I must never ever, ever, EVER (!!!) reply to boys who regconize me as a councillor. They ask stupid questions. A.K.A. Softball Boys.

The very first stupid question I got was: "What type of councillor are you?"

WTF? What type? There were never any types! Don't tell me the Council actually has different cliques and / or social food chains.

Anyway! Continuing:

Boy: There are 'Councillor', 'Councillor councillor', 'Strict councillors'... (Councillor councillor??? WTH?! STFU!)
Me: I'm the 'Councillor who never wanted to be a councillor'." (Stupid question = Stupid answer)
Boy: ... There's also 'Slacker Councillor'...
Me: "Well yeah, I am one of them." *suppressing snicker*

What can I say? I tend to do my best on my duty (Recess Block) but I can't help it if I just don't have the "Strictness" other councillors have. I was more laid-back, rule-bending. But can I help it if other people don't listen to me when I ask them to listen? No. Case closed. I TRIED SO HARD. But they won't listen. At all.

This Saturday may be the one and only chance I get to do my best not be jealous. So far since Y had told me that X has asked Z along with them to watch the movies, I've been hella jealous. The burning, sickening resentment of jealously. I've gone green all right, but not with Live Earth, green with ENVY.

But, as an understanding mother, my mom has told me: "Do not think of them. You shouldn't care about that. Remember Huttson. He is the most important thing in your life." Still, I can't help but feel the green-eyed-monster chewing away at my thoughts and heart.

Sigh... I sometimes wish I never had hormones. It would have spared me my life and humiliation. Now for more screaming by A7X. I'm in dire need of Screamo now.

"I know this can't be right, stuck in a dream, a nightmare full of sorrow"

- -8<- - - - WELCOME to the world of the PLASTIC BEACH - - - ->8- -

a DARK beach with a BLACK view ; it was 6:31 PM

"When the paralytic dreams that we all seem to keep. Drive on engines till they weep. With future pixels in factories far away."

"Singing songs that make you slit your wrists,
It isn't that much fun..."

M N. 5th of the April. 17. Singapore. Female. Facebook. Tumblr.

Ex-Chongfu Primary. / Ex-CHAS.
Graduated Orchid Park Secondary:
Ex-Drama. Ex-Debater. Ex-Student Councillor. Ex-1A3-ian. Once-and-forever-2A3-ian. Ex-3A1-ian. Ex-PROUD-4A1-ian.

NGEE ANN FMS MCM [mass comm] T107/T102. RADIOHEATWAVE.COM Radio DJ. STAGE 52.

IN A RELATIONSHIP ♥

FYI, I quote a LOT of lyrics.

NOT emo, just tends to be more depressed than I'd like.
NOT a rocker, but loves to rock out.
NOT so sure i know who i am.
SUFFERS from Dermatillomania
a passionate LOVE for the colour RED
& PROUD TO BE A freak. Are you?

1. Love myself.
2. Self-Acceptance.
3. Eradicate insecurities.
4. Not to care.
5. Work hard in school.
6. Start over.
7. Take it slow.
8. Keep promises.
9. GPA >3.8 [yr 1.2,1.1,2.2,2.1,3.2]
10. To be MISERABLE and HAPPY.


"If it's not enough, try again. And again. Over and over again."

[[ WaNTS && WiSHES ]]

(1) Gorillaz - Plastic Beach
(2) 30STM - This Is War
(3) New Headphones
(4) Those new JEANS
(5) A Teenage Dream

Alex. :)♥ (my bumbling idiot)

HUTTSON My poopoo DOGGIE. ♥♥♥

BANDS :: MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE. Placebo. Marilyn Manson. 30 Seconds to Mars. Avenged Sevenfold. Linkin Park. Gorillaz. The Blackout. The Academy Is... Fall Out Boy. Bullet For My Valentine. Before Their Eyes. Lady Gaga. Just to name a VERY few...

HEROES :: GERARD WAY. TDK Joker. Jared Leto. Brian Molko. Draco Malfoy. 2D. Gerard Way. ♥ XD

Dilemmas.
The conflict.
Inner conflict.
Prejudiced people.
BUGS.

2A3-ians ♥ We Rock. Like Hell.
3/4A1-ians Over speed limit :D
Shoethrowers ♥ FAMILY
Apphia! :D :D :D Hee.
Azira A-zi-zi-ziraaaa! ♥ xD
Elizabeth ♥!
Elva VaVa :D
Farhan
Gavin
Isabelle
Jessica :D :D :D
Joanne ♥ XD
Joel is a legend!
Kenn Ninjaboy :D
Keng Ying CUZZIN! :D
Li Qing :DDD!
Matin! :D So cuute!
Nazry BiTCH!♥
Pearlyn So cute. :D
Rui Shuin Mah Couzin :D
Safwah rocks hardcore! :D ♥
Samuel ... Moo. :D ♥
Sarah BestFriend WALRUS ♥♥♥
Sheereen :DDD She cool yo!
Shi Wei :D:D:D So rad!
Si Ying, Tan rroooccckksss. :]
Si Ying, Yeh :D
Su Min She rocks!
Su Yuan :]

"Well you can hide a lot about yourself,
But honey, what're you gonna do?
And you can sleep in a coffin,
But the past ain't through with you."

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I'm nothing but a beautiful disaster,
Crying tears of blood and joy
Into this black void.
Oblivion;
It's the place to be.
Ephemeral Romance.
Will you come with me?




i want to be

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