...

AAHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!

S.O.S:

- I don't have much time till 1st August i.e. the date when my group has to submit History project. 80% of test mark, highly important.
- Ran 2.4 km today (now then they tell me...) Scared of not getting A, timing: 14:34 mins.
- Went over to Sarah's house. For an hour or longer, spent 98% slacking, 1% working, 1% partying. You can understand there's a very bad outcome.
- Haven't listened to one single full song of my new A7X album. Where's the time and excitement gone?!
- Scared over match against Nanyang tomorrow. Even the Coach says we can't win. And that's not good. O__O
- Missed out on 3 Thursdays (6 periods, 240 mins) of D n' T. Rest of class already started on practical. NOT GOOD.

... Insert big disappoionted, stressful sigh here. Heh... I'm dead.

Regarding Z, well, I think I know why exactly I like him. There was this one boy (We'll call him U), special thing about this boy? He was the very first boy I liked. In a way, they do resemble each other, maybe not alot in personality or appearance, but there's something about the both of them I find similar... Can't put my finger on it though.

You know, I never knew the different body forms boys have. There's skinny, tall, lanky, scrawny, short and then there's muscular... God help.

Yes, while I was at Sarah's house (this time falls under slacking percentage) I absentmindledly asked why Z seems so... "flat"... (in a form that his stomach doesn't seem to be seen). Conversation from today's earlier episode (not accurate, but I tried):

Me: "You know, why does Z seem so... flat?"
Sarah: "He's probably has a six-pack."
Me: *Staring* "What?"
Sarah: "He must be very muscular."
Me: "Wait, what makes you think he is muscular?"
Sarah: "You see his shirt lah, got muscles on his arms."
Me: "..." O_____O

You could imagine my shock there. I went "Oh fuck, I just had to like the muscular guy."

Though wondering, does Z reeeeeeally have a six-pack? Though I will admit, he does seem rather ... flat... GOD HELP.
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DEAL OR NO DEAL?

Yes, I played that game, that reality gameshow in the form of people and celebrities. With my friends. In class, not in the real-life studio. That's scary. Anyway... it all started when I"claimed" Charlie Simpson was my grandfather, and Zhi Qing was wanting him back, so she started throwing guys I liked at me, but I went "No deal, no deal".

Em... Yeah, it resulted in Sarah being the banker, ZQ being the host and me the contestant. I took "case" 7 and lost all the guys I liked, and I winded up with Hilary Duff, who was within case 7. I tried. I tried.

Then it was Sarah's turn, for some fun, I put Samuel's name on case 11, who would have thought Sarah literally chose that case. It must be destiny... For some really strange, abnormal coincidence.

ZQ's turn tomorrow, the banker (moi) is planning for her not to go home with the case containing her NLAY.

Lame, we get it. But it was fun. Really.

"Look at my face you pierce with a blank stare, No dream could prepare a heart for a lifeless friend."

- -8<- - - - WELCOME to the world of the PLASTIC BEACH - - - ->8- -

a DARK beach with a BLACK view ; it was 6:43 PM

"When the paralytic dreams that we all seem to keep. Drive on engines till they weep. With future pixels in factories far away."

"Singing songs that make you slit your wrists,
It isn't that much fun..."

M N. 5th of the April. 17. Singapore. Female. Facebook. Tumblr.

Ex-Chongfu Primary. / Ex-CHAS.
Graduated Orchid Park Secondary:
Ex-Drama. Ex-Debater. Ex-Student Councillor. Ex-1A3-ian. Once-and-forever-2A3-ian. Ex-3A1-ian. Ex-PROUD-4A1-ian.

NGEE ANN FMS MCM [mass comm] T107/T102. RADIOHEATWAVE.COM Radio DJ. STAGE 52.

IN A RELATIONSHIP ♥

FYI, I quote a LOT of lyrics.

NOT emo, just tends to be more depressed than I'd like.
NOT a rocker, but loves to rock out.
NOT so sure i know who i am.
SUFFERS from Dermatillomania
a passionate LOVE for the colour RED
& PROUD TO BE A freak. Are you?

1. Love myself.
2. Self-Acceptance.
3. Eradicate insecurities.
4. Not to care.
5. Work hard in school.
6. Start over.
7. Take it slow.
8. Keep promises.
9. GPA >3.8 [yr 1.2,1.1,2.2,2.1,3.2]
10. To be MISERABLE and HAPPY.


"If it's not enough, try again. And again. Over and over again."

[[ WaNTS && WiSHES ]]

(1) Gorillaz - Plastic Beach
(2) 30STM - This Is War
(3) New Headphones
(4) Those new JEANS
(5) A Teenage Dream

Alex. :)♥ (my bumbling idiot)

HUTTSON My poopoo DOGGIE. ♥♥♥

BANDS :: MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE. Placebo. Marilyn Manson. 30 Seconds to Mars. Avenged Sevenfold. Linkin Park. Gorillaz. The Blackout. The Academy Is... Fall Out Boy. Bullet For My Valentine. Before Their Eyes. Lady Gaga. Just to name a VERY few...

HEROES :: GERARD WAY. TDK Joker. Jared Leto. Brian Molko. Draco Malfoy. 2D. Gerard Way. ♥ XD

Dilemmas.
The conflict.
Inner conflict.
Prejudiced people.
BUGS.

2A3-ians ♥ We Rock. Like Hell.
3/4A1-ians Over speed limit :D
Shoethrowers ♥ FAMILY
Apphia! :D :D :D Hee.
Azira A-zi-zi-ziraaaa! ♥ xD
Elizabeth ♥!
Elva VaVa :D
Farhan
Gavin
Isabelle
Jessica :D :D :D
Joanne ♥ XD
Joel is a legend!
Kenn Ninjaboy :D
Keng Ying CUZZIN! :D
Li Qing :DDD!
Matin! :D So cuute!
Nazry BiTCH!♥
Pearlyn So cute. :D
Rui Shuin Mah Couzin :D
Safwah rocks hardcore! :D ♥
Samuel ... Moo. :D ♥
Sarah BestFriend WALRUS ♥♥♥
Sheereen :DDD She cool yo!
Shi Wei :D:D:D So rad!
Si Ying, Tan rroooccckksss. :]
Si Ying, Yeh :D
Su Min She rocks!
Su Yuan :]

"Well you can hide a lot about yourself,
But honey, what're you gonna do?
And you can sleep in a coffin,
But the past ain't through with you."

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I'm nothing but a beautiful disaster,
Crying tears of blood and joy
Into this black void.
Oblivion;
It's the place to be.
Ephemeral Romance.
Will you come with me?




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