Wednesday, October 24, 2007
Can't Tell Anything Apart
I was feeling random. And scared. Dead, bored, quiet...
The reality of life is starting to sink in. Ever since someone secretly confided in a few of us that he wasn't commited in his job now and is leaving, I'm starting to get depressed. Not to mention the principal's retiring. The same principal who allowed me into his school without a proper Primary 6 education.
I'm getting far too depressed now. It's not good. I hope I don't get low and wild, and I would do the same thing I did when I was 10. I've slowly adjusted to accepting that people have a lifespan and we have a "deadline". But I worry about them, much more than I worry about me.
What are they gonna do? Will they be happy? Are they gonna be well? Will they be safe? What will they do after this? All these torturing questions with no specific answers just makes me crack under useless pressure. Makes me wish and pray and cry hopelessly that things would remain the same. But life doesn't work that goddamned way, no matter how hard you want it to.
I wonder what will become of those two men now... After the final two days at least. I wonder where'll they go. I should wish things turn out great for them...
Wonder if I'll see them again. Ever.
"Well after all, we'll lie another day? And through it all we'll find some other way. To carry on through cartilage and fluid. And did you come to stare or wash away the blood? ... Did we all fall down? Did we all fall down? Did we all fall down? Did we all fall down?"
- -8<- - - - WELCOME to the world of the PLASTIC BEACH - - - ->8- -
a DARK beach with a BLACK view ; it was 9:18 PM
"When the paralytic dreams that we all seem to keep. Drive on engines till they weep. With future pixels in factories far away."
!EMO in the SCENE!
M N. 5th of the April. 17. Singapore. Female.
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Ex-Chongfu Primary. / Ex-CHAS.
Graduated Orchid Park Secondary:
Ex-Drama. Ex-Debater. Ex-Student Councillor. Ex-1A3-ian. Once-and-forever-2A3-ian. Ex-3A1-ian. Ex-PROUD-4A1-ian.
NGEE ANN FMS MCM [mass comm] T107/T102. RADIOHEATWAVE.COM Radio DJ. STAGE 52.
IN A RELATIONSHIP ♥
FYI, I quote a LOT of lyrics.
NOT emo, just
tends to be more depressed than I'd like.
NOT a rocker, but loves to
rock out.
NOT so sure
i know who i am.
SUFFERS from
Dermatillomania
a passionate LOVE for the colour
RED
& PROUD TO BE A
freak. Are you?
RECHERCHE.
1. Love myself.
2. Self-Acceptance.
3. Eradicate insecurities.
4. Not to care.
5. Work hard in school.
6. Start over.
7. Take it slow.
8. Keep promises.
9. GPA >3.8 [yr
1.2,1.1,2.2,2.1,3.2]
10. To be MISERABLE and HAPPY.
"If it's not enough, try again. And again. Over and over again."
student ORGANIZER.
[[ WaNTS && WiSHES ]]
(1) Gorillaz - Plastic Beach
(2)
30STM - This Is War
(3) New Headphones
(4)
Those new JEANS
(5)
A Teenage Dream
ROMANCE.
Alex. :)♥ (my bumbling idiot)
HUTTSON My poopoo DOGGIE. ♥♥♥
BANDS :: MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE. Placebo. Marilyn Manson. 30 Seconds to Mars. Avenged Sevenfold. Linkin Park. Gorillaz. The Blackout. The Academy Is... Fall Out Boy. Bullet For My Valentine. Before Their Eyes. Lady Gaga. Just to name a VERY few...
HEROES :: GERARD WAY. TDK Joker. Jared Leto. Brian Molko. Draco Malfoy. 2D. Gerard Way. ♥ XD
HATRED.
Dilemmas.
The conflict.
Inner conflict.
Prejudiced people.
BUGS.
SCREAMO!
party with the ROCKSTARS!
2A3-ians ♥ We Rock. Like Hell.
3/4A1-ians Over speed limit :D
Shoethrowers ♥ FAMILY
Apphia! :D :D :D Hee.
Azira A-zi-zi-ziraaaa! ♥ xD
Elizabeth ♥!
Elva VaVa :D
Farhan
Gavin
Isabelle
Jessica :D :D :D
Joanne ♥ XD
Joel is a legend!
Kenn Ninjaboy :D
Keng Ying CUZZIN! :D
Li Qing :DDD!
Matin! :D So cuute!
Nazry BiTCH!♥
Pearlyn So cute. :D
Rui Shuin Mah Couzin :D
Safwah rocks hardcore! :D ♥
Samuel ... Moo. :D ♥
Sarah BestFriend WALRUS ♥♥♥
Sheereen :DDD She cool yo!
Shi Wei :D:D:D So rad!
Si Ying, Tan rroooccckksss. :]
Si Ying, Yeh :D
Su Min She rocks!
Su Yuan :]
past CONCERTS.
"Well you can hide a lot about yourself,
But honey, what're you gonna do?
And you can sleep in a coffin,
But the past ain't through with you."
June 2007
July 2007
August 2007
September 2007
October 2007
November 2007
December 2007
January 2008
February 2008
March 2008
April 2008
May 2008
June 2008
July 2008
August 2008
September 2008
October 2008
November 2008
December 2008
January 2009
February 2009
March 2009
April 2009
May 2009
June 2009
July 2009
August 2009
September 2009
October 2009
November 2009
December 2009
January 2010
May 2010
August 2010
October 2010
November 2010
December 2010
March 2011
May 2011
standing OVATION.
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Image: Beyrout
i am the MORBID MIND.
I'm nothing but a beautiful disaster,
Crying tears of blood and joy
Into this black void.
Oblivion;
It's the place to be.
Ephemeral Romance.
Will you come with me?
i want to be
BEAUTIFUL
inside
