marilyn Manson. 30 Seconds to Mars. Avenged Sevenfold. Linkin Park. Gorillaz. The Blackout. The Academy Is... Fall Out Boy. Bullet For My Valentine. Before Their Eyes. Lady Gaga. Just to name a VERY few...

HEROES :: GERARD WAY. TDK Joker. Jared Leto. Brian Molko. Draco Malfoy. 2D. Gerard Way. ♥ XD

Dilemmas.
The conflict.
Inner conflict.
Prejudiced people.
BUGS.

2A3-ians ♥ We Rock. Like Hell.
3/4A1-ians Over speed limit :D
Shoethrowers ♥ FAMILY
Apphia! :D :D :D Hee.
Azira A-zi-zi-ziraaaa! ♥ xD
Elizabeth ♥!
Elva VaVa :D
Farhan
Gavin
Isabelle
Jessica :D :D :D
Joanne ♥ XD
Joel is a legend!
Kenn Ninjaboy :D
Keng Ying CUZZIN! :D
Li Qing :DDD!
Matin! :D So cuute!
Nazry BiTCH!♥
Pearlyn So cute. :D
Rui Shuin Mah Couzin :D
Safwah rocks hardcore! :D ♥
Samuel ... Moo. :D ♥
Sarah BestFriend WALRUS ♥♥♥
Sheereen :DDD She cool yo!
Shi Wei :D:D:D So rad!
Si Ying, Tan rroooccckksss. :]
Si Ying, Yeh :D
Su Min She rocks!
Su Yuan :]

"Well you can hide a lot about yourself,
But honey, what're you gonna do?
And you can sleep in a coffin,
But the past ain't through with you."

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I'm nothing but a beautiful disaster,
Crying tears of blood and joy
Into this black void.
Oblivion;
It's the place to be.
Ephemeral Romance.
Will you come with me?




i want to be

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